Title: Keep Moving On
Writer: MissChriis
Beta: again,the lovely Amy [TranceGem]
Rating: M [ltrs]
Disclaimer: I don't own anything related to Grey's Anatomy & I don't plan to get any profit out of this.
SPOILER: This story takes place around five month after Episode 7.07 if you haven't seen it yet & don't want to get any spoilers, I recommend you to stop reading right now.
Summary: Quickly, Love can easily turn into hate & pain, but both couldn't exist without love. So maybe, only maybe somewhere deep underneath all the hate and pain can be found love. Who knows? Arizona seems to be over Callie and had moved on. Callie, finally does the same. But what happens, if they meet again?
A/N: No worries, remember MFEO (: But it'll take a while.
A/N2: Yes, I am obsessed with black haired girls (and green eyes) Arizona is the only blonde :'D
A/N3: This story is mostly written out of Callie's view, but there will be POV's
A/N4: Yes, I do know I actually have another open story buuuuut…I just had to get the idea out of my mind, it was blocking me :P hehe
A/N5: To the French-speakers, yeah I know that Milou isn't a actually name but I just love the sound of it [Tintin et Milou :P haha] Anyways, enough A/N's, now enjoy (:
Reviews: are always very welcome & make me happy
Exhausted and tired the raven haired beauty stumbled into her dark hotel room. It was a hell of a day, and already past midnight, she knew it only would be a couple of hours till her shift would start.
"Not much sleep tonight", she sighed thankful with a small smile on her lips. Callie avoided sleep, every time when she allowed her body to sleep, her mind brought up the moment that crashed her entire world. So she tried as well as possible to avoid sleeping. Only when it was really necessary, she slept.
After, the love of her life walked out on her on an air port, the brown eyed girl wasn't able to move back into her apartment. The apartment that was supposed to be hers and Arizona's.
So she had decided to move into a hotel room for the first few nights. Quickly, the 'few nights' turned into five month. Five month she already was without Arizona and Callie wasn't able to move on. Not, that she hadn't have enough options, she just wasn't able to get over the blonde surgeon. She just missed her too much. Being around her, falling asleep and waking up next to her, the dimples, piercing blue eyes, the smile, everything. Callie missed everything. More than once, she already had thought about to jump on a plane to Malawi, but she never got any further and stayed with the thinking part.
Callie had buried herself into work, work helped her. It kept her mind free of thoughts about the perky PEDs surgeon saving tiny humans in Africa.
But no matter, how hard she tried, no matter how busy she kept herself, no matter how often she told herself she is over Arizona, every time when the raven haired closed her eyes, to fall asleep and allowed her body to get some rest, she got reminded painfully, that she wasn't over Arizona at all.
Frustrated and not willing to see Arizona leaving her again and again in her nightmares, Callie decided to check her Mails, with a sparkle of hope that maybe Arizona had send her a message.
As soon as Fire Fox load the taps she hadn't closed last time, her eyes hung on the tap of Arizona's Facebook page. Callie checked it, from time to time, to see how Arizona was, and if she maybe had moved on.
Since blonde left, she hadn't updated her page, she only had changed her relationship status into single some days after she arrived in Malawi. Not expecting anything new, Callie still decided to give it a try and refreshed the page. To her surprise she could read: "Arizona Robbins got tagged in Felix Conner's photo album", curious Callie clicked on the italic written word to open the album.
The first thing she could see was the album name Short Trips – 2010, and the location, "Here and there…everywhere", impatient she clicked on the first picture to view it in its actually size. It showed a group of people, in the underline was written "first try". Above the underline was a bunch of names of the people who were tagged in the image.
After looking a little more in detail on the picture Callie understood why it was named first try. About 13 people stood in front of a plane goofing around, some pulled stupid faces, others jumped around or had weird poses.
It didn't take long till brown eyes spot familiar blonde curls. Arizona stood between two guys, pretending to strangle the taller one, who played laughing her victim.
"She looks so happy" Callie could hear her own voice soaked with sadness.
She knew it would hurt her to see more picture of the love of her life enjoying herself with a bunch of people Callie didn't knew. But she just had to see how Arizona was, so the black haired clicked to view the next picture. "Second Try – finally it worked" was written in the underline. This time Arizona stood between two girls, smiling brightly – like the rest of the group into the camera.
Some moments later, Callie found herself clicking though images, on the search for any hint, on Arizona's feelings, maybe something that would force Callie, to jump right into the next plane to Malawi.
Arizona wasn't on every picture Callie had seen so far, but she had commented on some.
"No, you are not going to buy one!" was written in the comment section below a picture with the underline "Can I have one?" The black haired girl on the picture was feeding a little tiger baby, her eyes seemed to really ask the question.
"How will you stop me, huh?" – Yve Warren, the girl on the picture shot back. "I have my ways :P" Arizona replied. "Oh I am sure you have, since you already tried to stop me skating around the streets and horribly failed :')" Yve gave back. "Fine. But if you get such a big, giant, dangerous…cat, I'll get Milou, okay?" Callie wasn't able to understand anything. Milou? Who was Milou? "No, you don't! Why do you think he would come with you?" Yve asked. "Because I spoil him" Arizona replied. "Crap" – "Haha see, I told you ;)" Were they flirting? On facebook? In a comment section? Were everybody could read? Callie starred stunned, at the comment-conversation on the screen in front of her.
She didn't wanted to pay attention to the picture her mind created of the perky blond haired surgeon and the black haired mysterious girl, but she couldn't ignore it.
What if Arizona already had moved on? What if she already found someone else? Callie could feel tears building inside her eyes. "Did she really forget about me? This fast?" Callie heard her own voice from far away, she still stared at the screen in front of her. Slowly Callie's view got blurry and she could feel hot tears running down her face. "What if?" she asked herself again, afraid of the answer.
Callie didn't want to see more pictures, pictures that could prove the picture her mind created of Arizona and Yve, but still she needed to. She needed to be sure. She needed to know.
Slowly and afraid she clicked on 'Next' to view the next picture.
Again, it showed the black haired girl, this time she sat on the edge of a counter. Callie had to admit, she was pretty, really pretty. She had expressive green-brown eyes and black hair. She wore a white shirt with dark blue jeans shorts, showing of her tan. On her lap, sat a little boy, smiling widely into the camera, the smile reached his dark blue eyes, he was visibly happy. Yve's hand was around the little boy's body holding him close to hers. Definitely he was her son.
The text in the underline proved Callie's guess. "Yve & her amazing [but spoiled] boy Milou". Spoiled huh? Callie thought. "He isn't spoiled. It is just very hard to say 'No' to him :') try it. You'll fail as well" Yve commented on the image. "Well said" Arizona agreed, and the image of Arizona and Yve re-build itself in Callie's mind, this time including the little boy.
After Callie finally managed to take her eyes of the picture her mind had created, she clicked 'next', her and her mind froze.
The picture showed some people out of the group from the first picture Callie had seen, sleeping on a beach. Immediately, her gaze fell on blond curls sprayed over a huge black towel. Next to her, a laid a tiny body, Milou – as Callie guessed. She hold him close to her body, but that wasn't what knocked Callie off her track, it was the way Yve sat with them. Callie hadn't noticed it at first, but Arizona's head lied on Yve's lap. The black haired girl had one hand in Arizona's curls and her other hand embraced with Arizona's. She sat there, watching the two sleep with a soft smile on her lips.
Yes, Callie had been right and so was the picture that her mind had developed.
Arizona had moved on. Arizona was over her. Arizona was with someone else now. Arizona wasn't her Arizona anymore. Now, she'd smile her dimple showing smile to Yve and the little boy, like she would fall asleep and wake up next to her as well. Callie slowly felt a lump rose in her throat.
With tears running down her cheeks, Callie shut her laptop down, regretting the moment when she had decided to check Arizona's Facebook Profile. She should have knowing better. Of course, Arizona was hot and there were girls lining up for her, but she never had guessed, Arizona would be over her that soon.
Pulling the cover over her head Callie only wanted to shut the world out. She didn't wanted to feel anymore, she didn't wanted to feel the pain the picture cause around her heart, she didn't wanted to feel the love, she still had for Arizona, and she wanted to feel the jealousy growing towards the new girl on Arizona's side.
Callie felt like she did the day, five months ago when Arizona walked out on her, at an air port. Her heart just got ripped into pieces again.
Still, she had hoped, the whole time that Arizona would get back to her, or even would message her, telling her she should come. But there wasn't even a tiny spark of hope left, that things could get better between them and they could be a couple again. The picture and Yve just had destroyed Callie's hopes, finally.
They were over, and Arizona had already moved on. Now, it was Callie's turn, to at least…try the same.
Sobbing, the raven haired beauty got up, she avoided to look into the mirror, she didn't need to see the mess Arizona had caused once again. Callie still had worn the necklace she and Arizona got together, she still had believed. But now, there wasn't any reason for that anymore.
With disgust written over her face, she took the necklace of, but as angry and as upset Callie was, she couldn't bring herself to throw the necklace – like she first had wanted, out of her window, far away from her. She couldn't. Not yet. Instead, she threw it into the corner of her suit case.
Still, feeling horrible Callie went back to bed, expecting not much sleep.
"If you get on that plane. If you go without me we are done. Do you hear me? We are over!" – "We are standing in the middle of an airport screaming at each other. We're already over."
Callie's eyes shot open. She could feel her heart beating heavily against her ribcage. Once again, she had seen her and Arizona's last moments 'together'. "We're already over", Callie repeated Arizona's words and a horrible thought flashed through her mind." Had she known?" Callie spoke out loud and realized what she thought of her ex-girlfriend – still, it was weird and unfamiliar to call her like that, even after five month. But that was impossible, or? This…couldn't been true. Of course, Callie knew Arizona had contact with the people she'd work together in Malawi, but she couldn't have knew, that there are other girls, girls who fit into her lifestyle and her dream of Africa. Arizona wasn't like that. "No" Callie tried to shack the thought away.
Arizona…just was faster, with her new situation, new location and new people around her, she was able to open herself to new people faster. To girls, with children. Now, a little boy would be raised together with Arizona, he would get the girl as mother, Callie wanted for her children as mother.
Again, tears run down her face as she pulled the cover over her head. This time, feeling nothing but emptiness.
About an hour later, Callie had decided to call in sick.
She wasn't sick, but she didn't feel well and she bet she looked like she felt. The love of her life, just had destroyed her again and Callie knew it would happen again, every time when she heard something from Arizona, or even saw her she knew it would rip her heart into more tiny pieces. This had to stop. Callie needed to find a way to get over Arizona, quickly.
Later that day, Callie found herself inside a club. First she thought about asking Mark, if he'd like to join her. But he only would have asked her, what was wrong with her and why she hadn't shown up at the hospital so she had decided to go alone.
Callie wanted to forget Arizona, she wanted to move on and she wanted to get over her, desperately. So what would be a better place to do this, if not a club, with, heavy beats and a lot of alcohol?
Quickly, Callie found a black haired girl smiling widely at her. The girl was smaller, then Callie was and her eyes nearly seemed black. Maybe it only was because of the light inside the club, but they seemed black, and this gave her something…mysterious but also fascinating. It took a moment, till Callie realized she was starring at the girl, and before she could react, the girl stood in front of her. "Hey, I'm Zoe" she smiled and Callie noticed a small hint of green inside the darkness of her eyes. "Uhm, hey Callie" she replied. "Nice to meet you Callie" Zoe grinned. "Want another drink?" she added, pointing at the empty glass in Callie's hand. "Sure" Callie replied smiling.
Another girl. Right, Callie thought. What could be a better start for moving on?
Zoe still smiled at her when they arrived at the bar. "What do you want?" she asked turning towards Callie. "I'd go with a beer" she replied simply, causing a surprised look on Zoe's face. "Okay, stay right behind me", she said and turned to the bar. When she got back, she handed Callie her beer and took a sip of her cocktail. "Why did you looked…confused for a moment, after I told you, I'd like a beer?" Callie asked smiling. "Uhm…it's just, I don't like beer, it's too bitter if you ask me." She replied flashing Callie a smile. "So you are more the cute type then?" Callie asked causing Zoe's cheeks to change their color slightly "I mean direction to sugar" the raven haired beauty added. "Yes, I am" Zoe replied with a shy smile. Callie had to admit, Zoe was cute, and not only in the sugar directed way, this girl had something. Something that was enough to drag Callie's mind free of Arizona related thoughts.
"What are you doing for living?" Zoe asked close by Callie's ear. "I'm a surgeon, I break other peoples bones" Zoe smiled. "So, you're an orthopedic surgeon? Where?" Callie could clearly hear the curiosity in Zoe's questions. "Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital" Callie replied. "Oh really? Maybe you've met older my brother" Zoe smiled. "Jackson Avery" the black haired girl in front of Callie added. "What?" Callie asked surprised. She couldn't believe what she just had heard. Avery had a little sister? A hot lesbian sister?
"I didn't knew he had a sister" Callie finally brought over her lips. "Yeah well, J likes to keep it private if it comes to us, for several reasons" she shrugged. "Mhm" Callie replied, remembering the day when Harper Avery came into the hospital. Avery had been quiet over the relation between him and the brilliant surgeon. "Yeah right. I never heard him talking about anything family related" Callie finally broke through the silence between them. "Anyways, what about you? What are you doing?" now Callie asked curious. "Actually…" Zoe started. "Let's say my occupation is my daughter" she replied honestly. "I can't work as a pre.- and elementary school teacher currently" she added with a suddenly sadness in her eyes. It took much out of Callie to not hug the girl in front of her. "Why?" she asked carrying. "Well…that's a long story." Zoe sighed "But to make it short, I had some personally problems and issues, a while ago" Callie noticed that Zoe wasn't willing to gave her any more details.
"Oh crap!" Zoe said shocked after a while, starring at the display of her IPhone. "I'm sorry Callie, I have to go. As much as I would love to stay a little longer…" she sighed. "Oh, well…" Callie was about to say goodbye to Zoe Avery but she was faster. "You know what?" she said pulling out a pen. "This is my number" she said writing quickly on Callie's hand. "If you want, message me", not it was Callie's turn to look surprised. "Thank you." She replied smiling. "Good" Zoe said. "Well, it was nice meeting you Callie. Hope I'll see you again" Zoe smiled, pulling Callie into a short hug. All Callie was able to say was a simple "Bye" before Zoe disappeared smiling in the moving crowd.
A little after Zoe went, Callie had decided to leave too, as soon as the dark eyes had left her gaze Arizona took back over her mind. And there where better places to think over the formally love of your life, then the middle of a club.
The raven haired woman knew, she wasn't over Arizona yet, but there was something about Zoe Avery that seemed to have caught her. Not only because she seemed to be mysterious like her brother. There was something behind Zoe and her behavior and Callie wanted to know what. Besides that, Zoe seemed to be a very nice girl.
Callie knew it was time to finally move on. Maybe the opportunity Zoe gave her was a good start.