Chapter one.

I felt the bed dip as he got up and ready for work. I forced myself not to move, the last thing I wanted was for him to know that I was awake. He threw the covers aside, causing them to slid off myself but I didn't dare make any move to pull them back up. The first thing he did was get in the shower and I felt a sigh of relief flow through me. I had about fifteen minutes before he got back out. I quickly got out of bed and did my best not to make any noise as I moved around the room. I shrugged on a nightgown even though it hurt to walk, thanks to Nathan's excitement the night before. Its almost like he wants it to hurt and honestly I wouldn't doubt it. Once I was covered I moved down stairs to get his breakfast ready.

Like clockwork I had the eggs made just the way he liked them and his toast and bacon done to perfection. My goal for today was to make it out of the house without any new injuries. The second I set the plate down at his chair, I heard him lumbering down the steps. I took three steps back and held my arms behind my back. He didn't like it if I stood to close to him in the morning but if I went to far back he thought I was being disrespectful. He grunted in approval as he sat down and began eating. Most women would think that he was handsome and I'm sure he is but I just can't look past some of the thing's he done and made me do. My mother told me that I was lucky for a man like him to be interested in me at such a young age. I thought it was creepy but she somehow talked me into letting him walk me down the aisle, I didn't know at the time how big of a check he had been writing her. He had blond hair and blue eyes and was pretty tall. He was a bit lankly but that didn't really fool me, I know just how hard he can hit. It didn't take long for him to finish his food and he pushed the plate away. I automatically scooped it up and began cleaning it.

He then went for his shoes and tied them up before moving in behind me. His hands roughly gripped my hips and he pulled me back into him. I forced myself not to shy away from his touch or fight him in anyway. He did things like this to try and find a reason to punish me. I didn't understand it, he didn't seem to need a reason almost any other time.

"I'll be home at 11 tonight, I'm having dinner with my assistant and will more then likely go back with her to her apartment." He paused and I could hear the smirk in his voice, he liked telling me that I wasn't good enough for him. But I didn't really care, the more he slept with other women the less he was sleeping with me. I don't think he understood that. "I expect you to be undressed and waiting for me by then." I felt my heart drop but I didn't let it show.

"Yes sir."

"I think it's about time we have another baby." His nose ran along my neck and to me it felt like spiders gliding across my skin and it took everything in me not to run away. "What do you think? You listened better when you were pregnant." He said harshly. I don't know what he means, I always listen to him. It's not like I enjoy getting beat.

"Whatever you decide is best." He laughed at me and shoved my body into the granite counter.

"Pathetic." And with that he was gone. I waited until I heard the car pull out of the driveway before finishing up the dishes and then I moved out of the kitchen and up the stairs to get Aiden up and ready. When I moved into his room he was already awake and waiting for me. The four year old knew not to make any noise until I came and got him. I hated that he had to live like this but it was only for right now, only until I could get out.

I gave him the clothes I needed him to wear and then went to get ready myself. It didn't take me long to get dressed and cover the bruises that my clothing for today wouldn't cover up.

"Mommy!" Aiden ran into the room just after I stood from slipping into my heels. I wasn't allowed to own anything else. Nathan didn't like it when I wore anything that he didn't consider ladylike. Heels, and dresses as well as lingerie were the only things that he allowed in my side of the closet. He jumped into my arms and wrapped his legs around my waist. Despite the pain the contact caused I couldn't help but laugh at him.

"Yes my love?" I readjusted him on my side and grabbed my purse from the hook on the closet wall and carried him down the steps.

"Can we go to the park today?"

"Mommy has to do something first but after that we can go." I told him to which he happily bounced in my arms. "My god your getting big." He giggled and bounced harder. I made sure to lock the door on my way out of the house and then set the child down. He pushed his dark hair into my legs as I pushed the house key into my bag. I grabbed onto his hand and started leading him down the drive way onto the sidewalk.

Every time I left the house I thought about never coming back. I always wondered how far I could get without him finding me. Probably not very far. He would play the wounded husband and claim that I kidnapped our son. He had to many friends in the police force that would help him cover up the abuse and I didn't have enough money on my own to hire a lawyer to fight for custody and I knew that if I caused him too much trouble then he would just kill me.

When Aiden was born I had been worried that he would be too much like him. I was more then happy to discover that the boy came out as the spitting image as myself and since Nathan hardly ever spent any time with him he also favored me in personality.

"Where are we going?" He asked after about half an hour of walking. I knew he was more then likely getting tired so I picked him up and put him on my back. I didn't really want to tell him where I was going. He normally does as I tell him to but I didn't want Nathan to ask him something then him lie. If Nathan ever thought that he was lying then he threatened to beat him into telling the truth and I don't know what I would do if I had to watch him beat my son. So the less Aiden knew the better.

When we finally made it to the BAU I was more then happy to put him down and walk inside the building. I knew that bringing Aiden with me wasn't the smartest thing to do. A three year old shouldn't be present when a meeting like this was happening but I couldn't leave him at home by himself and I didn't have the cash to put him in daycare. Nathan gave me a credit card but it was only for getting groceries and he got a notification every time I used it. Sometimes I could get some cash back if I bought enough stuff, he wasn't very good at math. So I wasn't sure what I was going to do with him once I made it to where I needed to be.

When I made it though security and into the elevator I felt a little bit of relief. It was the very first time that I had been somewhere that I felt a little bit safe since I was ten years old. Aiden seemed to be having a hard time holding in his excitement. I've never taken him to his big of a building before and all the fancy things they had us walk though had him mesmerized. A very colorful women walked on right behind us followed by a very large man. The color of their skin greatly contrasted each others but based on their conversation they were very good friends.

"….I'm telling you, the meatball sub cannot compare to the-"

"Is your hair really like that?" Aiden cut the women off with his very loud, very amazed voice. I felt my eyes widened and I quickly pulled him back to me and apologized to the women.

"Aiden!" I said harshly and like a wounded puppy he looked up at me apologetically. "Don't interrupt others, it's very rude."

"Sorry Mommy." He said.

"Oh, it's okay." The woman assured, "I colored my hair." She said to Aiden who was back to being amazed.

"Like a picture?"

"Just like a picture."

"I want to color my hair!" He exclaimed to me. Turning around and jumping up and down. "I want to make it blue and green, and red, and yellow, and orange…." He continued naming different colors to the point where he was repeating some of them. The lady mouth her apology to me and I just shook my head at my son.

"Okay, maybe on a day that doesn't end in 'y'." He beamed at my answer that caused both of the adults to laugh. At that moment the elevator door opened and we all stepped out. "Neither one of you wouldn't happen to know where I can find Aaron Hotchner would you?" Both of them seemed to have recognized the name.

"He's right though those doors and into one of the offices on the second level." I must have seemed lost because he added, "I'm heading that way, I'll show you."

"Well then, I must be getting back to my layer then."

"You have a layer? Like batman?" Aiden once again became excited with the new information this women was sharing with him. "I want to see it!" I went to tell him no but she cut me off before I could.

"I can show him while you speak to Aaron." My eyes widened but Aiden was already all over it.

"Mommy! Please! Please!" He was jumping up and down and pressed his his body into my legs.

"It's okay, I'm sure you have a lot of work to do." I said. She shook her head.

"It's fine, really. I'm still on my lunch." Aiden continued to give me the puppy dog eyes and I caved after making sure to get her name, I didn't want him with me while this happened anyway. He happily went off with her and the man began leading me to where I needed to go.

"Derek." He said, holding out a hand for me to shake.

"Eliza." I got the hand shake over with quickly, and crossed my arms over my chest. He seemed to find that odd but I couldn't really help it. Before he led me though a glass door I glanced behind me where Aiden had disappeared. I can't even keep my son under control, what makes me think that I'll be able to keep meeting my father a secret?

The room he led me into was filled with desks and people doing their jobs. I hadn't even been in a place like this. Not with this many important people. He led me up a small flight of stairs and I saw what he meant with the offices being on the second level. He held up a hand for me to wait a second I couldn't stop myself from flinching and taking a small step back but regained myself quickly. He gave me an odd look but I just smiled. It was a fake smile but a smile none the less.

He opened the door and I could hear him say something but couldn't tell the words that came out of his mouth. When he popped his head back out he opened the door for me to walk in.

"Thanks." I said and walked inside. I looked up and saw the man sitting behind his desk. It was almost like looking in a mirror. I hadn't expected it to be this uncanny. I rubbed my hands up and down my arms and it took me a second to remember that I had makeup covering some of the bruises. I glanced down to make sure none of the ugly blue and green was showing though and was happy to see that it wasn't. My attention was brought back by the sound of the door shutting. My eyes shot back up and I felt myself freeze for the first time since I thought of this plan.

I've always known this man was my father although this will be the first time that I get to meet him. My mother used to tell me that he was t good for us, that he wouldn't care about me. I remember the day that he got married to his wife. She had always been looking into him and everything that was going on in his life. I never realized how messed up it was until now. She had shown me a picture from the wedding and told me how happy he looked that he never had to see me.

She had told me that she told him that she was pregnant and he told her to get an abortion. But by the time she sold me into a marriage that will more then likely get me killed I decided that she probably never told me the truth about anything. So here I am.

"Take a seat." He offered and I complied slowly. I licked my lips and my foot began to shake slightly as I thought about how to approach the subject. This couldn't really go good, at least I don't think it can. I really don't want to mess this man's marriage but I don't have any other choice. I need to make sure my son is safe if something happens to me and this is the only way I can think of. I looked around his desk and saw the name plate and I knew for sure this is who I was looking for. I also saw a picture of him, his wife and what looked to be there kid.

I debated on whether or not to leave and just try and find a different way. The I thought of my son. He's such a bubbly kid and he doesn't deserve what's happening right now. He shouldn't have to hide form his father in his room every night. He shouldn't have to hear me cry from my bedroom after Nathan has his way with me and he sure as hell shouldn't have to be scared for mine or his life.

"I'm your daughter." I said it quickly but I tried to make sure that he could hear me so I didn't have to say it again. His face was closed off but at the same time I could tell he was more then shocked to hear the words. Before he could tell me differently I quickly pulled out my birth certificate and put it on the desk in front of him. He took it and looked it over. My foot bounced more aggressively as I waited for him to say something. Even though I have my reasons for wanting to get to know him and start some kind of relationship I still just really want to get to know him. I've never really had a father in my life and from the things I've seen on Tv that might be why I'm so screwed up.

"Your….my daughter?"

"You're Aaron Hotchner right?" I could feel my heart begin beating faster. This is the point where he tells me to leave. That he didn't care and that he was already happy enough with his life that I didn't matter. Each second he didn't answer me I got more and more nervous. "Would you be willing to do a paternity test?" I found myself nodding before I even understood what he was asking me. Paternity test? Will that show up under the insurance that Nathan has me under? Do they even need my name? Will I be expected to pay for half of it? I didn't know enough about any of that to give myself any real answer and I thought asking those questions might be a little weird and raise a few questions that I didn't really want to answer. "You're married?" He asked and my eyes shot down to the ring on my finger.

"Um...yeah." I twisted it absentmindedly. Honestly I hated it but if Nathan caught me without it then I would be in a lot more trouble then this stupid thing is worth. Everything Nathan made me do, he made me do it because he knew that it made me upset. Just like when he got me pregnant with Aiden. He had found me taking contraception pills one morning after he made me sleep with him and he lost it. After that he took the week off work and he made it his goal to get me pregnant. He succeeded.

Aaron seemed to be slightly surprised at that information. I knew that he knew how old I was because he's got my birth certificate and I guess being married at 20 isn't all that common. Normally kids my age are at college and having fun. Not married with a four year old son and an abusive husband. I thought about what I was supposed to do now.

"Does you're mother know you're here?" He asked. I felt my mood go sour right away.

"What she knows doesn't matter." Even I thought my voice was a little more then he deserved but I couldn't help it. I fixed my face and voice quickly. I then thought about Aiden and I didn't want to leave him with Penelope for to long.

"So that's a no."

"I shouldn't matter." I felt my pocket vibrate and I pulled out my phone. I'm on my way home now be ready for me. Nathan's text message caused my heart to nearly beat out of my chest. "I have to go." I stood up and grabbed my paper from his desk. I grabbed a pin and sticky note form his desk and scribbled my number down. "Text me with whatever you need me to do." I said quickly and left his office. I was relieved to see Penelope waiting at the end of the stairs with Aiden. I thanked her for watching him.

"Eliza!" I heard Aaron call after me but I needed to get home. None of this is going to work if Nathan finds out that I was here. He'll kill me then who will take care of Aiden?

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