Tara POV

It had been a few month's since Xander left Anya at the Alter, Once we were all told what happen and why most of the scoobies (as Xander calls us) have been divided. Well that's not true, only Willow, Dawn and I have been on his side. Even then it took
some convincing added to the fact he let the three of us do a spell to see what that troll had shown him, however the spell let us see a full glimpse his past, more importantly his home life. That for all of us was a tough see. Personally it touched
a nerve to see how terrified he was of becoming his father, because that is something I can completely relate to.

So you would think after we told everyone that Xander was not only telling the truth about the situation (even if he was giving the seriously edited version of his childhood) they would forgiven him or at least cut him some slack, however everyone else
all but ignored what we told them, saying things like "It still doesn't make what he did right." or "I don't care what he went through it couldn't have been that bad." So they just keep treating him like he was the scum of the earth.

Although one good thing came out of this whole situation, when we went into Xander's head we also felt that Xander has an high connection with magic and let me tell you when I say high I mean it. That connection of his was amazing, it's on a level that
I have never felt before, that includes my mother, Willow, Amy or me. As a matter of fact this was the very thing that lead us into asking him did he think he has a magical connection with his family. Which of coarse he said no but after further looking
into it we found out he was Adopted. When Xander finally confronted Jessica about it she told him the only thing she new about his parents were there names which where Patricia Halliwell and Victor Bennett. We found out that Patricia or Patty as she
liked to be call had passed some time ago but had three daughter's who lived in Halliwell manor.

So that brings us here to the present, we're seeing him off. Once I put the car in park and got out I saw Willow, she an as always she had that smile that made me weak in the knees. This is also something I had to thank Xander for, because we were going
through a ruff patch and he Single-handedly got us back together after sitting us both down and explaining one how stupid Willow was being with magic and two how stupid I was being with love. You know for someone who is bad about talking about his
feelings he sure is good at helping other with theirs, I wonder if he was supposed to be an enpath.

I shook my head trying to clear my thought's as Willow walked up to me while pulling me into a soft passion filed kiss, which as always was just wow. She then said "Hey Honey have you seen Dawn, she said she was going to meet us hear and I know she doesn't
want to miss saying goodbye to Xander before his trip." Just then Someone grabs me and yells boo. "AHHHHH!" A scream in surprise and turn to see it's Dawn. I was trying to gather in air while giving her a dirty look as I said "When are you going get
tired of doing that to me, you almost gave me a heart attack." As usual she has that smirk only her and Xander can pull off as she says "the day you stop screaming like you auditioning for a Jason movie is the day I'll stop and seeing as that's not
happening anytime soon..." she let the statement hang in the air. So I Just gave her the look which causes both Willow and Dawn to burst into fits of laughter.

Every since Buffy dying and everyone turning away from Xander we four have become really close, like a true family. Sometime's I wonder what it would be like if Xander, Willow and I were dating and Dawn was our daughter, we be a happy family and from
what Anya has told us I know he would be about to more than... no bad Tara. I got to stop thinking about Xander like that it has been happening a lot lately. Okay yea I know I'm Gay but Xander has always been the exception with me, he has been since
he stood up to my father and Brother for me and that feeling has only grew stronger after we saw his life. Speaking of that there was one thing that bothered me well it bothered all of us and that was the fact that he held something back in the vision's,
now we all know it had nothing to do with why he left Anya, but it still bothered us that we didn't know what was so bad he had to keep it from us after letting us see all the rest of his life. However on this subject nobody wanted to push after seeing
the look on his face every time we asked.

Once Dawn and Willow started to calm down I said "come on guys let's head inside." They agreed and I lead the way. Once we got Xander's apartment Door I used the spear Key he gave us to open it, but when I did we heard Anya shouting. "Oh yeah and I'm
supposed to care about the fact that you were mad because I slept with spike after you left me a the damn alter." Xander replied saying "I already told you why I left you that day, an even after countless apologies you still wouldn't take me back
going so far as to become a demon again, but then to make matters worse you did the one thing that you knew I couldn't take, the one thing that could hurt me more than anything you slept with a..." Anya then sneered and said "Vampire, I slept with
a Vampire so what, ever since you left me at the alter you have been paling around with your three little slut..."

It was silent, really silent for a few seconds until we Heard Xander say in a low voice "You think I'm f***ing Dawn are you mental, not everything is about sex. Let enlighten you on a few things Anyanka "and I'll take is slow so that blond
chemical you must have borrowed from Buffy doesn't make you any dumber. First let's start with something that Buffy made me promise not to tell anyone, especially Dawn after she got back from the Afterlife.

You see when the monks made the key flesh, that made her human and to be human even a mystical one you need DNA from both a father and a mother. Now After Joyce died Buffy had Dawn and herself Checked to make sure they wouldn't have the same problems
/as Joyce, however when she did not only did the test come back negative, but it also showed Dawn didn't have any summer DNA in her and that was because Buffy wasn't who the monks made the key from, the spell they used was to wasn't very specific,
/it made the key into human form to be protected by the current slayer. Now as we all know when Buffy died the first time Kendra was called, when Kendra died Faith was called and when Buffy died again nobody was called. The reason being for that
/is Buffy is a slayer but not the current slayer. When the monks made Dawn, they used the DNA of the current slayer Faith Lehane and your's truly."

Anya then said "So your trying to tell me in some freaky way Dawn is your daughter?" Xander then said "Dig, dig, dig, you guest it tell what she won bob." Xander then sighed and said "All sarcasm aside yes she is my daughter, the monks can't create life
out of nothing so they used the one time we had sex with no protection which apparently gave us a child but the monks took Dawn away and because the slayer line is split she some how was sent back as Buffy's sister.

This is the secret that has been eating me alive since I found out, the only thing that makes this worse is fact that I can't tell her that I'm her father, that I couldn't hold her as a child, or see her first steps, or do any of the things I always wanted
to do as a father, No matter how glad I am for Joyce raising her, I still wanted to be a father, But Buffy took that away from me. Hell the only reason I know is because she told me that for hurting you and making me send angel to hell I don't deserve
a daughter, however she knew how much I truly wanted a family so she said this is both my gift and punishment. Buffy told me if I ever told Dawn the truth, she would move her as far away from me as possible for taking away the memory of her real mother
away. she also said she would kill me if I did so and make it look like an accident and nobody would think any different because of the loser I am. Also if you think I'm lying then answer me this why haven't I tried to make buddy buddy with her."

Xander then continued saying "Now as for Tara and Willow, I never has sex with either of them and if you ever so much as fix your mouth to call them or any of my girls word ever again, I will end you, you get me Anyanka." Anya was silent for a moment
we all were then she said "You love them, you sick son of a B***h you love them both, you may not have slept with them but you are in love with them, no wait your in love with both of them, your perving on you best friend and her girlfriend."

Xander then surprised us when he said "So what of if I am. Is that what you want to hear yes, yes, yes I love them both I have been in love with Willow all my life, she is the flower of my soul, she makes all this crazy crap that I call my life worth
up with, she is one of the three reason I haven't out a bullet in my skull, and Tara. Tara is the sunshine of my existence, because I didn't even know my world was dark and dreary until she showed up into my life to brighten it up. So you ask me if
I love them the answer should have been obvious, yes I have loved them, they are my girls, since the first time I saw them but they are both to damn good for me, I'm nothing, a loser the Zeppo and that is all I will be. But even with that said I thank
my lucky stars every day that Joyce made sure my baby girl never became that, I thank the goddess everyday that Willow has and will continue to give Tara the love she's deserved her whole life, Just as I thank the goddess that Tara will make sure
that Willow will never have to see what life is like in the darkness that is my world."

Xander took a breath trying to clam down then continued saying "look Anya I tried, I truly did try to love you. Even if most of our relationship was based on sex. I still tried, but truth be told you never loved me, I could see it in your eyes and the
way you looked at me. However what you have given me was more than I deserved, Because I truly didn't give you all my heart, for it wasn't mine to give, it belonged to them and only them." Anya then said "I hope you don't expect me to feel sorry for
you cause I don't, your just as pathetic as your father, a sad excuse for boyfriend an a all around worthless piece of S**t, Cordelia had it right you are the Zeppo so good bye Alexander and good riddance."

After that Anya stormed out the Apartment not paying any attention to us. we were all shaking with barely controlled rage but that went away as soon as we saw Xander finally come out of the room. when he saw us, we didn't say anything we all just look
at each other, However I noticed that his eye's were full with tears. After a while He said in a quite voice "How much did you hear?" None of us could answer, having been brought to tears ourselves during their conversation. After a few more seconds
it was Dawn who was the first to reply but not with words she just ran to Xander hugged him and said "You know I used to think I was in love with you but after over hearing you I realized that I confused the feels of parental love and being in love.
Xander you are my Daddy, your not worthless, or the Zeppo your my Xman, the one man who has always been there for me and always has my back, also you don't have to worry about me forgetting mom, she will always hold a place in my heart just like you
daddy. Besides you have always been more of a father to me than Hank Summers has ever has been." Xander then embraced Dawn tighter as the two continued to let the rest of there feelings out.

Not wanting to interrupt this precious father daughter moment(along with being completely nervous), I looked to Willow, an as if knowing what I was about to ask she nodded her head yes. So I walked forward waited until Xander looked up and I put my finger
to his lips before he got a chance to say anything, then I took a deep breath an looked into Xander's beautiful eye's that were so filled with so much pain that it broke my heart, So I gathered my courage and said "Is that how you truly feel about
us." He looked sad, like he was about to lose the one of the most important people in his life and I suppose in his mind he was. He then nodded and whisper "yea". I smiled trying to reassure him that I wasn't going anywhere, then I pulled him into
a kiss, which must have surprised him because it took him a second to return said kiss, but once he did all I could say was "wow!", Now the only person who was able to give me the wow factor was Willow, well that is until now.

Willow then walked up to Xander and said "Xand you now I have always loved you and not just as a friend, those feeling have never when away even when I'm with Tara you hold a special place in my heart and from looking at the kiss you hold a special place
in her's two. However if this is going to work we need to be totally honest with each other from now on also." Willow then slapped him upside the head and said "If I ever hear you call your self the Zeppo again then so help me Xand I'll, I'll, I'll
do something very unpleasant and I'm serious, you see the resolve face." Xander laughed and nodded as Willow pulled him into a fiery kiss that I had to say was extremely hot. After a few seconds he pulled away as Dawn said "Ewwwwwwww I don't need
to see my parents making out that's just grose."

Once this slipped out she put her hand over her mouth and blushed, I smiled at her and said "Is that really how you feel about us because I can say that I speak for both of us when I say you are defiantly the daughter we always wanted." She smiled with
tears coming down her eye's as she said "I love my family but I really think we need to visit Faith..." Xander then said "Yea I know she is the other one I have never stopped loving but she never..." Willow cut him off saying "Yes she did, she loved
you just as much as I did, it was the reason I got so mad when I found out you slept with her because she was the only one to really see you like I did only she hid it behind her tough girl attitude."

Dawn then said "I have an idea, I think I should go with daddy to San Francisco to meet his new family, while my new mommies help get my biological mother out of jail and before you say anything about Buffy" (she practically spat the name out),
all we have to tell her is that I'm going to see Angel with the two of you so you can get me away from Xander and this town for a few days. Once we leave we can make a new life in San Francisco away from Sunnydale

because frankly I want nothing to do with any of them." I couldn't agree with her more but it was Willow the one who answered saying "I completely agree but to be on the safe side I think that Tara should go with you while I bust Faith out and
/don't agree because if they call and we don't answer they will know something is up but if Tara answer's they wont know anything until it's to late."

After going back and forth we all eventually agreed reluctantly, So once Xander took all his money out of Sunnydale Financial we all said out good bye's and headed out little did we know this one decision would change our lives in unforeseeable ways.

Well that the first Chapter in my first story on I hope you all liked it.