One Time

I thought I'd only say it one time.

I want you.

I've never wanted anything in my life more than I wanted you. Killing my brother wasn't a want or a need or an ambition or goal. It was an aspiration that was going to happen. I saw you and never had any interest in you before, but as time went on and you showed no interest in me…it was almost intriguing. A challenge that I knew I could conquer, and still kill my brother, easy.

Right.

So I started to talk to you, sort of and you ignored me. Only intriguing me and my challenge even more.

And I wanted you

I trust you

Why should I trust anybody? Itachi killed my family, and I trusted him with my every being and he broke every inch of my soul…to my core.

I trust no one ever…ever again.

I've never trusted anyone with any kind of secret about my family, how much I miss them, or who I really am or how I feel as a person. It was funny; it only took a bloody nose to reveal every secret you kept within yourself. I always thought you were a spoiled brat, but you changed my mind completely and I didn't mean for it to happen, but it did. I revealed my secrets and you didn't use it against me, or laugh at me.

I guess I started to trust you.

I miss you

Missing someone only brought pain to me. I've missed my family for so long and having them around, but I guess that will never happen, huh?

I can't believe this feeling that's coming over me. I'm standing out the gate waiting for your arrival. You've been gone for about two weeks, and I won't say I missed you, but your company was nice. When you arrived I was, sort of, happy.

I guess you could say I missed you.

I love you.

Those words were as foreign to me as forgiveness was. I never understood what it meant or why they were so powerful when they were addressed between man and woman or when families said it to each other, why those three little words meant so much.

I never said it to my mother, father or brother growing up because I never knew what the word meant. I never wanted to use it out of context. I always thought it was too big and complex of a phrase for my eight year old mind, but as I grew to learn about everything in life after the massacre it all became clear about everything that wasn't love.

So love never existed to me.

My father never loved me; he always favored Itachi over me. My mother never loved me because she didn't fight back against my brother to stay with me, and my brother…I would never speak of him again, because…

Nevermind.

I love you.

I never thought I say it at all to anyone. I didn't know what the emotion was or how to express it at all. If my mother, father and brother expressed their love for me then love sucks.

Then she came along…

So?

I knew you liked the dobe, but I'm not one of those dudes who are content with just being your friend.

I couldn't just be your friend not how since I knew that you existed. That I knew these feelings still existed.

But then again I cared for you too much to just destroy your life by dumping this secret on you. You didn't deserve that…at all. I just wished there was a better way for us to be together.

I love you.

The words spilled out of my mouth, awkwardly and I was more surprised than you were by my actions but I only tired to keep on my stoic face.

But what would be the point you knew too much about me already.

I sighed inwardly, as your face only expressed how confused you were aout my words.

"I love you," I repeated, aggravated, because I thought I'd only say it one time and I hoped it would be more special.

A lot more special.

You looked at me and smiled.

"I've been waiting for you say that,"

And I knew it wouldn't be the last time.

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I got the idea from listening to Justin Bieber's One Time.

And thought why would you only say it One Time.