I walk into school, and the first thing I see is you
I walk into school, and the first thing I see is you. You hear me close the door, look over and smile. God, you're so beautiful. You don't think you are, you've told me on multiple occasions, but I know you are. I get to your locker and you quickly pull me into a strong embrace. I just wish we could stay like this forever. I know we can't. Because you love him. You love Lucas, and you'll never love me. You think I loved him. You think we fought about him. It was never about him. It was always about you. You've always been the center of my universe and no one compares to you. No one ever will.
A minute or so later Lucas arrives. Your face begins to glow, shining brighter than any star in the sky ever could. Once he's close enough you of course kiss him lovingly. I wish you knew how much it hurts me to watch this. How much pain and suffering I go through because I love you so much. But, I know that you can never know. This is one secret I can never tell you.
I don't know how you'd react to my shocking confession, but, Peyton, there is one thing I do know: I love you more than he ever has or ever will.
Maybe if you knew what I know things would be different…