One shot- Gone Forever
A/N: thanks to .3 and her story of The Alex Rider I Knew and thanks to
The One Time By: alexsonnn
Summary: when Ian is dead, Alex is having troubles, and not just because Mi6 decided he'd be a good Teen Spy
Ian R- AlexR/Cub
English
Hurt/Comfort/Angst
Rated T
Written By: Yassen Gregorovich Cossack.5
Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life
Alex Rider glanced at his cell phone that was playing music and he sighed. It had been 2 days since Ian had died and now he was getting depressed.
Drugs, they had made the pain dull and now he was stopping.
Ian wouldn't have wanted him to do this; he was supposed to be on his feet and working hard in class.
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
"Tom I can't do this. I don't know who to be now he is gone! Now that Jack is gone, I am alone!"
Tom Harris glanced at his best mate who hadn't been the same since his uncle died.
"Be who you always were Al, I will be here for you."
Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life
Drinking fights and I disappear day by day. I am so broken.
"WHY CANT YOU STILL BE ALIVE!?"
Alex rider yelled at the roof top of the building and stared across at the starry night.
"Don't jump Little Alex."
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
"Don't jump Little Alex."
The voice told him he was wanted and was still loved.
"I don't want to live."
"I love you"
First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever
"I missed you Ian"
The uncle glanced at his five year old nephew and smiled.
"I missed you too AL."
And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
"WAS THAT A LIE!?"
"I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE!"
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
"Ian you're gone from my life forever and ever. I will miss you but I choose life."
"Take me home Yassen."
And now you're gone forever
i loved you Ian Rider now i can get over you...
[A/N: Gone Forever By three days grace]