A/N- Just wanted to clear a few things up before I started out y story. This is one of my first Twilight fanfictions and it's been a long time since I have sat down and wrote out a story so be kind with the reviews and some constructive criticism would be mostly appreciated. D Another thing, I won't go into much detail about the boys down at La Push and all the major happening with them because I figure most of you have read the books and already know yourself. One big note to take of is that the Cullen's never came back like they did towards the end of New Moon. I have also changed quite a few things on her meeting of Jake and a few other subjects so if you get confused then let me know and I will try to clear it up for you. There may be a few references back to New Moon and Eclipse so if you have not read them and don't want to be spoiled of them, be careful reading my story because they may or may not pop up. Well with that all said, sit back and enjoy the story. 3
Disclaimer – Stephanie Meyer owns pretty much everything but my story ideas… lucky bitch. lol
The Names Bella
It was forty seven long painful years since he last me… I can still remember the way his arms felt when he held me. I remember those days as if it was only yesterday, the day I was whole with my family. I've always told myself to move on and not to look back on the past, but in times like these I can't help but miss his cold embraces. His lips were like the two palest rubies that would always give me suck butterflies with their butterfly caresses. And those eyes, oh those eyes, the ones that still haunt me in my sleep to show me what I have to live without, well not really live.
My name is Bella Swan and the man that in which I speak of is the same who has torn my heart out that day in the woods. Taken my love and held it before me as he crushed it to pieces. But those days are over and I've found that it's not his fault for not being able to return the feelings I thought he had. Edward Cullen.
During the time before my transformation into a world of darkness and blood, was a period that lasted for about two years. Not long after the Cullen's departure out of my life, I learned life was a lot harder to live out without the person who you hold dearest in it. Somehow, I managed to use all my energy in the simple things like getting out of bed and getting an education, but it almost seemed like my body was on autopilot. I still functioned like any other human being, but my heart and soul was no longer a part of me. I felt so empty and even with the help of my new friends down at La Push, I still wasn't fully content. I can still remember the day where Charlie snapped after 4 months of my heavy depression and expressionless looks.
He yelled at me for never doing anything but eating, sleeping, cleaning, making dinner and going to school. He had told me forcefully that I needed to go down to La Push and meet up with my childhood friend Jake and snap out my state of depression. That day Charlie drove me down to make sure I didn't bail out and that how I met the entire La Push gang. After everything happened in the two years of meeting the boys, me and Jake had grown unbelievably close and her knew all about the Cullen's and I knew everything about his and his friends secret of being werewolves. Jake helped mend my heart but in the process he happened to fall in love with me but I could never return the favor to him.
Moving on, one day there was an accident. I had never seen it coming and when it did it hit me so hard and caught me and everyone else off guard. One thing Edward and his family had left behind was the threat of Victoria, who still had a grudge to spill all of my blood. She had, unfortunately, decided to pay me a visit one of the days I was on my way back home from college. I was walking to my truck when all of a sudden I felt a hard, cold hand on my shoulder and a faint voice that sent chills all throughout my body. A sudden sharp and excruciating pain ripped through my body and I felt the warm sensation of blood on my lower stomach. I feared to look down and look at was there, or rather what wasn't there. The pain was unbearable and I never thought it was possible for so much pain to be endured by a single person. The whole time I prayed to god that Jake and the boys would show up but the thing behind that was that they wouldn't… and they never did.
Victoria threw me aside and quickly advanced on my quivering fame. At that moment I knew it would be all over and my life would come to an automatic stop. I felt the sting as her fangs pierced my neck and I opened my eyes faintly to see a gang of vampires all behind her. I saw their blood lust and at that moment a shot of fear had ripped through my body. As the fear hit me I had all of a sudden felt four other pairs of teeth rip through my sensitive skin in various other places. There was no other way to describe the pain I felt that night as the five vampires drank the life from me and left me for dead. Fortunately for me however, I felt my tiny, pain filled frame be picked off and carried brisk fully away as I passed out.
I had woken up a day later and waves of pain coursed through my body. I felt the changed occurring and I could feel my life leaving my body with every breathe I took. I was surprised to feel a wet cloth on my forehead and I opened my eyes to see a face of a god. But it could never even come close to comparing to MY god. He had extremely pale features, sunken in cheeks with high cheek bones that were very pronounced. His eyebrows shaped the outline of his lids ruggedly and his nose was rounded with elegance to it. His eyes were one of his main features that stood out to me the most. They were of a crystal blue and it was unlike any other seeing the blue. They were most definitely un-human and I had a sense that he was looking into the pits of my soul with those eyes. Lastly, he had a mess of silver blonde locks that were long and flowing halfway down his back.
He looked at me with great curiosity and yet a sense of worry. I tried to open my mouth to say something to the mysterious man but all that came out was my screams as I felt another rip of pain go through my body. I could tell I was drawing to the end of my transformation because of the intense pain becoming more and more unbearable. But then it could also be because the stranger kept whispering it into my ear. Either way, I didn't care I just wanted the pain to end. Moments later I passed out as I felt my heart rate slowing and slowing by the second.
After the experience of my death and rebirth, I found out who exactly this so stranger was. His name was David and he had been a vampire for two years. He too, like me, never wanted to harm humans so he had made himself stick to the vegetarian lifestyle and it still mystifies me how much control he had when we met. I discovered that the reason behind his blue eyes were that he had the power to see through people eyes to tell if they were lying or not.
For the next few weeks he helped me adjust to my new world and he took care of me until I knew it was time for me to go and find Jake. I knew I couldn't just leave them behind without them knowing where I was and what happened. But yet I still dreaded what they would say when they found out about what happened to me. I was stuck on the thought that they would kill me.
I shared a lot of my secrets with David and we had became close friends in those few weeks so he made the choice to accompany me back to Forks to find Jake and give me support. It seemed that I did have luck on my side when I went to meet up with the La Push gang. They were heartbroken and even though they didn't try to kill me or outcast me, they couldn't stand me being around with the "demon" that hosted inside my body. Jake cried and was upset but he managed to be there for me. Even till this day he is still there whenever I need him but our close friendship ended that day. The whole gang did do something for me before I left and it killed me to do it but I knew it had to be done. They told the town of my death and make it look like a terrible accident happened. They promised to take care of Charlie for me and after that day I haven't returned to Forks but I manage a phone call every now and then to check up on everyone.
With that part of my life over and done with, I moved on and made sure to move as far as possible away from Forks. We started out in the UK and together the two of us lived together in a small house for about ten years before finding a new place to move. We didn't want to make it obvious of our existence so we didn't stay long enough to get attached to people. We stayed in many different places like Alaska, Florida, Canada, Australia, Ireland, England and other places. I drove many different cars and owned many different houses. It seemed that David was quite the billionaire in his human years so we had no problem with money. I attended some of the best and worst colleges and I had a very wide variety of knowledgeable subjects. I changed my looks over and over again and never really found one that really suited me until now. David and I only lived with each other for about thirty five years before I knew it was time to depart from each other because our roads held different paths. We promised to keep in touch and we still do talk now.
Over those thirty some odd years we had developed a relationship, not of love, but more of a physical one every now and then. It had started one day in the first years the two of us took off on our own. Sure we loved each other, but it was a love of having someone there and not of being in love. I could never fall for someone the way I had for Edward. But getting back to my story… one night I couldn't keep the feelings of loosing my angel in and I had a mental break down and had gotten drunk off my ass in hopes to get rid of the memories and David was there for me and shit happened between us and we took comfort in it. So every so often I had him in my bed and it helped to have someone's arms around me holding me close as they screamed my name.
Now even though I'm a vampire, I have traits that are still human. Something went wrong during my transformation and it could have been because of all the vampires who bit me, but I brought quite a few traits with me to the other side. For one, I could still eat and feel the sensations that humans go through but not as bad as them. I could dream and I could sleep but it wasn't necessary for me to. My power is also to do with my eyes, and that is to see the past in touch and give other visuals in my head.
I currently live in California once again and my wardrobe is of a large variety. I live in a nice house on the coast of the beach and from my balcony in my room I have the most breath taking sight at sunset. My closet is lined from top to bottom with clothes and shoes because after he left, I picked up a love for fashion. My hair has turned a lighter brown and I have light blonde highlights throughout my head. I've got three different tattoos, my bellybutton pierced, and my nose. My first tattoo is at the front of my stomach but lower to my hips. It is a small rose with thorns all through it and it symbolizes my weak appearance with my strong front underneath. The next tattoo is one on my arm which is a barbed wire design and it goes around my upper arm in a band. The last tattoo is one in the middle of my upper back that stretches a ways down my back in a Celtic design of a cross.
So now begins the story of my life and I'm on my way home at the moment. I am rockin' out my new wardrobe in the heat of this summer days. I'm wearing a pair of jean short shorts with my Corona bathing suit top. I threw my hair up in a sloppy bun and sunglasses cover my face with big hoop earrings. On my feet I adorn a pair of black flip flops with manicured toes. Oh, and I can't even explain the tan Id been able to get because of my remaining human traits. I was never able to get darker but I have a perfect sun kissed tan now. All in all, I am a sight to behold if I do so say myself. My confidence has gotten better and I have become more sure and independent of myself. I stop at the red light and I can see people check out my new silver Chevrolet Corvette.
The light turns green and now I'm off in a flash to get home and relax. I had spent most of my day at the beach and now all I want to do is lie down and get rid of the memories of my past. I pull up in front of my home and exit my car and get in my house in record speed thanks to my vampire abilities. Within five minutes I had already had a bath drawn and was in the process of stripping off my clothes all over in a rush to wash up. As I soaked up the warm water on my semi cold skin, and sighed. I had my drink already made and I sipped at my Pina Colada.
I wonder how I having so many things and a nice place to live Isn't enough to make me happy. I let my thoughts wander for a bit before I decided I had enough time in the tub and I slipped on a blue racer back tank top and matching blue shorts with some sort of animation on them. All freshened up, I lie in my bed and stare out at the beach through my window and I feel my body relax and prepare it self for sleep.
"My love… I wish I never had to wake with out you in my life… you have my heart until the day I leave this work for good…"
A/N – So what do you think? Reviews would be nice to get. Let me know if anything confused you and Ill clear up areas in my story better. I want at the least 5 reviews before I post he next chapter.