AN:: One shot. Kinda sucky...A friend gave me the idea. Written and dedicated to him. Read and review? More stories to come, no worries. :3 Try to enjoy? thanks.
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I stared into the mirror. I hated the face that I saw. I hated it so damn much. I hated every bit of the person I saw. I had become a sick and twisted monster. I was just a horrible demon now, only a shadow of the girl I once knew. My scarred, but soft hands gripped the edges of the gas station bathroom sink. The light flickered briefly. It was most likely about eleven o' clock now, maybe a little bit past. I stared at the creatures eyes. These big broken blue eyes stared back, red and blood shot from the bud and other drugs, oh and the alcohol. I stared so deadly at those eyes, cursing everything about them. I tighten my grip on the dirty counters. I broke my gaze, my Ipod blaring loudly in my ears. I looked down at the blood in the sink. The endless amounts of red liquid all slowly slipping down the tight rusted drain. I swallowed hard, staring with watery eyes now. I shook my head, closing my eyes. The blood was so thick now it started to grow darking as it puddled up in the sink, looking almost black in some spots. I ignored the burning pain of my wrists; my poor wrists screaming at me that I was a monster. I opened my eyes and looked down at the razor, sitting on the edge of the counter.
If they were going to abandon me. I would abandon myself aswell. My heart, my life, my hope, my dreams, all of it slide down the rusted drain of this random gas station 20 miles from home. A silver realese that was so wrong, but so beautiful...so..absolutly amazing. I hadn't felt so much better, in so long. The giant wound in my body, it didn't hurt now. All I could think about was the gashes in my arms. All over my arms, the gashes leaked the pain out. The lies, the secrets, the pain, the hopes, the stupid nightmares, all of you drained out. Down, Down, Down the drain they went.
I just want you to come back. I want them both to come back. I don't want to be like this, but....if being reckless is the only way. Then, I'll risk it. I'll risk it all.
I'd risk it all for you.