Disclaimer: I do not own Code Geass or its characters. I just like to play with them. 'Moments' will be a collection of songfics and drabbles mostly from the viewpoints of our favorite characters. For our first fic, the song 'Because I Love You' is by Stevie B.

Because I Love You

"Why do you still protect Lelouch? Do you love him?"

Kallen's words echo in my mind as I gaze up at the ceiling from our bed. It is a cold, snowy December night, just like the night you were born, almost twenty years ago.

As I turn to my side, I reach out and caress your cheek with my finger, I cannot help but smile. You've grown up to be such a fine young man and did well in surpassing my expectations of you. You may think that we had met only two years prior but the truth is that I have been watching over you all your life. I knew your mother before you were born, I was there when she gave birth to you, and again when you and Nunnally were exiled to Japan as children. I always knew in my heart that you were special, that you would be a child of many gifts, that your actions would one day change the world and time proved me right. To your followers and the world, you were a brilliant thinker, a charismatic leader, and an incredibly talented actor.

I got your letter
From the postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song
Just to let you know
Exactly the way I feel
To let you know my love's for real

But to me, you were more than that. You were the babe I held in my arms the night he was born, the child I watched over from the shadows, and the young man who fulfilled my deepest desires. You won my respect and admiration by your determination to make the world a better place and the fact that you were strong where Mao had been weak; while he allowed himself to be destroyed by his geass, you controlled yours, refusing to let it twist and corrupt you.

In C's world, you asked me why I didn't force my curse of eternal life on you. The truth was, I wasn't sure myself, at least not then, but I know now. I couldn't do it because I fell in love with you, something I had tried so hard to prevent. No, that isn't right. It was already too late the moment I laid eyes on you; when I held you in my arms for the first time and saw you look up at me with your innocent newborn eyes, I was already in love. As the years went by, I watched you grow from a cute and charming young boy to a handsome and seductive young man so how could I not fall in love? I loved many things about you but the most important being that I can see who you are inside your heart. I found it amazing as well as appalling how you can fool so many people for so long, including the ones who loved and fell in love with you but you could not fool me and it is not just because of our contract.

Because I love you
And I'll do anything
I'll give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you
I'll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

I love you because I understand you and because you understand me. You have been misunderstood by so many people, just as I have. You have also been hurt in life as I have, betrayed by the ones who should have protected you, your own parents. Just as my parents sold me into slavery when I was a child, your parents abandoned you and your sister in a foreign land. My love for you is what drove me to watch over you for all the years you spent in exile while waiting for the right time to make myself known to you. I did not do it for your parents or just so that I can make a contract with you. I regret that I have not been entirely truthful with you from the start, especially about your mother. It was bad enough you knew your father to be a cold and callus man so I wanted you to at least remember Marianne as a caring and compassionate woman as well as a devoted and loving mother, even if it wasn't true. I did not want you to find out the way you did and it pained me to see how devastated you were to find out that the mother you loved and adored to be every bit as cruel as the father you despised.

If you should feel
That I don't really care
And that you're starting to lose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that I'll always be around

They say when you truly love someone, you can feel their pain and joy as if they were your very own and that is very true. Knowing you reminded me of how it felt like to be human again; you awoke feelings in me I thought were long dead. After witnessing so many atrocities over the centuries, I killed my emotions because I believed it would make my curse more bearable but now I see that I was wrong. While others may think you cold, ruthless, and unconcerned with the consequences of your actions, I knew better. I know that the deaths of the countless people you caused weighed on your heart like lead as it did mine. As the one who gave you your power, it was every bit my responsibility as much as yours. While your followers see you as some kind of infallible miracle maker, I know that you are just as vulnerable as anyone else. That's why I wanted to be your shoulder to lean on during your times of strife. Please don't ever think that I don't care about you; it's just that centuries of pain and solitude have made it so hard for me to express my feelings. I did promise you that I would always stay by your side no matter what and I remain true to my word.

Because I love you
My heart's an open door
So won't you please come on in?
Because I love you
I'll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

Yes, Lelouch, I love you. And because I love you, I will stay with you untill the very end. After all, we still have a contract to fullfill, do we not?

A/B: So what do you think? I plan to make a longer version of this later but it won't be in my drabbles collection because of the rating. This is just a short fic on what I think C.C feels for Lelouch; I personally think those two are perfect for each other. If one pays close attention to the anime, one can see that C.C has been watching over Lelouch for most of his life even if he himself didn't realize it since she knew his parents before he was born. I will be writing a few more drabbles for the others too so please check out my works and tell me what you think! ;)