Hey everyone. So this is going to be a Blue Exorcist Mini Fic. I am planning on changing a few things. Rin will be female, have more control over the flames, and have depression and anxiety. There are trigger warnings in this Fic for suicide, self harm, cutting, overdosing, pill popping. As by the title Rin will be with Ryuji. I have no proper title for this. I am literally writing this from my phone. Hope you enjoy.

I don't own Blue Exorcist because if I did, Rin and Bon would end up together.

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Chapter 1

Sometimes she wondered how she had gotten to this hellish point in her existence. Then she remembered, they knew. Everyone knew her lineage, and they hated her for it. It wasn't her fault she happened to be the love child of Satan and a human. It wasn't her fault that she inherited the power instead of her brother. She didn't ask to be different. All she wanted was to be an exorcist and kick Satan's ass. Maybe just maybe fall in love along the journey, but now that chance was shot. Ever since she had gotten back from not being executed by the Vatican, she had become a shell of the happy-go-lucky girl who loved to cook. She stayed by herself and avoided everyone since she could feel their angry and murderous and hateful glares. The blue eyed girl stared in the mirror of her bathroom hate spreading through her body like a wildfire. She glanced down to the knife in her hand and quickly reached up cutting off the long blue locks she had taken years to grow out. Why would she try and even keep up appearances? There was no point. Everyone hated her because of her father.

The knife clattered to the tile floor of the bathroom, and the sixteen year old opened the medicine cabinet showing the lone bottle of pain killers she had. She had a constant headache and had been taking as many as eight a day. She knew any ordinary person would have died by them, but because of her condition she healed faster. The eldest Okumura twin slowly grabbed the bottle and felt how light it was. A frown crossed her lips. There had been 250 tablets in the bottle, and over a week and a half almost two, it was almost gone. Opening the bottle, which was a practiced motion, she frowned seeing ten tablets. The half demon bit her lower lip as her gaze cut to the knife that was on the floor. She could end it. She could, and no one would care. Her brother, her twin brother, had flat out told he wouldn't care if she died when he caught her cutting a few days ago.

Oddly enough, Ryuji flashed in her mind making her freeze as she started to kneel to pick up the blade. Flashes of the small kisses and intimate situations they had been in appeared in her mind making her blush before her brain brought another image in her head. The look of utter betrayal and fear in Ryuji's eyes as she stood in front of him her blue flames covering her body. It broke her heart to see the person she had opened up to look at her as if she was a-a-a monster. Shaky fingers wrapped around the beautiful hilt of the knife, and a loud hiss left her throat as she quickly pressed the blade to her wrist and cut the skin watching the blood flow out of her and onto her clothes and the floor. A few more cuts were made before she stood and popped all ten pills into her mouth downing them with water from the faucet. There were a few quiet moments before worried knocks sounded at the door, and the voice of the one person whom she never wanted to see again sounded.

"Rin!?" Ryuji Suguro called as he knocked on the door to her private bathroom. He paused for a moment and heard a clatter that sounded like a bottle of some sort followed by the water in the sink turning off. He quickly knocked again. "Rin?!! I know you're in there. Open up. Please Rin. I need to talk to you." His voice slowly turned into that of a worried and desperate person.

Rin Okumura closed her eyes tightly as she listened to his voice. Her head began to spin. Never had she taken ten pills at once. The most she took was four. Never any more, but by taking ten at once and cutting a main vein on her wrists, she was being affected almost immediately. Dizziness caused her to stumble and force her to catch herself on the sink as the pain began to subside and make her numb. Her eyes opened halfway as she landed on the hard tile floor with a loud thump. Not even ten seconds later, she saw a blurry image of Ryuji breaking down the door and freezing at the sight of her. Darkness was calling her, and she happily went it ignoring Ryuji screaming her name as he cradled her body.

*Flashback*

Rin groaned softly as she rubbed her temples and looked at Ryuji in exasperation. "I don't get it! It's just not clicking!" she exclaimed and tangled her fingers into her long blue locks. The sixteen year old groaned and let her head fall to the table. After a few moments of pouting, she stood and began to gather her things.

Ryuji frowned and quickly caught her hand before she could leave the dorm room. He looked at her and quickly spoke. "You'll get them. Eventually because yes it will take time," he explained and mentally groaned. Ever since he had met her, he had been weirdly attracted to her, and he had no idea what do. Studying was really the only way he could get close to her.

Rin was wide eyed in slight shock when she felt Ryuji grab her hand. She slowly began to chew on her lower lip looking up at him through her bangs. "How can you be so sure?" she asked softly. "I have never ever been good with studying. I barely passed middle school. I just can't do school!" she exclaimed softly squeezing her eyes shut trying to pull her hand away from him.

He frowned and sighed heavily as he suddenly tugged on her hand and pulled her into a tight hug. He placed a gentle hand on top of her hair and his other around her waist as a faint blush crept up her neck. "Idiot. You can do it. You just need help. It doesn't hurt to ask for help every once in a while."

Rin went wide eyed and blushed heavily as Ryuji pulled her into a hug. She swallowed thickly listening to what he said, but the noise slowly got tuned out. He was so warm. She really liked the feeling of being held by him. Her blush intensified as she slowly wrapped her arms around his chest hiding her red face in his chest. She was shorter than him by a bit even when she did wear heels. She let her eyes slowly close as a small smile graced her lips. She felt safe for the first time in weeks. The blue haired girl pulled back slightly looking up at him through her bangs. "Will-will you help me?" she asked softly her cheeks still pink.

Ryuji looked down at her and went wide eyed mentally cursing. He couldn't help but get lost in her eyes. Were they always so blue? He slowly got lost in the blue orbs before his eyes flickered down to her pink lips. His hand on her waist tightened instinctively wanting her body as close to his as he could.

Rin blushed more than she thought was possible. She slowly felt her eyes widen as she felt a pressure on her lips before her eyelids fluttered shut. Time stood still as Ryuji Suguro kissed Rin Okumura for the first time. Rin slid her hands from his back and gently up his chest and wrapped her arms around his neck as he deepened the kiss she happily returned. She was standing on her toes as there was a good seven inch height difference between them. She gave a soft noise in her throat as she felt his hands grip her hips holding her body against his. She pulled away slowly needing air as her cheeks flushed deeply and eyelids fluttered lightly. The blue haired girl stared into the almost black orbs of the teenage boy that had taken her first kiss.

Rin gave a sudden squeak as she found herself swept off of her feet and placed on her bed of her bedroom where they had been studying. Her blue eyes were wide in anticipation of what he would do next causing her to start chewing lightly on her lower lip. "R-Ryu-kun," she murmured softly her blush intensifying as he leaned down to the creamy skin of her neck.

Ryuji felt his hormones start taking over. He was a teenage boy who liked a very beautiful teenage girl after all. He smirked slightly as he hovered over her having laid her on her bed. His right forearm rested near her head while his left hand sat on her waist and one of his legs rested between hers. He gazed at her before leaning down and placing a simple kiss on the clear, creamy skin of her neck. He placed another above the first and one below the first quickly after. He was getting addicted to her, and he had a feeling her wouldn't stop one of these days. He nearly groaned at the sound that came out of her mouth. The brown eyed teen slowly licked up her neck getting yet another moan from her before he hovered over her ear. "The more sounds you make the more impossible it will be for me to stop," he growled out softly.

Rin was blushing brightly as she leaned into Ryuji's touch. She had the biggest crush on him and has had said crush for months. She was scared though. He hated Satan and wanted to kick his ass just like she did, but she was the daughter of Satan meaning that more than likely he would hate her for it. She wanted to be with him but was scared of what he would do when he found out about her birth father.

*Timeskip*

Rin panted heavily as she fell to her knees. She hadn't drawn her sword, but she had summoned her flames to try and take care of Amaimon on her own. She was out of bullets and knew that everyone in her class could see that light blue flames covered her body. Her tail was swaying slightly as she blinked trying to regain focus. Her eyes were blurry, and her head hurt. She had killed Amaimon, but her classmates still saw. Ryuji still saw. She looked up slightly seeing Ryuji now standing in front of her with a disgust filled glare. She winced closing her eyes as she heard his anger filled voice tell her how he couldn't believe she lied and how their relationship was built on lies. She turned her head slightly and saw the current Paladin, Arthur Augustus Angel, standing to the left of her with about ten more exorcists who were ready to fight, but before he got a word out, she fell to her side falling unconscious from the amount of power she had used. She felt alone. Everyone had seen her. Ryuji hated her. Her brother hated her. Everyone hated her. Why was she still alive?

*End Flashback*

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There is the first chapter everyone. I hope you like it. I should have the second chapter up before midnight, and the third one up tomorrow afternoon.

Bye my peoples.