"Shit," was all I say as looked down at the four different brands of pregnancy test all with two lines very clear. How did we get here Jenny, you are not the kind of girl to sleep around, in fact I could count the number of guys I had slept with on one hand. After I became the banished Queen of the UES; I gave up on relationships and focus on finding the woman I was. The girl, who was loved by her first love Nate, not because I wanted him back. I knew that was not ever going to happen but it was at this point I was happy with me and who I was. To find that woman, to find Jennifer T. Humphrey, I had to be alone. I did not date for three years, while I was in school learned my trade and who I wanted to be. I made new friends and kept a few old ones, back in NYC. I didn't think one of them would be Chuck or his wife Blair, but honestly I would not have my the job I love here in London if not for them, but what I was going to do now.

"How did this happen," I asked myself. I know how this happen about two months ago, when a jet lag/ mildly drunk Nathaniel Archibald, came to her door with a old letter in his hand. The one that I never got, the one I lost him over. I could not just let him drive off and he would go right back to the bottle, because I would always care about him and answering to the family back home was not something I wanted to even think about. I had to let him in, and since my flatmates Eric and his boyfriend James, would be back after they got back from James, nices crisenty tonight I could not let him take their bed. Nate had to stay with me.

"Jenny, I was scared and I should have given this before you left," Nate said as he gave me the old thick envelope made out of the very recognizable to anyone from the UES, Empire stationary that must have come from Chuck suite, it was faded and coffee stained, with a tiny rip on the conner next to the stamp. "I have compared every woman, since then to you."

I opened up the coffee stain note,

Jenny,

I know have been an ass to you and you must think that what we have is just another fling. Please forgive me, you light up my life, you make me want to get up in the morning to be a better man, to be the man I want to be, not what my family wants me to be.

I want see where this goes, I know that keep saying that our ages difference matters, but in five to seven years it won't matter.

When we kiss that night at your fashion show, it meant the world to me, you mean the world to me.

But I can't hide the way I really feel about you the emotions are to strong for me to pretend that they don't exist. I think about you all the time

Now that your brother knows about us. I have to stay away from you...but I don't want to. I really care about you. I don't know what to do.

Nate

"Nate, thank you for telling me that I was not completely off my rocker back in highschool, but why does it matter now, you moved on and I don't blame you I was a snotty brat and complete bitch to you and everyone I loved. I lost me, the woman you loved, I lost her and reverted back to a bitchy toddler." I said as looked into the baby blue eyes that if was wanting to be honest with myself still show up in my dreams every night.

"I compare every woman to you, you made want to be a better man to be my own man. You wanted me, not just the Archibald diamond and everything that comes with it." Nate said to me with the passion in his eyes that hurt me and made burn as a woman for the first time.

"Don't say that, don't say you care still, because you don't," I said to him; "Your drunk Nate, you don't know what you are saying." I know he was not that drunk, I had seen him seen most of my old friends passed out drunk before and he was almost sober, compared to his days with Chuck Bass spent drinking and partying their way through the NYC.

"Why, Jennifer? Why would matter if you still don't feel the same way, if you still don't love me." Nate said as he moved closer to me. I could smell the fifty year old scotch on him and mixed with his Creed Adventus, that always made weak in the knees and made feel things that at the time didn't understand, like I do now.

"Why now, why are you here?" I asked.

"I going start my political career and my grandfather is arranging my marriage, or at least trying too." He said as he brushed a fallen strand of hair from my face, he had that look in his eyes whenever he was going to kiss me. I knew this was a bad idea, I knew but whenever Nate looked at me like this I become putty in his hands. "I have only one woman, could ever see that way, she was not quite a woman, when she stole my heart and then I broke hers and turned her into the banished Queen."

"Nathaniel," I breathed as he kissed me, like he never had before. I knew I was going to end up naked in bed with him that night. So at almost twenty four, joined Nathaniel F. Archibald little black book, and now I have four positive pregnancy test before me proving to me that it really did happen.

"Shit!" I said loudly as I took a picture of the test on my cell of the test, which brought in Eric to the door and peeked in to the bathroom.

"Is everything okay," Eric asked and saw the four sticks on sink with each clearly two marks on each, "Shit!"

"Yeah, shit is right." I answered.

"Nate, has some strong little swimmers," Eric said with a smirk. I had laugh at that because didn't know what else to do, the Banished Queen was pregnant with the white knights baby.

"Do know what you want, do yet?"

"I just confirmed that I pregnant, I don't know?" I answered.

"You have always wanted kids, and you know it?" Eric said.

"I know, but Nate is going to be running for mayor of New York City and he doesn't need a bastard kid popping up." I said. "I just thought it was not possible for me to get pregnant and here I am with child, which is the news that help send me down a crazy spire in NYC."

"Talk to him before the wedding, which we leave for really late tonight and will get there in the morning," Eric subgested.

"I know you're right," I answered as went my room with my four test. I hope he not working right now. I sit down in from of my packed bags and computer. I pull up the skype line that I swore I never use, because he always brought out the best when were together and the crazy bitch when I wasn't, but if I was needing saving he was my white knight. I don't know if he will answer or if I call and I had to see his face to do this. I click the video chat line and he soon pops up on the screen with his amazing blue eyes and heart melting smile.

"Hey Jenny, this a welcome surprize," Nate greets me, I can see he at his office, and in a well fitting suit, something I didn't see him in high school a lot, and his late lunch in front of him.

"Hey Nate, how's New York," I greet him awkwardly.

"Good"

"And the Spectator?"

"Deadline, and crazy, but that's normal here."

"Your family?"

"Jenny something wrong, you have been my girlfriend and one of my best friends. I know when something is wrong. So what wrong?" Nate asked. "I haven't heard from you since we met up in while I was in London."

"Yeah about that night?"

"I know I should have not dumped that whole, thing on you- but it's true. I have compared every woman, I have been with to you even Serena. I didn't know it at the time, but she didn't make me feel at peace to be me." Nate said.

"That's not why I am calling." I said as I played with one of the test out of view of the web camera.

"Then what?" Nate asked as he took a sip from his water bottle.

"Because of this," I answer as I held up the test, for him to see.

"Is that yours?" Nate asked, I could tell he was flabbergasted at the sight of the white and pink test with two lines.

"Yeah, and one of four, that all say the same thing your going to be a dad Nate," I told him.

"I thought you couldn't get…" Nate stated, thing that I learned when I thought he would have been my first, I went to my first OBGYN appointment and learned that I was not ovulating regularly and I would struggle to have kids someday. That was one of reason my downfall happened. "How did it happen… Wait don't, I remember the how it happen. I came with a drunken confession."

"Me too, I don't know if I am happy about it or not, but I can't have an abortion, because this may never happen again," I said as tears came out now. "Are you mad?"

"Jenny," Nate answered. "I am too shocked to be mad at you or our child. Wow that a word I thought would never say. Have you seen an OBGYN yet?"

"No," I answered as grabbed tissue dry my face. "I just took the test this afternoon, because I thought it was not possible."

"I can get you an appointment tomorrow if you want be or later before or after the wedding? " Nate offered, the every practical.

"Thank you, sooner the better I will be in town tomorrow morning?" I told him.

"I know, I can pick you up from the airport go right after that we can see the doctor," Nate offered.

"Thank you, lets just do it and go from their." I answered. "I know we have so much to talk over, but the cab is going to be here soon, see you soon."

"Alright I'll let you go, and see you soon." Nate answered.

"Okay bye," I said hung up, the line.