Last Christmas I thought I'd never get what I wanted. Last Christmas Sandra had only just gone and it all seemed pointless. For a while all motivation left me so extremely that all I wanted to do was stay in bed and be miserable. Christmas seemed pointless last year when everyone around me was happy and seemingly waving that happiness in my face to make me feel worse.
I stayed in on New Years Eve as if I wasn't with Sandra then it wasn't worth celebrating. So that was the end of 2013, a depressing end to the year and a time when I felt at my lowest.
A year down the line and the unimaginable happened, it may seem extreme but until it happened I felt like my life was over. That was all until a phone call changed my life, a phone call where she was drunk and tearful. I still don't know what caused that phone call but she told me that she missed me and wanted to come back. She told me that she loved me and always had done, that when she'd gone away she'd tried to suppress it but she couldn't. The next day she was back, a cold January day and she was home again and in my arms where she belonged.
This Christmas we're together sat by the fire as the light from it catches on her engagement ring. This last year has been perfect and if anyone asked this has been my favourite Christmas ever because now I have the woman in my arms who I was made to adore.
Last Christmas wasn't a patch on this one and I could never go back now.