Disclaimer: Twilight is the property of Stephenie Meyer
School has to end sometime, and then you have to live your life as an adult. How does a dhampir adjust to marriage and children and anything else she may encounter in her hereafter?
I lay completely sated in me lover's arms, his hand stroking lightly up and down my bare back as my fingers played lightly with his brown hair, delightfully damp from our pleasure exchange. As he held me closer I smiled blissfully, wondering at the chain of events that had led me to this perfect moment.
I had started this day with one course in mind, but when Simon told me that the decision lay with me and nobody else, something occurred to me. As I looked into those green eyes, the wrong shade of green, it was suddenly so clear that it surprised me I hadn't realised it sooner.
"I don't love you anymore." I said aloud.
"Break it to me gently." Simon said with a laugh to cover the stutter in his heart.
"Sorry. I do love you Simon. I always will, you have been a very good friend to me. However it is Malachite who I am in love with. He is my all, I realise that now, and I must rectify things with him immediately." The latter I said with dread as I hoped I had not irrevocably turned him away from me.
"Tell him he's a lucky guy." Simon said, tapping my hand. "And we can still be friends. Don't leave me hanging this time."
"I won't." I promised as I stood up from the table, then I thought of something and pulled a piece of paper and a pen to me.
I wrote quickly then slid the paper back to Simon.
"What's this?" He asked with a frown.
"Call this number if you dare." I said with an encouraging smile. "You might be surprised."
He gave me a curious look.
"Think of it as means to an apology for moving on with my love while not allowing you to do so." I stated solemnly, pushing the paper closer to him.
"You can't help who you fall in love with Liza, and other than a trace of hostility which I understand now I'm in possession of all the facts, Mal seems like a nice guy." Simon observed.
"He is more than a nice guy." I said somewhat wistful. "And he is who I'm meant to be with. You deserve someone too and you may find it on the end of this line. Although I advise you use Simon as opposed to 'Si'. I think you are more likely to be recognised that way." I stated.
"You really don't like Si do you?" He said with that old smile that had once sent my heart racing, but now it was merely the smile of my friend.
"It sounds like an exclamation of boredom." I replied and sighed as I threw my hand to my forehead dramatically.
"Ok. Point taken." He said with a chuckle, amused by my ways just like old times. "But the Hollywood types like to shorten names."
"They think it makes them sound more intimate with you?" I questioned.
"Something like that." He said with a wary sigh.
"Insist on Simon from those closest to you and it will soon become common knowledge and so Simon you will be known." I said with a grin.
"I'll take that advice on board Elizabeth." He replied with a smile, as he took my hand and kissed the back of it before tapping it and placing it back to the tabletop. "Now I think it's about time you got back to Mal. Do you need me to get Dean to bring the car?"
"No." I said, rising to my feet. "I'll walk back. It's not that far."
"Ok. Well you may as well go out via the foyer, they won't know where you've come from." He stated. "Actually if you go down to the basement you can go out the employee entrance."
"Then that is what I'll do." I said. "I will meet you again Simon, possibly we could meet under better circumstances and you can get to know Mal properly."
"That would be nice." Simon observed.
"And I highly recommend you ring that number." I said firmly, tapping the piece of paper before I smiled at him. "Goodbye my friend."
"Bye." He said with a sad smile.
"Really, do not mourn what could have been, make possible what will be and ring that number." I stated and picked up my backpack and left.
I asked the guard for the correct button in the elevator, he pointed to the one I had not come up in. This elevator had more buttons and I pressed the correct one to descend to the employee hive. It seemed a maze at first, but it was surprisingly easy to navigate my way to the outside door. I emerged in an alley and it didn't take me long to determine my destination. I made my way out onto the main street and moved at a quick pace until I was in Riverside proper and I knew the perfect route that would allow me to ghost.
I had checked my watch and I had two and a half hours to prepare to meet Mal from his lesson. I had the plan in my head; all I had to do was follow it through to the letter. I had to shower, then pack a few things for Mal and I. Perhaps purchase bread and milk so we wouldn't have to stop along the way. Yes, we shouldn't stop, along the way we would talk so that by the time we reached his cabin, blissful union. Oh dear god I was oh so ready for my Malachite now, with a ferocious desire I had not felt until this moment. What delight he could lead me to, once I had made it up to him of course. I had much to apologise for and I would do so.
Before any of that I had to retrieve my car from the student lot and move it to the all-night garage or I wouldn't be going anywhere this evening. It would have to be my Audi since I didn't have the keys for Mal's jeep, but I knew it could handle the journey thanks to Dove's insecure interruption, finally it yielded some merit. It was a ride of five minuets from the student lot to the all-night garage and thankfully I managed to find a space on street level near the door. That was a big help for me; it meant that I had less distance to bring what I might need. I checked my trunk, but all it contained was the things a sensible person would pack in case of emergency. There was plenty of room for two backpacks and a bag of groceries.
Happy that my car was in order I made my way back to my room to retrieve my toiletry bag and a change of clothes. Then I went to the bathroom to shower and dress. I returned to my room and decided to plait my hair into two braids to save time, Mal liked it when I did my hair that way if I didn't allow it to dry wild and free. I then emptied my backpack of my college work and packed clothes I would need, nothing fancy of course, it wouldn't be needed at the cabin.
I then went to Mal's room, found his spare backpack and placed in a few clothes he might need. I also found that his case of cherished papers fit snugly in the bottom, I decided to bring it because I was certain Mal took it everywhere with him if he could.
I could carry both bags easily with one on each shoulder and I made my way down through the town, stopping at the mini mart to buy the handful of supplies and made my way on to the parking lot. I packed the things into the trunk, ensuring that they were secure enough and wouldn't bounce around too much on the uneven track to the cabin. When I entered the car I realised there was a whole hour before Mal would finish his lessons, I had been more efficient than I thought.
I could not sit in the garage all this while, and going back to my dorm I might end up being late and my plan would be in jeopardy. I knew of the perfect place to wait, the place I had decided to intercept Mal regardless. Therefore, I drove down to a little lot that was opposite the entrance of the main building of the University. During the day it was packed, but this time of the night it was virtually empty. I jumped out and fed the metre before I jumped back into the car and waited. I adjusted the radio to a station I liked and tapped the steering wheel to the beat.
I felt the anticipation grow within me, along with an edge of impatience. I wished Mal's lesson would finish and then I could speak with him and apologise for my complete and utter moronic behaviour the other day. I had a few thoughts on it now, they were not excuses, but I hoped to explain my behaviour.
The clock of the University tolled nine and I started my engine, watching the entrance. As expected Mal emerged first and I waited until he was almost at the curb when I pulled out of the lot and stopped at the curb next to him. I beeped my horn and leapt out, having to stand on the footboard to look at him over the roof of the car.
"Jump in." I ordered.
"Liza?" Mal exclaimed. "What? Are you talking to me now?"
"Jump in before I get a ticket." I said firmly as the traffic began to build up around us.
"But you've ignored me the last few days." He said, not moving.
"I know and I hope to make up for it. Once we're on the road we'll talk." I stated.
Mal looked at me for a long moment and I sighed.
"I want to apologise, and explain myself, but we can't do it in the middle of traffic." I stated.
"Ok." Mal said and he opened the passenger door and threw his backpack into the back seat before sliding in himself.
I slid in myself and pulled away from the curb.
"Seatbelt." I reminded him as I clicked mine into place.
Mal fastened his seatbelt and then adjusted his seat.
"How four of them managed to fit in here I have no idea." He observed and I realised he was breaking the silence.
"I chose it because I can see over the steering wheel, I had no intention of giving rides to other people at the start of the year." I stated.
"Right." He replied. "Where are we going?" He asked as I took the turning for the Interstate.
"To the cabin." I stated. "That is a three hour journey, I am hoping that I will have absolved myself by the time we reach there."
"Absolved yourself?" Mal asked softly.
"Of all the hurt I caused you since Tuesday." I stated. "I was wrong to become angry with you when I was angry with myself."
"Yes you were." Mal replied.
"You had every right to tell me to let Simon go, was it not what I had intended for a while now?" I began my confession. "Ever since I met you? Yet confronted with him out of the blue I could not bring myself to hurt him in such a way. I could not show him that I had broken my promise when he had been mostly true to me. I realised I should have tried to find him sooner and tell him and now I was embarrassed to do so. When you told me to let him know I took exception and I'm sorry."
"I guessed that." Mal said with a small smile. "That's why I knew you needed space to think. Plus I was on the verge of saying something really nasty and I didn't want to do that."
"What were you going to say?" I asked curiously.
"I can't even remember now, it was one of those spur of the moment things, I just knew I had to stop the argument before I said anything I'd regret." He stated, looking out the windscreen, and then he turned to me. "And before you said anything more that would hurt me. You weren't thinking and you obviously needed space, so I gave it to you."
"It may have been a decision you regretted." I said sadly.
"Why?" He asked with a frown.
"Because I didn't come about this decision by thought alone." I admitted, keeping my eyes on the dark road ahead.
"What did you do?" Mal asked warily, although I was sure he already knew.
"I went to Simon with every intention of making good my promise, but I don't love him anymore." I stated. "He is no longer my Dear Boy, he is an older Simon, a more confident Simon. I have come to realise that my love for him was always platonic, but I convinced myself it was other after that whole incident with Alec. Simon was safety and loving him was easy enough, he would never force me into anything I didn't want.
"Then I met you, someone who can also bring safety and would never force me into anything. Yet I feel the burning fire of desire for you and I want to go further. Oh how I want that. I have both love and lust for you, my Malachite." I stopped and winced. "I should not call you that until we are reconciled."
"Liza, I'll always be your Malachite." He said with a smile in his voice. "Always." He emphasised, his tone becoming serious. "And what did I tell you before?"
"I'm not sure what you're referring to in particular." I stated and I risked a glance at him.
Mal shook his head with a small laugh of affection.
"Liza, haven't I told you that no matter what happens, even if we're arguing or I'm angry with you, I think we should add when you are not speaking to me and angry with me to that list, I still love you?" He demanded, and then his face softened as he gazed at me across that small distance. "I will always love you."
"I know." I replied. "And I will always love you Mal, even when I twist an argument where I am in the wrong to cast you as the perpetrator and I the victim. I love you Malachite, can you ever forgive me?" I asked and looked at him in appeal.
"You're already forgiven, it's almost forgotten." He stated and reached out to stroke my cheek. "I just need one thing more."
"What's that?" I asked with a frown, wondering what there could be.
"Tell me what happened when you went to see Simon." He stated.
I nodded and then recited the entire incident to Mal. It was surprisingly detailed and took up almost half an hour to complete, I didn't want to leave anything out that may come back to haunt me later. Finally my narration came to an end and the car fell to silence apart from the gentle hum of the engine and the low music filling the car with late night easy listening.
"So I tell you that only you can decide and you kick my arse to the curb, Simon tells you and you make a decision?" Mal asked, finally breaking the silence.
"I'm sorry." I said, dropping my head.
Mal laughed and tapped my hand.
"I was joking bach." He assured me. "I'm just glad Simon was decent enough to give you the choice. How did he take it?"
"With solemn acceptance." I stated. "But I gave him something in reparation."
"What?"
"Dove's contact details." I replied with a small, somewhat satisfied smile. "Hopefully they will find happiness together."
"That would be nice, although isn't Dove against the whole big Hollywood thing?" Mal asked with concern.
"I think she could survive it for the sake of Simon." I observed. "She is in love with him, has been ever since they met. I believe Simon has strong feelings for her too."
"How?" Mal asked with a frown.
"He did not sleep with any other girl until he met her, despite the fact that I encouraged him to." I stated.
"How do you know that?" Mal demanded.
"Perhaps I cannot be sure, but from what I have heard and I can calculate he did so."
"It would be nice to think that." Mal stated.
"Yes." I replied.
"Ok. Let's set Dove and Simon aside and summarise what you've told me." Mal said. "You went to see Simon, but you've realised you should be with me. I'm glad about that. Now I got to apologise."
"For what?" I asked in shock for as far as I was concerned I was completely to blame and Mal had nothing to feel guilty about.
"For not finding a more sympathetic and less confrontational way to tell you to tell Simon." He stated, and I frowned for there was no other way he could tell me. "When I went over it in my head I realised how you could perceive it as me threatening you. I'm sorry about that."
"You were not in the wrong." I said firmly.
"You might think that, but I wasn't as sympathetic to your situation as I could have been, and that's why I apologise." Mal countered.
"Then apology accepted for your peace of mind and not because I think you have anything to apologise for." I stated in all seriousness.
"Thank you." Mal said with a smile.
"So where does this leave us?" I asked.
"What do you mean?" He replied, sounding confused.
"Do you find me hideous now?" I inquired.
"I'll never find you hideous." Mal stated emphatically as his fingers stroke my cheek. "And I think I get what you're saying. Let's just say we had an argument, but it hasn't changed anything in our relationship. We're where we were last Wednesday, before we went to the club."
"Really?" I asked, feeling elated.
"Yes." Mal said with a firm nod of his head that made me smile.
"Oh thank you." I sighed and stroked his cheek.
Mal placed his right hand over mine, holding it to his cheek for a moment before kissing it, then he moved my hand to the steering wheel.
"You have to keep your hands in the ten and two position." He joked, although he didn't move his hand from mine. "Of course, my hands are free to do what they want." He added, whispering into my ear as his left hand stroked my neck lightly before travelling down to alight on my thigh.
"I can drive with one hand on the wheel." I assured him, running my right hand from his knee up to his thigh and I paused a moment before I moved my hand inward and I stroked gently against him.
"Please, there's still an hour of this journey left." Mal said, pulling my hand away. "I want to be on top form if what you have in mind is what I think you have in mind."
"Very well." I said, removing my hand. "But feel free to begin me on the course so that no time is wasted." I added as I moved his hand to my inner thigh and closer to my sweet spot.
"Maybe not when you're driving." Mal said.
"Very well." I replied, and pulled on to the hard shoulder. "You drive and I'm sure you can do so one-handed. I'll handle the gear stick."
"Really?" Mal asked with a grin.
"Well, when we reach the cabin." I crooned, and kissed his nose before I jumped across the seats and kissed his lips, drinking him in deeply with every sense and knowing without a doubt what true attraction and arousal was.
"I can't wait." He said in a gasp, his fingers running beneath the waistband of my jeans for a moment, his long fingers touching my nether hair at the front and making a thrill through me. "Now strap yourself in, cause I'm gonna floor this."
"I will once you vacate my seat." I whispered into his ear.
After a brief moment of shifting around and the adjusting of seats we were on the road again, Mal driving faster than I would ever dare without Tony in the car to act as a detector for speed traps. In fact he halved the time it took us to reach the cabin, and the thrill of the speed and the anticipation of what was to happen meant that I was more than ready for Mal. The wetness beneath was evidence of this. I knew we had to seize the moment as he drew to a stop.
"Come, straight into the cabin." I said, rounding the Audi quickly and all but pulling Mal from his seat, kissing him deeply.
"What about the electric and water?" He asked.
"We will deal with that later." I growled, leaping into his arms and kissing at him. "I want to know you my perfect lover before anything else should choose to interrupt us. We need no light or water, all we need is each other."
I dropped from his arms, took his hand and pulled him to the cabin, and into the bedroom. He was hesitant, but I pushed him onto the bed as I began to undress. Mal rose back to his feet and undressed himself. Oh he was beautiful naked.
I leapt naked into his arms, kissing him frantically, happy now that he was as naked as the day he was born. He laid me gently to the bed, still kissing me as his fingers caressed my body. I reached down between his legs; happy to feel he was ready for me. Now I had to guide him in.
"Whoa." Mal gasped, "I need to make sure you're in the right state or I might hurt you."
"Do I feel unready for you?" I asked, taking his hand and placing it to me and guiding his fingers inside. "Or do you think this the perfect time to insert another appendage to complete our love?"
"Yes." He replied, his lips kissing along my jawbone. "But I have to just…" He said and pulled away for a moment.
I nodded my head and propped myself on my elbows as I watched him apply what was necessary. He turned back to me, placing his hand to my cheek and he moved closer to place his lips to mine, but then he paused.
"Just one last thing." He said and he quickly unfastened my braids until my hair was loose and free. "Now how do you want to do this?" He asked, his fingers moving over my skin.
"This…this is good." I gasped, feeling my body thrill as I pulled him into me. "You on top and I below." I whispered into his ear, letting out a moan as he inserted his fingers for a moment. "At least for now."
Mal chuckled and then moved slightly and I felt him slide inside. I winced and gasped, clutching at him for a moment. Mal paused, stroking my hair back and looking into my eyes until I felt the pain abate somewhat, and then he began to move.
Together we ascended to heaven, until that great burst of pleasure that took my mind to a place beyond my body. A place where Mal existed too, where we were entwined in our pleasure, a wonderful cascade that sparkled through my veins.
Afterwards Mal turned onto his back beside me. I took a moment to catch my breath before I turned to him and snuggled into his side. Mal's arm came about me and he pulled me closer to him, his hand stroking my side as I rested my head onto his chest, stroking his side lightly moving my hand over his abdomen, loving the sheen on his skin. His scent was divine, so utterly divine. I sighed happily as I moved my hand and settled truly against him.
I lay completely sated in my Malachite's arms, his hand stroking lightly up and down my bare back as my fingers played lightly with his brown hair, delightfully damp from our pleasure exchange. As he held me closer I smiled blissfully, thinking about all we had done together, how my heart for the briefest of seconds seemed to stop in that moment of orgasm as the world caught alight, my Magnificent Malachite an eternal pleasure between my legs.
I pushed away those memories and drew myself back into the present, running my hand lightly over Mal's chest. I lifted my head until I could see his face and I smiled at him before kissing him. It was slow, almost lazy, but my naked body was spread against his, with his one hand resting beneath my buttock it was another moment of intense delight and I let out another moan.
"Those are the aftershocks." He whispered, stroking my cheek as I looked into his eyes.
"I like them." I whispered in return, before running my lips from his chin to his nose. "Do you feel them?"
"That's the unfair thing about this, all I get is that one burst of ecstasy, where you get to enjoy all these little continued ones flowing through your body." He whispered, the fingers of his right hand tracing my ear, my cheek, my lips.
"Of course it is equalised that the woman may not feel it every time she makes love." I observed before I gasped as another wave rolled over me.
"Oh but you will." Mal said. "I'll feel inadequate if you don't." He said, kissing at my throat.
I giggled as he pulled away and encouraged me to settle against his chest once more.
"With the risk of sounding crass, how was it for you?" He said in a casual, languid voice.
"People really ask that?" I asked, raising my head again and smiling at him in curiosity.
"Not normally, but then you're the first woman I've slept with that I've cared what you think." He said solemnly, and there was a new light in his green eyes I had never noticed before.
"Well until that reminder that you have known others before me, it was bliss." I said with a pout.
"Sorry about that." He said, looking genuinely appalled with his past conquest, some of which happened before I was born, all of which before he met me.
"Oh, I was teasing you my Malachite." I said, rubbing his nose with my own before settling my head to his chest. "I settled the fact that you have had past lovers in my mind long ago. You are with me now and I have the one thing they never did."
"What's that?" He asked in a guarded manner.
"Your love." I stated, lifting my head once more and looking into his eyes. "I have your love behind the act which elevates me above your former partners."
"You always amaze me." Mal observed, stroking my cheek, then he reached up and kissed my lips. "I wish I could show you how much." He added when he pulled his lips away.
I opened my eyes and then chuckled, buried my face in his shoulder to compose myself before I looked down again.
"I think you are more than capable of doing that my love." I said and kissed his cheek. "Now don't panic, I've seen what happens in this situation when I startled you before."
"What's up?" He asked, and I realised he wasn't making a joke.
"We are." I said with a giggle. "We're levitating."
"Oh god!" He gasped and we fell back to the bed.
"Why did you stop?" I asked, rubbing my foot against his leg.
"I don't know how I was doing it." He stated. "I don't know how to levitate, it just happens when I don't think about it. When I'm insanely happy and haven't a care in the world."
"It was wonderful." I said, hugging him tightly.
Mal didn't reply, merely hugged me in return before he settled against the pillows and pulled the blankets around us.
"Let's sleep a while and when we wake we'll have a good long love making session where I can enthral you as I would have if you hadn't been in such a rush." He said, the sleep clear in his voice.
"Sounds delightful." I replied as I snuggled down against his chest.
Soon Mal's breathing became steady and he was clearly asleep, yet I was not sleepy in the least. I wanted to be active; I was not ready to settle to sleep just yet. I would not wake Mal however, it would be wrong when he was so at peace. I slid out of bed and picked up the first garment I came to in the darkness of the room, it was Mal's t-shirt and I pulled it on. It came down to mid-thigh and covered everything I desired. I was not expecting company, but given the run of luck Mal and I had I preferred not to take the risk.
I made my way outside and around to the back of the cabin, breathing in the scent of the night, it was somehow sweeter, different from before. There was a strong sense of Mal about everything, I could still feel him against my skin and this thought carried me wistfully to the side of the cabin where I did all that was necessary to open it up. I attached the gas tank. I filled the generator with oil and started it. I turned on the water pump.
While I was outside I went to the privy.
As I made my way back to the cabin I passed my car, the inside light was on, both doors still wide open. I chuckled at the thought of how urgent my need for Mal had been that I left the car in such neglect. I went and closed the doors, finding the keys still in the ignition. I thanked god we were somewhere so secluded or I was certain my car would have been stolen.
I then decided that since I was by the car I might as well bring in our belongings. I did so, leaving them in the big room for the night, but I placed away the bread and milk and left my keys on the breakfast bar before I slid back into bed with Mal. I had expended some energy and now I was able to drift to sleep with happy dreams of the long and happy life that lay ahead for my Malachite and me.
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