Author's Notes: I don't own Kingdom Hearts.

Forget-Me-Not, Roxas

By: LilyChan

Prologue

"The richness of life lies in memories we have forgotten." – Cesare Pavese, diary entry (The Burning Brand: Diaries 1935-50)

Axel turned on his side to see the blond sleeping soundly from the activities that had occurred only a few hours earlier. He sighed as he once again shut his aqua colored eyes. He couldn't believe that he had to erase his memories because he was stupid enough to blurt out their relationship during an argument with Demyx, their latest lackey.

Feeling anxious, he rose to his feet, the blanket lightly covering his crotch. He felt cool with the air conditioner blowing all around the seemingly empty apartment. Axel didn't want Roxas to leave him – it was too soon. He didn't want his love to leave him because the Organization thought that Roxas was a distraction.

Hell, they better be thankful Axel's still in the gang! Though, if he were to meet Roxas before him joining the Organization, he was sure he wouldn't have joined at all. He turned to see the blond's nostrils slightly get bigger then smaller and how his lips were slightly parted.

It was defiantly the little things that kept him with the blond – and why he even considered leaving the Organization. Roxas had only recently discovered the band of conspirers against the government. However, he didn't understand that Axel was to be punished for having a relationship outside the circle. Though there was an option to save Roxas.

Erase his memories. Forget that he had even met Axel in the first place. Of course the Organization couldn't find out. He'd have to make up something in order to not only protect his own hide, but it's also to protect Roxas.

Axel looked away. Yeah he had always put up a tough front, but he was a romantic much to his dismay. He wanted to love Roxas. Perhaps this was because it was against the rules? It didn't matter anyway.

He glanced at the blinking numbers on the alarm clock.

2:49 AM

Axel bit his lip. It was almost time for his erasing. It was scheduled to be done at 6 in the morning, and Axel couldn't be around him while it was being processed. He gripped the bed sheets tighter, as if he was trying to get a hold of time and make it last longer.

Almost three hours to go.

Why did it have to be like this? Why didn't he meet Roxas until before he made his decision on becoming a member? And besides even if he didn't meet the blond, he would've wanted to get out of the Organization. Eventually, he would if that counted for something.

He got up, as he felt the cool air. He shivered as he bent down to pick up his boxers. Even though he was going to forget about the red-head, Axel was sure that he himself wouldn't forget about Roxas. And if there was a chance to get him back, he would take it. After all, he doesn't always wave at the right opportunities as they pass by. However he decided that he might as well start packing. He promised himself that he wouldn't let Roxas see him when the blond woke up.

He just couldn't be there. It would ruin things. Axel would resort to even more rash decisions. And he couldn't risk their lives anymore. It was the only way out. He felt something on his cheek. The red-hair reached up to touch, but felt water.

He was crying of a broken heart. The man certainly felt his heart breaking. There really wasn't anything he could do about it, really, as much as he wanted to. He glanced at the ground and remembered when he had first met him. Axel smiled warmly at the memories.

At least one of us will have memories, he bitterly thought. He slightly jumped when he heard the soft tap on the door. He glanced at the door. If there was another way, Axel swore he could try and find another way. Reluctantly, he got up to answer it after he had fixed his pants. Behind the door was the silver-haired prick that had made his first years in the Organization hell after when he got the scratches.

"Hello, dear Axel," Riku, the aforementioned silver-haired prick, said as he let himself in. He wore his lab coat as well with his white latex gloves, and white shoes that only doctors wore in the hospitals. He had a demented grin but Axel only glared at him. However, Riku responded before Axel could even open his mouth. "Have you been crying? It's so strange seeing you play the submissive part," he quipped.

"Fuck you," Axel stated as he rigorously wiped his eyes with his wrist. The other man simply chuckled. He glanced at the pictures that the red-head had planted in the quaint apartment as the man struggled to put on his shirt.

"You know, you can still go behind the Organization's back," he said, a bit solemnly, "you two still can be safe."

"Riku, just because you're ballsy doesn't mean I am," he said as he searched his jeans for a cigarette. "Besides, I've risked Roxas for too long. You're just a doctor. You can get away with it because you can either kill them or just make them seriously ill. I don't have that power."

He found the pack and beat the bottom until one stuck out. He grabbed it with his mouth and brought out his lighter. He switched it on and the fire lit its ashes. Axel slowly sucked on the stick.

Riku, however, grabbed it and put it out in between his fingers.

"You're right, Axel. I do have that power over them. And you're right. I can get away with it. But I can threaten them again for your Blondie." Riku pointed to the now stirring blond. Axel glared at him but it left when he heard the boy stirring.

"I have to get out of here, Riku. I-I…don't think I can see that again." Axel said as he turned away. He grabbed his coat and bolted out the door. Riku blinked his aqua-blue eyes.

"Damn you, Axel," he muttered as he heard the boy screaming in the other room. "Always leaving me with the hard work."

Ending Notes: I hope you enjoyed this one. :3 Don't worry I haven't forgotten about the other KH fanfic! I'm working on the second chapter right now for it. Hehe. Please review if you enjoyed it.