A/N: This is just a small piece to work out some extra emotions I had. I needed a good cry and this helped. Of coures I own nothing. Enjoy.
Spike clung to his pet with as much strength as he could without hurting him. Xander didn't realize what was going on yet, if he did Spike would never get away with it. He knew this was the last embrace he'd ever get from anyone.
He loosened his hold long enough to shift his hands to cup Xander's face and stare into the chocolate depths of his eyes again. It was in that moment that realization dawned for Xander. His eyes grew wide with terror and sorrow and he grabbed the back of Spike's duster in handfuls until his knuckles turned white.
"What the hell are you planning to do Spike?" He asked through clenched teeth. Spike kissed his nose in a tender moment and pulled Xander closer to whisper in his ear.
"Hush, Pet. It's alright." Spike couldn't force himself to say anything else, his words would betray him. For a monster without a soul, he cared way too much for this human. He slowly let go of Xander and sat down on the fold-out bed that served them in many nights of passion and pleasure. He patted the seat in between his legs for Xander to sit. Reluctantly he took the offered seat, resting into Spike's cool chest. Spike wrapped his arms loosely around Xander keeping him close. The tears falling down Xander's face wet Spike's hand as he stroked his pet's chest in a calming, possessive manner. With the other hand he moved the boy's hair out of his face.
"We're gonna see the world soon, you and I. I got it all planned out, luv. It'll be great. Anywhere we want, Paris, Ireland, Thailand, wherever." Slowly he moved his arm tighter around Xander's neck slowly cutting off his breathing. Xander didn't struggle though, he knew his vampire too well to expect real harm, chip or not. Xander gripped Spike's pants as he started losing consciousness. The last thing he heard before passing out was Spike whispering his love Into his ear.
If he could cry, the vampire would be a wreck at that moment. Gently, he moved his love off of him, spreading him out on the bed so as to be comfortable. He watched him for a moment to make sure he hadn't hurt him before peeling off his duster and placing it over the boy.
"Keep that for me Ya? Maybe if things work out I'll be back for it. Be good, Pet. I love you always, MY Alexander…" he kissed the top of Xander's head before walking out the door into what was sure to be his last night.