A/N: So…I was depressed as hell while writing this…ok…
Zuko
I gave up a long time ago water bender. You tried so hard to change me. I tried so hard to change.
But I knew.
The Avatar.
He would always come before me. You would always love him more than me, because the first time we met, my sole purpose was to take him away from you. Some people say first impressions don't matter. That's a lie. First impressions are everything. And it was by rotten luck, that you happened to be his protector, and I happened to be his hunter.
I know you will always love him more than me. How could you not? He is perfect in every way: strong, fierce, loving. He could show the feelings that I buried long ago. The ones I tried so hard revive.
For you.
For you I betrayed my family. I betrayed my nation. I taught the one I was brought up to hate, my secrets, my birthright.
Fire.
It was amusing, the boy's fear of fire. I guess it was because he was not born to it, and like an animal, his primal fears kept him from mastering it fully. But it didn't matter. It didn't matter because in the end he somehow managed to triumph over my father, or at least the man I used to call father. You stole that from me too. The right to call him father. I wanted your love more than I wanted that right. I wanted you to look at me the
way my mother used to look at me, the way uncle does. But not exactly the same way. I wanted you to look at me like, you needed me. Like someone for once in my life needed ME. Someone who didn't think I was worthless.
But now it doesn't matter, nothing matters…
I rise with the sun, but fall by your moonlight.
Even in death, you're all that I can think about
Katara
Why did you leave? Why did you leave me? Leave us? Leave the only family you had known in such a long time. What did I do?
Could I have done something so terrible that you went back to that place, to your own execution?
I love Aang. He's my brother, like Sokka. But you, you were something else.
You were my sun
You became the reason that I woke up. Your smile became my hope, that someone so hurt by the war as you could still smile, that made hope swell deep inside me. More hope than even finding Aang in the iceberg. I would kill to see you smile just one more time. They were such a rarity, your smiles. I remember every one of them. I remember dreaming of leaving everything behind, to be your Fire Lady.
What did I do Zuko, to send you away? Why did you think you needed to change for me? You did change, the day you chose us over your father. The day you made the choice to do the right thing instead of the easy thing, that is when I knew that you had finally shown me the person I saw underneath Ba Sing Se.
I hate you
That's what I tell myself, to keep myself from crying at night. The moon no longer offers me any comfort. I miss the sun
I miss my sun…
I'm so sorry Katara. I'm sorry for what I did. How could I let you be with the prince of the people who took our mother away? The people who started this horrible war that destroys lives, families.
I hate him
How could I not hate him? I had felt useless enough, because I was the only one in our group that couldn't bend. He was taking my place. He was everything I strived to be. A warrior, a leader, a brother, and on top of it all he could bend.
I'm sorry lying. I only wanted the relationship you two had to end. Now I have to live with it.
I'm a murderer