"Oh god.." Blaine mumbled to himself nervously as he knocked on Kurt's New York apartment door three times, he was nervous; he didn't talk to Kurt since Regionals, and that was a month ago.
Kurt looked up from where he was reading the new VOGUE on the couch, a frown appearing on his face. He quickly checked the time, it was already really late. Slowly, he got up and walked towards the big heavy door, opening it.
"Hey" Blaine said softly, and Kurt almost jumped surprisingly as Blaine hesitantly took a step forward to pull him into a tight hug, the younger boy's heart beating fast just at the smell of Kurt's perfume he loved so much.
Kurt was stiff and couldn't move, he didn't expect Blaine to be here at all, still he was happy to see him, but confused. "Bl-...w-what are you doing here, Blaine?" he whispered and slowly wrapped his arms around the younger boy's body.
Blaine pulled away slowly and looked down, not really knowing what Kurt's reaction and question meant, "I-I'm sorry I'm... I just...» He slid his hands in his pockets and chewed on his bottom lip, still avoiding eye contact, "I just missed you...» He admitted quietly.
Kurt couldn't hold back a little small and the blush that was creeping to his cheeks. "Oh, uh-uhm. Well, hi then. It's nice to see you here. How long will you stay?"
Blaine finally made eye contact with Kurt, it took him a few moment of staring at the blue eyes of the boy in front of him before shaking his head lightly and speaking, "Am I- Am I deranging you? I can- I can take the plane back to Lima.. It's still early.."
"N-no, no! Don't, I- I mean, stay. Rachel is gone for the weekend anyway, she's visiting her dads for a birthday party...Something like that. Anyway, I'm glad you're here. I haven't seen you since Regionals." Kurt mumbled, his smile widening slowly and his eyes meeting Blaine's.
"Great! Uh... I mean yeah. C-can I come in?" Blaine chuckled nervously and rubbed the back of his neck, a small but excited smile on his face.
Kurt nodded quickly and stepped aside to let Blaine in. "You could have said something about visiting, though, Mister Anderson. I could have been asleep already." he teased and smirked as he closed the door when Blaine entered the apartment.
Blaine grinned and shrugged, "I just wanted it to be a surprise. And honestly, I didn't know I would arrive so late, ho- uh... Kurt" Blaine almost froze, he kept kicking himself in his mind for what he has just almost said, and he blushed lightly and followed Kurt to sit down beside him on the couch.
Kurt giggled and rolled his eyes. "Mhm, okay. So, uh... Do you want to drink something? Hungry?" He then asked softly and blushed as he noticed he was just wearing sweatpants and an old t-shirt. But then he remembered: It was Blaine. His boyfr- ex-boyfriend. So he didn't care.
"Oh no thanks" Blaine answered quickly, smiling warmly, "Had a late dinner" He added and couldn't help but study Kurt's face, he has missed it, missed touching it, kissing it. He has missed Kurt so much it hurt.
Kurt nodded and sat down on the couch next to Blaine, crossing his legs. "Sooo... What's your intension to be here? NYADA?"
Blaine cleared his throat, "Well, my first intention is to visit you" He smiled sweetly before continuing, "And I'm planning on auditioning for NYADA after graduation"
Kurt smiled widely and looked at Blaine. "That's amazing, Blaine! I'm... Wow, cool! Do you already know which song to take?"
"Uhm... Actually, I couldn't decide yet" Blaine said and looked down at his lap, "But I'm thinking about a great one, not sure though" He grinned, letting out a small sigh.
"A great one? Come on, tell me, now I'm curious." Kurt smirked and took the cup with the hot chocolate he made earlier to take a small sip.
Blaine smirked and kicked his shoes, making himself comfortable on the large couch and crossing his legs in the yoga style, "Ummm.. No?" His smile grew wider and he giggled softly.
"Why not?" Kurt pouted and leaned back frowning at Blaine. "Come on, Blaine Warbler. As your former boyfriend I should know about these things." he then said, his heart skipping a beat at his own words.
Blaine' eyes winded and he swallowed, "Wha-" He looked down and then decided to shrug it off, Kurt has probably not meant it. "I won't tell you, you'll find out when I perform it" He winked and let out a small soft chuckle.
"Was that an invitation?" Kurt giggled and tilted his head, making himself comfortable on the couch. He still smiled at the younger boy, not caring that his cheeks were probably cherry red.
Blaine let out another chuckle, "Maybe?" He smirked and looked down again, smiling to himself at Kurt's red cheeks and letting out a light sigh of happiness.
"Mhm, yeah. Teaser." Kurt mumbled and took another sip of his now not so hot chocolate. "Ugh, gross. Groooossss, gross, gross, that tastes horrible!"
Blaine giggled as he looked at Kurt, he shook his head lightly and leaned forward into Kurt's direction, "Let me taste?" He grinned cheekily, looking up at Kurt and blinking innocently.
Kurt looked up at him for a moment and chewed on his bottom lip. "Uh, sure" he whispered and slowly handed Blaine the cup, his eyes never breaking the contact with Blaine's.
Blaine chuckled sweetly and took a sip from Kurt's cup, "Hmpf...» He opened his eyes widely and then his face screwed, he swallowed thickly and snorted, "Kurt! What the hell was that?!" He exclaimed and put the cup on the coffee table. "Ugh.."
"Shut up, yours would taste worse!" Kurt responded with a short laugh and rolled his eyes as he pouted slightly. "You're mean. Gonna kick ya'out!"
Blaine was laughing breathlessly, "It tastes like crap!" He breathed out between giggles and then slowly calmed down, wiping at his eyes, "Okay, where's the kitchen, let me show you some of Blaine Anderson's skills" He said and stood up, winking at Kurt and grinning widely, "You stay here, Hummel. Don't want you to find out about my secret recipe"
"I already know these skills, Blaine." Kurt said softly and smiled at the other man. "Loved them- no. Still love them." he giggled and looked down to the cup in front of him.
"You're adorable" Blaine said softly and nearly ran in the direction of the kitchen, not regretting a word of what he's just said but feeling the heat creeping to his cheeks.
Kurt turned his head to look at Blaine and let out a small sigh. He then decided to get up and followed Blaine to the kitchenette. "Am I, huh?" he mumbled under his breath and leaned against the counter, playing with his fingers.
Blaine hummed and started preparing the hot chocolate, "You are. Very adorable" He grinned widely without looking at Kurt.
Kurt just smirked and rolled his eyes again, feeling his cheeks blushing. "Thank you...I guess." he said, his voice small but happy.
Blaine shrugged, "No need" He smiled widely and grabbed two mugs, filling them with hot chocolate and handed one of them to Kurt, "Here, be impressed" He smirked teasingly.
Kurt stuck out his tongue and looked into the mug, smelling the sweet aroma of the hot chocolate. "Mhmmm, smells good." he whispered and closed his eyes, sucking in a deep breath.
Blaine looked at him with loving eyes, he smiled softly, lost in the sight of the boy in front of him, "Mhhm" was all he managed to say.
Kurt took a small sip of the hot chocolate and a moan escaped his throat at how great it tasted and Blaine had to swallow and he took a shaky breath. He quickly covered his mouth, giggling nervously after swallowing the cacao. "I...uh, sorry. Just too delicious!"
"I-It's okay.." Blaine breathed out and chuckled nervously, sitting at the counter and facing Kurt. He took a sip of hot chocolate and grinned, "Compare this.." He took another sip, "To that.. Thing you made" He said and snorted.
"Oh fuck you, Anderson. I just got up and needed something. Quickly. You know I'm a loser in kitchen." Kurt grumbled under a grin and took another sip.
Blaine smiled widely, "Aaand he admitted!" He said loudly and happily, taking another huge sip, finishing his mug and exhaling loudly.
"You're unbelievable." Kurt mumbled and shook his head, rolling his eyes. He then put the empty mug on the kitchen counter and let out a small sigh. "Thanks, I needed this."
Blaine shook his head, grinning widely, "Don't thank me" He followed Kurt and rinsed the mugs, his heart fastening just at how comfortable it felt to be with Kurt again, it was like the old days they spent together on holidays, even though something was missing, no 'I love you's, no kisses.
Kurt smiled and slid his hands into the pockets of his sweatpants, a soft yawn escaping his throat. He watched Blaine and somehow felt a weird feeling of being home again rushing through him, he quickly tried to shrug it off.
Blaine dried his hands with the kitchen towel and looked at Kurt, tilting his head, "Sleepy?" He asked softly, his big puppy eyes shining with love and care.
"Hmmm. Didn't sleep that night. At all." he groaned and walked back to the couch. "Someone decided to throw a big street party and didn't even invite me."
Blaine followed him and frowned, "Someone?" He asked with concern, sitting back down next to Kurt, but keeping a certain safe distance, "Who?"
Kurt shrugged and threw his head back, closing his eyes. "An idiot? I don't know, but it was loud and I couldn't fall asleep. I must look horrible."
Blaine bit on his lower lip and sighed, shaking his head. "You don't look horrible, Kurt. You never do" He said quietly and smiled a little bit.
Kurt opened his eyes and turned his head to look at Blaine, a small smile appearing on his face. "I-... Thank you." he whispered and studied Blaine carefully. "I missed you."
Blaine nodded lightly and smiled softly, "I missed you, too" He whispered and looked down, nervously playing with his fingers on his lap.
A slightly awkward silence surrounded them in which Kurt kept looking at Blaine. His own hair was ruffled from the night and his clothes messy. And then there was Blaine: perfectly styled, gelled hair, but something missed and Kurt quickly figured out. "Blaine? Where's the bow tie?"
Blaine looked up and then down again, he shrugged, "It's just... I don't wear them often anymore" He mumbled and sighed shakily before looking up at Kurt.
"Why?" Kurt asked, slightly concerned. "You always used to wear bow ties when we dat-..." he quickly cut himself off" O-oh. ...Really?"
Blaine nodded and swallowed, feeling his chest tightening and his eyes stinging, he forced a smile and looked up, He then looked away again and chuckled nervously, "You used to love them, remember that black one with red stripes you bought me?" He asked, faking an excited grin but still looking away, avoiding eye contact.
Kurt sighed and bit his lips, pressing them together as he hesitantly shifted closer to Blaine, causing him to shiver and nearly pull away, but then he remembered, it's just Kurt, and Kurt would never hurt him. "Hmm… Remembering that one. You still have it?" Kurt slowly wrapped his arms around the younger boy and rested his head on his shoulder
"Of course I still have it" He said, his voice breaking just a little bit at the end of the sentence, he chuckled again, it became a new way for him to hide his emotions, "I still have them all"
Kurt closed his eyes again and smiled slightly. "You better do. That one was expensive." he mumbled and sighed, the closeness feeling good again after so long time.
Blaine chuckled and rolled his eyes slightly, "Even if it wasn't expensive, I would keep it" He whispered and hesitantly rested a hand on Kurt's that was on his stomach, Blaine's hand was shaking nervously, as if he was afraid of screwing it again.
"Comfy..." Kurt whispered and giggled sweetly. "And cozy." he added and yawned again, feeling himself drifting off slowly and fighting against the urge to just fall asleep on Blaine.
Blaine giggled, "W-we can cuddle if you want to..." He murmured quietly and turned his head to look at a sleepy Kurt, fighting the urge of kissing him and barely winning the battle.
Kurt just hummed and smiled lazily. "Okay" He mumbled, already dozing off.
"Kurt? Hey, let's just.." Blaine shifted and lied down on his back on the couch, pulling Kurt with him gently and wrapping his arms around the other boy, soothing his back gently.
"Mhng, o-oh, yeah. That's nice." he whispered sleepily and snuggled to Blaine's warm body, his head resting on his chest. "Is this...okay for you?"
Blaine looked down at him and nodded, his heart racing, "Yeah, just get some sleep" He whispered and ran a hand through Kurt's soft hair, "Sleep well, Kurt" He whispered again and cleared his throat.
"You're heart is racing, Blaine." Kurt stated quietly and absent mindedly rubbed the younger boy's chest, like the old times, and the smile on his lips grew wider.
"Your fault, now sleep" Blaine murmured, not even trying to hide his emotions or be careful with his words, he shivered at Kurt's touch and hummed quietly, closing his eyes and smiling softly.
Kurt smirked and let out a small chuckle. "Hmm...okay." he whispered and again yawned softly, burying his face to Blaine's chest.
Blaine kept rubbing up Kurt's neck and down his spine over and over again, trying to make him relax. Kurt's warm breath tickling his chest, he then opened his eyes and looked down at Kurt, he felt a mixture of happiness, regret, sadness and love and his chest tightened, he swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat and sighed, fighting back some tears that tried to fall.
Kurt breathed slowly and deeply, his mouth was slightly parted and his eye closed. Even if he was asleep, he could feel how Blaine was arguing with himself, so he just mumbled "It's fine." as if he knew what was going on inside his ex.
Blaine looked down again and moved one arm to cover his eyes with his palm, he squeezed them shut and took a deep shaky breath as a small smile appeared on his lips, he didn't know why he's smiled, but he felt like finally, after months of loneliness, he's gotten the chance to at least hold Kurt and make him feel better.
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