Blah… I've been forever since I've written a story for this site. Sorry if some parts don't make sense :( I wrote this when I was really tired and I really wanted to get this story over with before I forget my ideas and stuff :P
P.S. Should this story be a one shot? What do YOU guys think? If you guys want me to keep going then... let me know! Haha. And I will make sure that the chapters won't be as short as this one ^.^ Thanks for reading :)
Life is so confusing for me right now but I can't figure out why. I've been confused ever since I got knocked up by Ben. When our baby was stillborn, not only was I still confused, I also got really depressed. It seems like it took ages to get over my depression. I hate to say this but Ben was one of the reasons why I was so depressed. I can honestly say that I'm glad we're not together anymore.
Right now, I'm attending summer school with Grace, which isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I thought it would be terrible, since I would be in a room with people I don't like or know, but Grace going with me changed my mind. She makes me so happy and she is such a great friend.
When I was really depressed, she was there for me. She cheered me up and got me out of my depression. It's crazy at how fast things changed between us. I remember when we didn't like each other and when we would get in fights over very stupid reasons. Like that time when we got in a fight over Ricky. How foolish was that? I feel bad for calling her mean names like bible thumper. I wish I could go back in time and refrain myself from calling her that.
I love that we are living together for the summer. It's great living with someone who understands me and makes me happy. Best of all, my confusion goes away when I'm with her. But it makes me think. I used to assume it was because I'm with my best friend but I'm starting to assume it's because of something else. I mean, I noticed I'm not so into guys anymore. In fact, I rarely think of them. For example, Omar called me the other night and asked me if I wanted to go for a "drive". I told him I wasn't feeling well and to call me another time. Truth is, I was feeling well that night. I just didn't want to leave Grace alone by herself and go have meaningless sex with Omar. Normally, I never turn down "opportunities" like this.
Actually, this is really making me think. If my interest in guys is going away, does this mean I'm… lesbian? Do I like Grace as more than a friend? I've never had feelings like this for a girl. When I'm by myself, I start feeling confused and sad. And I can't seem to stop thinking about Grace. I... what's going on with me?
Who am I...?