I AM BACK FROM THE GRAVE AND BETTER THAN EVER!
Hi everyone. I'm back and do I have some stories to tell. Sorry for the wait. You would not believe the things that have happened to me over the past year. Absolutely insane! Ugh! But w/e. I'm here and that's all that matters now. So, as so many have requested, I am now starting a sequel to my story Unlikely Romance pairing Goku and Gojyo. This story will be very centered on Goku's end of the relationship, though there will of course be the thoughts of everyone else. So this chapter is simply a refresher on my take on Goku's take on things. A Prologue, so to speak.

!!!WARNING!!! - This story will have gay love, gay sex, a gay love triangle, and quite a bit of hurt!Goku with protective!everyone else.

As usual, I am open to suggestions, ideas, questions, comments, whatever you feel has to be said. I will get the next chapter out as soon as I can. That's a promise!
So, without further ado, here goes…

Love was a complicated subject for Goku. In a sense he loved everyone that didn't try to kill him on a daily basis, though he had a few exceptions. He may not have loved Kougaiji, but he harbored a deep respect for the demon prince and his followers. Hell, he even felt toward Homura, a demigod that tried to change his very foundation. It was a mere speck of emotion, but there was something there.

However he tried to spin it, there were three males that he could not denounce his feelings toward, nor did he ever want to. Three males that had made him who was to this day.

Cho Hakkai was his best friend, caretaker, and brother in every sense of the word. Hakkai had taught him, not necessarily through word of mouth but by example, that though the past can hold devastating occurrences, one should not let them overtake one's own being. That lesson in mind, Goku overcame his immense fear of isolation, of being left alone for eternity. And for that he was grateful.

Genjo Sanzo was someone very special to him. The priest had come for him when he was on the verge of insanity, the light shinning off the man washing over the boy, overpowering the shadows that hid in the corners of his abused heart. He treasured Sanzo more than he sometimes cared to admit. He had given Goku someone to defend, to feel useful for. He became someone Sanzo didn't have to protect, making himself stronger and more courageous. And for that, he was thankful.

Sha Gojyo was something entirely different to Goku. Gojyo was an idol, an aspiration. Gojyo had been rejected by the very woman that was supposed to care for him the most, watched Dokugakuji slay the only woman important to him to save his sibling. Although he carried around that guilt, that self-loathing, Gojyo was not ashamed of who or what he was. He freely told any who asked what he is, so long as they didn't ask in ill-graces. Though he had his low times, he didn't let them keep him down. He always bounced back. Goku learned from him who he wanted to be. He wanted to be someone that was not afraid to admit that he was in fact a heretic, denounced by the very gods themselves, neither human nor demon—a race all his own.

But Gojyo also gave Goku a sense of stability. He came to care for the taboo child a great deal, as much as he cared for Sanzo. Except that what he felt for the two men was actually very different. He couldn't quite put his finger on how or why, he just simply knew they were not one and the same. Since he had given up on Sanzo caring for him that way, Goku had let his love for Gojyo grow and it blossomed. So much so, that he ached whenever the red head went out in search of adult entertainment. Eventually, by what Goku liked to think of as a pure chance of fate, Gojyo expressed that he had come to care for Goku just as much, thus they began a whole new relationship. And for that, he owed everything.

He was very happy with Gojyo. He wouldn't trade it for anything. There was only one small thing that kept it from being absolutely perfect, however. Every once in a while, Goku would get a kind of pinch in the back of his mind, a reminder of the anomaly that was his affection for Sanzo. It was for this reason and this reason only that Goku desired his and Gojyo's relationship be kept a secret. Again, he wasn't entirely sure why, but he felt it best to keep this from his sun and Gojyo didn't seem to mind too much. He had said before that it made it more exciting, but just how long would that last?

It has now been two months since Gojyo and Goku have gotten together and both were very content with the other. Unfortunately, no secret can remain a secret, just as all good things must come to an end.