It has been a year and 90 days and the only feeling is pain. This room is my prison and I have no way of getting out. From what I have gathered Latnok is not involved in my current situation. Day in and day out, they have been experimenting on my capabilities and how far they can take me.

Right now I am nothing more than a lab rat for these people…

I only interact with one person "Natalia" she is my only point of comfort. She has the role of being my caretaker and friend however real it is. This day like every other she comes in draws blood and leaves. I am always grateful when I see her, for some reason seeing her lift my spirits, it's like there is a connection I am unable to explain. I have asked her many times when it's going to be the day I can leave, not much of an answer she can give me. But she can at least show's me the Trager's are safe.

Another day more torture it's insane the amount of inhumanity that goes on without a blink of an eye. Again I am pushed to my limits till blood flows from my nose, ears and to the point of unconsciousness. Pushing my mind and body to no end for the sole purpose of research, I have the slightest idea on the reason why, but I intend to find out.

"Please let me assist you with the pain, please take this" she hands him 5 pills all different size and colors. "I promise you this is almost over" Natalia spoke softly and carefully. "When is this going to be over really over" Kyle cried out in anger while looking into the green eyes of Natalia. "One day you will leave this place and never look back to the pain and suffering you have endured" she kissed my lips like many times before; it's not electricity it's heat like standing to close to the oven… "Desire"

(Jessie)

A year and a half now and the Trager household it's still very depressing. Not even after a year and a half do things really change or does the human heart heals. Most have tried to move on as much as possible, giving up on the hope of once again being reunited. It seems without him all the care and love is gone. Even do it has been so long it's hard to move on. Having a powerful mind can be a curse when all I can think about is the dreams of what could have been if he wasn't gone.

It's been a year and a half since he spoken of his love for me, since I felt his arms around my waist, his kisses on my neck. I miss him and have no way of holding him there is nothing I can do but cry on my own.

(Kyle)

I was made to be a prophet to lead the world as a sort of messiah. A person the world can look up to and seek for guidance. Trust me they gave up on that. I explain who and what I was to Natalia it seems that in all this time we never gotten this far in conversation. It's hard engaging in something meaningful when I am being watched 24/7. To counter that in the time here I found ways to project images to Natalia sort of like an illusion of what I have lived. I only show her my family and fun things I have engaged in. The only things I keep from her are Jessi and Amanda for some odd reason I feel horrible when I do even if it's a glimpse. What is it about this woman that can tear my heart piece by piece.

(Jessi)

After a time of being without Kyle, Latnok took a huge interest in me; they have given up on disapproving of my creation. After the incident with Kyle they choose to offer me a new life as a member of the board. It was hard to take at first but they have given me access to anything and everything. After careful research and many meetings it was a good choice to take the job. I know if I see Kyle he will disapprove of my doing but… I have wanted approval since I've woken up.

I woken up and everything is dark, my head is a mess, I'm dizzy and completely disoriented. Everything is dark with the exception of a few signs on the doors. As I try to get my mind settled and my eyes focused, I notice the door to my room is open. I try and completely open my ears to any noise little or loud. Nothing! Not one heartbeat or even one piece of equipment running, I struggled to stand but pushed to my feet. As I walked outside of my room I notice on the wall a message left for me "XY thank you for your cooperation you are free to go please have this as our thanks" as I read this words I dropped to my knees and I felt a rush of emotions a wave of relief came over me and tears began fallen from my eyes.

Exiting this building I felt anger and sadness. It's terrifying thinking about how much things must have changed. I hope they haven't forgotten about me. At least they left me some money and a plane ticket back to Washington. In all honesty should I go?

(Jessi)

Since I started working with Latnok I have developed my abilities so much further than I ever thought possible. Without anyone holding me back the sky is the limit. I have never felt so powerful. Being a board member has made tons possible I am no longer a high school student. Attending college, I am no longer the strange and awkward teenager. Now everyone seeks me out for advice and also invite me to go out. Even with sadness in my heart I have to move on.

Every day I try my hardest to stay at school and work longer than anyone. The less time I spend at the Trager's and the busier I am the less I think of him. I should think about living by myself money is not a problem and i really doubt anyone is going to oppose my decision. Yes! This is the right choice. I need to learn to move on.

(Kyle)

I'm standing at the airport in Chicago with a pay phone in my ear, each time i type one number the next one gets harder. Why am I hesitating? Thinking deep down there is one thing I need to do

I did what I needed to do I got in contact with Natalia, she told me to wait for her at the airport for her. On the phone she sounded very surprised like she didn't know I was out. As I waiter for her arrival a thousand things went through my head the one that was louder than the other was a voice screaming in my head what are you doing? It's been so long since I been home that a part of me does not want to go back. I miss the Trager's and I Miss Jessi but it's been so long i need to explore what this freedom is and what Natalia means.

I'm still waiting and it seems like it's taking a very long time. I know she live closed by. After another 20 minutes I hear my name being called. I see her getting out of her car her red hair, beautiful skin and a little make up. She looks breathtakingly beautiful. "I'm sorry it took so long but you have never seen me out of work and I wanted to look beautiful for you" she is so honest and carries herself so well. I am completely drawn by her, her scent of perfume so intoxicating I can't stop myself. I embrace her in my arm and kiss her not thinking of anything else but the two of us in this moment. I feel the heat again the more passion in the kiss the stronger the desire. We both broke free of the embrace feeling flustered. She looked at me with eyes full wanting. "I always thought that if you left I would never see you again" I told her that I couldn't leave without figuring out what this was. "Kyle I hope you truly find what you want and I promise you I will help with all I have… I am yours" she whispered

(Jessi)

Today I just finished moving into the apartment not the nicest but the most practical for me. The Treager's accepted my request with no problem. They told me I need to find my path and walk it with my head held high. Since Kyle left we have actually turned into a close family

Sitting in this apartment I feel accomplished and for once very comfortable. It's so different being alone by choice no one can actually tell me what to do. Lori has asked me why I don't try and find someone to spend time with. But I always tell her that I have so much I need to do and I need only myself to feel complete. I have always been so dependent on someone else, being in love. As of now I am a fully successful woman that needs only me. But maybe a little on the side wouldn't be too bad

(Kyle)

"Are you coming to bed" "yes Natalia I'll be there soon)