The Reason Is You
Category: Romance, Drama, General
Main Pairings: Yami/Atemu X Yugi, Yami Bakura X Ryou, Seto X Joey, Marik X Malik
Rating: T for violence, sensuality, cursing, thoughts of suicide and other serious matters, and strong lustful desires
Summary: Yugi didn't know the reason why Yami did all this at first, if he did he may have felt differently…
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!. If I did Atemu, Yugi, Joey (especially him), Marik, and Ryou would all be my male harem members.
Notes: Shonen-ai. No character bashing. I hate to say it but I'm going against my code of fanfic likes and dislikes to have Yami's sanity a little unhinged. Minor pairings. Only got the inspiration from the song, it is not a songfic.
Chapter 1: How Did This Happen?
Yugi didn't know why this happened. Yami was always so just, gentle, sympathetic, and kind so he couldn't understand why Yami would want to take over the entire world just a few months after he got his own body after the ceremonial duel. There were no initial signs that Yami was planning something so elaborate, no way to see the change in Yami's personality when he made the decision. So, Yugi couldn't understand why Yami would do this to him and the people he loved.
The world, and the worlds of Yugi and his friends, was changed drastically after that day which would have been a year from today as he stared out the window of the hotel he was staying at. Seto, as well as Malik and Bakura who also gained their own bodies, joined Yami as his generals and Yami passed any and all laws that had to do with prohibition for any sort of violence with extremely heavy penalties as well as passing laws marking areas as what was known as 'haven areas' which were meant as sacred areas that Yami's Duel Monster soldiers wouldn't be allowed to enter without invitation from the area's occupants or owners or solid approval from him. Grandpa's game shop as well as his friends homes were made some of those areas for reasons Yugi wasn't sure of but even so that didn't make Yugi feel safe.
After Yami took over the world, Yugi gained this sudden fear of him that he cut himself off of the mind link they still shared even after all this time, he didn't feel safe at home because Yami could find him there anytime he wanted since his own laws didn't apply to him, and he feared for his friends lives as well.
Yugi first planned on committing suicide through means of a drug overdose by using the large bottle of ibuprofen his grandpa kept in the bathroom cabinet for whenever either of them had headaches just to release himself from this living nightmare he was suffering from but decided to start traveling instead so that Yami couldn't find him and so that his friends didn't have a higher risk of being in danger because he knew that if he just left them for a little and still kept contact with them would leave less of an emotional toll on them than if he killed himself like he originally planned. He left Grandpa a note explaining what he had been planning which he worried his grandfather wouldn't understand so he sent him a letter back at the first hotel he stayed at under the assumed name 'Eric Dawn' so he could explain to his grandpa why he did everything in better detail and to his surprise, his grandfather completely understood why he left and was very calm about the situation in the letter that he wrote back.
Now, he was in another hotel and had the new letters of his friends and his grandpa lying in his lap and he just finished reading his grandpa's letter.
Yugi,
Atemu came around looking for you again. He keeps asking where you are and I can't help but notice how devastated and heartbroken he looks whenever I tell him that you're still traveling. I get the feeling that he still cares for you deeply and that he just wants to see you so that he can talk things over with you and have back the bond you had before. I hope that someday you can find the courage to come home and face him but until then take all the time you need to be ready for when that moment comes.
See you,
Grandpa
Yugi instantly grabbed a pen and wrote a letter back to his grandpa.
Mr. Mouto,
Please don't tell. I need time and space. You know I just had to get away. This is the only way for me to not feel suffocated. In this envelope, I have also inserted other envelopes which have names on them. They're letters to some of my friends. Please try to get it to them without raising any sort of suspicion. I don't want you to get hurt.
Sincerely,
Eric Dawn
Yugi sighed as he used the wax seal that was in his hotel room. He only put his grandfather's address on the envelope and left his corner blank except for his fake name. This had been going on for a while and whenever he felt that Yami a.k.a. Atemu was getting closer to finding his current location, he would instantly move to another location.
"I just wish there was some easier way to do this," Yugi whispered to himself as he headed downstairs to deliver the envelope. Just before he reached the bottom, he was shocked and scared at hearing a familiar voice.
"Excuse me but have you seen a young man with violet eyes, tri-colored hair, who was a little on the short side?" Kaiba's voice sounded on the other side of the door. Yugi instantly ran back upstairs as quickly and as quietly as he could. He closed the door and locked it as he packed his things quickly, and left a note as well as the money he owed the hotel before grabbing his bag and the letter before opening his window and carefully jumped out onto the grass and ran for the nearest bus stop. He managed to find a mailbox along the way and dropped the envelope inside. The bus came and Yugi instantly got on, took a seat, and breathed a sigh of relief when he felt the bus pull away.
"That was too close for comfort," he whispered as he adjusted himself in his seat and leaned his head against the window, "One day I'll go back home but right now, I just need to run." He closed his eyes and soon drifted off into sleep to dream about the way it used to be before any of this ever happened.
***
Yami didn't really understand why all of this happened. He always loved Yugi, his light, his partner, and his soul mate. He loved Yugi as more than a friend and he still did but the main problem he always had was that he didn't know how to express his feelings for his little angel due to the fact that being 5000 years old can really take a toll on how to express to someone special that you love them more than anything. When he gained his own body but with all of his memory and powers intact, he got the idea that if he took control over the entire world, Yugi would live safely and happily and would realize how much Yami loved him
Too bad it didn't turn out that way. He remembered the look of sadness, shock, and betrayal painted in his loved one's big beautiful amethyst eyes when he did take control and what broke his heart even more was the fact that his little one ran away that very day after he cut himself from their mind link and blocked him out. This had officially been the worst year of Yami's entire life as he lay in bed and clutched a framed picture of Yugi to his chest. His little one would keep running to somewhere new every time he or one of his men got close causing his hopes to shatter into pieces like a crystal chandelier would when it met impact with a marble floor multiple times.
He felt like he was going insane from the lack of contact with his light and found that memories, dreams and photos just weren't enough anymore. He wanted to hold his light again, he wanted to hear his beautiful love's gentle voice speak to him once more, wanted to stroke his silky soft face and hair again, he wanted to smell his light's tantalizing scent of vanilla and violets mixed with a hint of lavender, he longed to shower his little one with kisses and feel his heart beat next to his own, but most of all he wanted to whisper to his light how much he truly loved and cared for him and to make sure his little light never ran away from him again.
"Yugi, my beautiful angel, please come back to me," he whispered as he held the picture even tighter as he allowed a tear to slide from his eye, "I'm going crazy without you and my dreams are getting to me even more than they used to causing my longing for you to become even stronger. I'm begging you to return home, my heavenly light. I want you back in my arms again."
He was still crying as he started drifting off to disturbed dreams. "You're my life, Yugi."
A/N: Hey, like I said before, I went over my fanfiction likes and dislikes to make Yami a little unhinged, and this goes against my moral codes, but it makes for an interesting story.