Unintentional Stupidity
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me
I promise, I promise you I will
When your day is through
And so is your temper,
You know what to do.
I'm always going to be there.
Sometimes if I shout
It's not what I intended.
These words just come out,
With no gripe to bear.
"The Promise" New Found Glory
"I love you!" The lie echoes around the room in Naruto's fear-ridden voice.
Sasuke stops, cup trembling in his hands. Its not weakness that makes him do this, he's never weak—it's inability. There's nothing left to succeed, and Sasuke's always been incapable of just living—he needs a purpose.
And Naruto knows that, in is own twisted way, these words will stop Sasuke from going. This unresolved, unaccomplished thing will stop him.
The same thing that makes Sasuke take that paper cup in his hands—he's finished, he's done what must be and so has nothing left—will not let him pass this problem unfinished.
And Naruto thanks whoever he must as Sasuke puts the cup down and just stares. Thanks Sasuke's OCD, whatever gods exist, whatever karma circles or witches' spell that the cup is down.
Only to curse it all again as Sasuke's lips lift in some sort of facsimile of a smile.
"Me too."
Oh, shit.
Naruto isn't aware of how to proceed from here. He's the number one surprising ninja—now he's even surprised himself. He guesses that it shows on his face and an involuntary squeak escapes, sounding almost like a very-high—"Really?" Sasuke's nod makes his whole body go numb.
Eventually, his body moves to knock the cup away, liquid hissing where it flies over his clothes and he's crushing Sasuke to him. It's just to mask the look on his face, and he hardly notices Sasuke hugs back.
He never goes back on his word and he doesn't want to as the warmth of Sasuke seeps through his jacket—he's surprised and he just got himself into the biggest mess of his life, but the surprise is replaced by relief.
Sasuke's alive and not going—that's all he needs.
It's only later when he's back in his flat, alone and the last of the shock fading off that he wonders if he made the right decision. Such a lie would only hurt more, he thinks, in the end, if things don't work out.
His determination shouts that he won't let it end, but Naruto can hardly lie to himself and he's no longer sure. He doesn't want to hurt Sasuke, but all he was really doing back then was protecting himself from the hurt that he would have felt if Sasuke had left.
Simple, he thinks. Think simple. Sasuke is here. He loves me. I told him I loved him as well.
It can't be that bad.
Right?
Of course, there's nothing better than Naruto making a complete fool of himself and dragging Sasuke along for the ride. Just for fun, dunno if I like it or am inspired enough to continue. The song had nothing to do with the fic... it just popped up and I was like, hey, this sounds like it, let's put it in.
Hope you enjoyed. Or didn't hurl.