Shades of Grey and Blue

Pairing: Brendan and Steven

Warning: Angst, pain, maybe slight ooc-ness

Genre: Romance, Mystery

Rating: T- M

Disclaimer: Do not own any characters from Hollyoaks, just wish I did.

A/N: This takes place before Noah and Ste got together when the Warren and Brendan storyline was going on. As the chapters play out you will get an understanding of where and what. Told in third person but will have Prov from Ste's view, maybe depending if the situation given a Brendan Prov but it is mainly third person. Also I am not British so I may get the slang and words wrong sorry and I've never had or encounter anyone with amnesia so sorry if I get some of the things wrong just go along with it : )

Summary: after a terrible accident Stephen Hay has amnesia. Is this a blessing in disguise?

The sound of a clock ticking could be heard as it echoes through the darkness. Each stroke of the hand was louder than the last. Heavy breathing that was relentless as a faded image of person running into the endless darkness.

Over the last few weeks, every night the young man would have the same dream. It wasn't anything that made sense. It wasn't anything to smile about or a nightmare that kept you up at night but a haunting, never ending occurrence, repeating movement of each noise and the hazy figure of a person running that seemed to go on forever.

His eyes flutters open, staring distantly at the pink painted walls. Laying there, feeling the warmth and the comfort of the sheets. He didn't feel the urgency to move but just to lie there for a while longer. Listening to the birds chirping as the sunlight glows, peeping through the curtains. He couldn't help but feel relaxed.

It's been almost two month since he's had gotten a good sleep. At first the nights were long and restless. Nightmares of distorted images plague his dreams that made him woke up at nights, panicking covered in sweat, even though the doctor had warned him about the side effects after the accident that most patients suffered from strange dreams since they're subconsciously trying to remember. He had gotten Valium to help calm his nerves when he felt anxious. Since those dreams had passed he began having dreams that left him with questions.

He turns to lie on his back and sat up, pulling the covers off he got up and stretched. Letting out a lazy yawn he made his way into the kitchen following the scent of bacons being cooked.

"Hey sleepy head" The blond hair lady said stirring the pan, with the sizzling sound of bacon's frying.

"Did you have a good sleep?" She asked.

"Yup"

"Hi daddi" the little blond hair girl said, walking up and grabbing the side of his leg to get his attention. Since he's been back it had taken some getting used to. Finding out he fathered two kids and one is his own was overwhelming at first. He remembers them faintly but now, being here and seeing how precious they are, he was beginning to feel like they were actually his own.

"Hey Leah, enjoin' your mommy's cookin'?" Ste said rubbing his hand on her head as she smiles and nodded at him.

He sat down on the chair across from Leah and her baby brother, Lucas. Scratching the side of his head as his fingers ran over the welted scar.

"Ste, stop that"

"I can' help it…still itches" Ste said scratching the side of his head.

"You heard what the doctor said, it's going to itch once an' awhile since it was pretty large wound." Amy replied and places a plate with bacon and eggs in front of him.

"Ya, but it's like drivin' mi crazy" running his fingers at the side of his head. He remembered before the number of stiches he had running from the back to the right side of his head. The doctors were surprised he survived but also he had perfect function over his body.

"Okay, I got to go" She said grabbing the bags. "Leah, we're going to be late" lifting Lucas up with her free hand.

"I can take him to the daycare for you" Ste said.

"No, that's alright, I have to go now, you goin' to be okay by yourself?"

"I'm fine, Amy"

"Remember to take your pills and be careful" She said concern written all over her face. He knew her concern was since the last time he had anxiety attack and they had called her. She was sweet to him. He recalled that time at the hospital, wondering who the woman was outside his room door. At first he thought she was possible a crazy person since he did not know her but now, he could see why they used to be together, she was a good, hard working person and a great mother.

"I will" Ste smiled and Amy kissed him on the cheek before she left with Leah and Lucas in hand.

Running his fingers over the scar again, feeling thickness. It wasn't visible anymore since his hair has grown back. It had lost its shape and was getting longer.

Finishing the last of his drink and doing the dishes, he was ready to head out to the store. Ste was happy that he had got a job just a few blocks from the house. Sitting around the house wasn't fun. He hated feeling useless while Amy had taken care of the bills by herself. It was not the dream job he expected but for the time being, this would do.

Walking down the streets had become easier for him to do and to remember. First time he had went about with the help of Amy to find the location of the store. He was lost, forgotten the way back. Caught up in his thoughts, Ste turned the corner and bounced into a man.

"Sorry!" Ste said quickly.

The look of shock was written on the man's face for spilt second before he turn back and walked away. The man mumbled apology under his breath before walking away as if he was being chased. Looking back again, Ste couldn't help but feel as if he knew that man somewhere, but from where? He shook his head and made his way to the store.

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