Hey this is Shar-Lyn, Kalynda (AKA Could-be-summers-twin) sister. Because we live together we can't both have accounts as we have the same e-mail address.

This is mainly R/M because I can't get enough about Ryissa, plus they're really easy to write about. The whole car accident thing never happened and it's taken from Ryan and Marissa pulling up at the airport. oh, and Marissa was never with Volchok. ps. this is from both Ryan and Marissa point of view. Marissa is underlined.

Chapter One- A Smile and a Tear.

I've been dreading what has to come next as we pull up at the international airport, and have asked myself repeatedly, how can i possibly leave him? He's my one true love. I feel the car pull up slowly as if it's slow motion. I feel him look over at me; I raise my head to meet his sad blue eyes, I've never seen him look like this before. He's looking at me like his whole world is falling apart. There's such a deep sadness that's swept over him. He looks away just as i see a tear stream down his cheek and I ask myself again how I could do this to him? I begin to slowly sob to myself as I realize again that I'm hurting him.

We pull up to the airport and I dread what is going to happen. I love her more than life itself I have from the second I saw her standing at the bottom of the Cohens driveway. I slowly look over at her sitting next to me. Her beauty takes my breath away as it always has. I see her look at me, her eyes resembling those of a scared lost little girl. She looks back, almost pleading me to not abandon her, as if I ever could. Turning my head quickly as a warm stream steadily makes its way down my cheek as I hope that she hasn't seen it. Out of the corner of my eye I see her slowly put her head in her hands. I turn to see her slowly shaking and as I watch her body enveloped in body wracking sobs. What can I say to take her pain away? I whisper ever so softly, "I love you Marissa"

Seeing Ryan cry is too much, I put my head in my hands and continue to sob. Slowly getting louder I feel my whole body shaking; I try to stop but the harder I try the worst it gets. I can feel Ryans' eyes looking at me with the same deep sadness as before. Between sobs I hear something, so quite I'm not sure if I even hear it, but I know I did, "I Love you Marissa" slowly looking up to see Ryan. His eyes are now red and swollen. With fresh tears rolling down his cheeks. He repeats himself a little louder this time, "I love you Rissa" he used my pet name. I look into his eyes again seeing the hurt and hate myself for what I'm doing to him. I feel my whole body start to shake.

I repeat myself again, "I love you Rissa" this time I use her pet name at this she starts to sob. Once again she puts her head down and continues to sob. I ever so gently reach my hand over and start to rub her back. Feeling her relax ever so slightly as I do this.

I put my head in my hands now feeling nausea overtake my body. He starts to gently rub my back. I look up and feel nausea once again this time I jump out the car and am sick into the bushes. Before I know it Ryan is standing next to me rubbing my back. I collapse into his arms.

She looks up at me and jumps out the car being sick into the bushes. I jump out the car, see collapses into my arms. Something is wrong and I now know it. I pick her up and put her back into the car. She looks up at me and I can see by the look on her face that she knows something is wrong. She's now pale as a sheet. With this she's sick again. I quickly get a bucket out of the boot and put it in front of her she weakly smiles. I help her up and we both sit on the curve beside the car and she continues to be sick. After half and hour of continually being sick she leans against me and whispers "we better go otherwise I'll miss my flight" I nod slowly standing up and helping her up. I get her bags and lock the car.

I can tell by the look in his eyes as he locks the car that he's worried about me. "I fine honestly" I say trying to smile and fight back the nausea not believing myself with what I've said. "It's just nerves" I can tell by the look on his face that he doesn't believe me. I slip my arm through his trying to act like I'm being sweet but really I'm feeling light-headed. I know I can't fool him for a second thought. We continue to walk into the airport put my bags through check in still not letting go of his arm as we put the bags onto the conveyer belt I grasp his hand getting more light headed. Sensing this he envelopes me in his arms as collapse into them he says, "Marissa, I love you and if this is what you need to do I will support you 100 if you need me I'll be there in a second no matter where you are. Ok?" I nod ever so slightly closing my eyes and swallowing hard trying to fight back the nausea; which has once again swept over me. He goes quiet and then says "do you recognize this song?" I listen hard to hear, our song play Forever Young I smile as we start to sway to the music. We're pulled back into reality when we hear my flight being called over the PA system. I look up at him seeing that now he has a quintessence of contentment in his eyes. He slowly reaches down for my hand and starts to lead me over to the departure gate. When we reach it he grabs my other hand pulling me to face him; with this he looks into my eyes and says, "Marissa you're the love of my life and I'll be waiting when you get back" I look into his eyes seeing the certainty, instead of being sad I just smile knowing how much he really loves me. He once again envelopes me in a hug as before and I whisper, "Ryan, I love you more than I ever thought was possible." I pull back to kiss him. I turn to walk down the aisle to the plane, "Marissa!" I turn to see Ryan face, A tear streaming down his cheek, and a sad yet somehow understanding smile on his face. He mouths, "i love you" I blow him a kiss and with that turn and walk onto the plane.