THE THOUGHTS I HAD; AND THE DREAMS WICH I HAVE GIVEN UP

Disclaimer: I dot own Naruto.

Summary: random thoughts of Naruto, wich he wrote on scraps of paper, and were found by different people.

One: Naruto; Sasuke & Jiraya

I never really realized it before, but my world practically revolved around Sasuke. It's scary now that I think about it. People around me, say it happens to them too. Who would have thought that I of all people could feel it? I mean, I AM the village deamon after all. It's hard to believe, till it happens to you. I'm speaking from experience. By the way, yes I'm talking about betrayal.

All week I've been down. Since I brought Sasuke back. Before that, I was my usual, hyperactive-happy-go-lucky-energetic-optimistic-annoying-fox like self™. I like to think that its a mask you know. Then he betrayed me. I all but broke down. It was a real internal war to stop from crying infront of anyone.

That morning, when I woke up to the knock of my door, I was irritated, but ready to go into hyperactive-happy-go-lucky-energetic-optimistic-annoying-fox like self™. Then Shikamaru told me the news. I was really sincerely hoping It was all joke, But the gods up there really hate me, 'Cause it wasn't. While chasing after him, I was full of unease; I didn't want Sasuke to betray me. But he did.

Sometimes I feel like were more than a couple than friends. But I don't feel about him that way. (Plus I'm straight) He's like the brother and friend I never had. Those are also a way of caring, right?

With Sasuke, I can share everything, well, not everything (insert smirk here) But still, I can still share with him more than with most, much more than most. Tomorrow, I hope everything's all better, though I'm pretty sure it won't be(but I can still hope right?). And I expect I won't cry myself to sleep tonight.

I've also decided I'd build by trust and life, round someone else. Someone constant. Because it hurts. It really hurts to be betrayed.

...And then there's only Kyuubi right?

Naruto put down the pen. It didint help, writing it all down, like it said in books. No, corection, it didint make him forget, though it did help with his consience a little. He sighed. it had all just flowed out of him; everything that was written on that paper, so it kinda disturbed him that he had written that lat line without thinking. And then theres only Kyuubi? it was disturbing, though he would have a talk with the fox,

mabe,

later.

Naruto glansed at the clock. 10:45, he sighed. he had a mission with Sakura and Kakashi tomorow. if he wanted to get up tomorow morning, then he had to go to sleep now.

And as Naruto got in bed to sleep, the open window let a draft in, and the paper fell to the floor,

forgoten.

Next morning, when Jiraya entered Naruto´s room, to see if they could go out and train or something, he spoted a small pice of paper on the floor. Thinking mabe Naruto Left it for him, Jiraya read it. after finishing, he tucked the paper in one of his ninja packs, and left the small apartment.

And then There is only Kyuubi Naruto? Jiraya smirked, his training with Naruto,

...was gonna be fun.