This is the other point of view for Under Control. Allie Rayie and me have been working together.

The green forest opened up vastly once I stepped out of the portal. "Jace had been cheating on me. He thought I wouldn't see him necking the blonde but I did. I can't believe it. I guess I wasn't good enough for him." I thought.

The tears running down my face weren't from sadness but from anger and betrayal; Fear and pain were part of it to. It seemed like he was going to kill me when we were fighting in the alley. I loved him. Love is stupid. Love is a game that's meant to trick you. It's not worth it to play.

I kept walking through the forest as the day went on thinking about Jace. It was early morning here. The birds were just beginning to chirp up high in the trees. I vaguely knew I was in Idris but I didn't know where. At least I hadn't fallen in Lake Lynn this time.

There wasn't a path in the forest so I just headed straight. I had no clue where I was going, if I did I would've called myself lost. As I walked, the Sun rose over the horizon, the heat draining me.

As the shock went away Embarrassment took its place. I was ashamed to have given into the institution of love. How could I trust him? It doesn't make sense, why do this to me?

I assumed it was because of me but I still wanted to know the truth, as silly as that may be, I'm across the ocean from the truth. But it was too late now. I don't want to talk to him. I will forget about the truth and forget about Jace, as hard as that sounds. I have to.

Now I needed to focus on finding water. I was sweating a lot but it had stopped by now and that was not a good sign. My jeans weren't helping me cool down at all in this hot, summer air. Heat stroke was definite possibility. I needed to stop thinking about Jace and start thinking about how to stay alive. First thing was to find water.

I was in scouts when I was little but I never paid attention. I never thought I would be in a situation that called for it. Once I saw a TV show about a man who followed a rabbit to a stream; I've seen lizards and birds but no rabbits. I'd been walking for some time now when I spotted a lizard and decided to risk it. I followed far behind the lizard, trying not to alert him to my presence. He veered off towards the left and I followed.

While I was walking I started thinking about my mom and Luke. They would be worried for sure. They knew of my plans to go out with Jace. I wonder what he would tell them. I sure wasn't going to contact them, I couldn't risk Jace knowing. I didn't even want to talk to Simon. Lately I was feeling jealous of Simon and the shadow hunters' relationship. I knew that it was just because of downworlder stuff but I still couldn't help comparing myself to them. I had only been training for a few months when they had been training their whole lives. I miss hanging out with him. I can't go back but I still wish that I could've said goodbye to Simon. I will never go back to New York. I can't face Jace again. I don't care how bad things get for me, I can't ever go back. Every time I imagined him all I can picture iss his cheating, murderous face. The way he looked at me that night, I have never seen anyone's eyes filled with so much hate, and every time I look at him I would just remember the girl he cheated on me with. I know I'm a coward for running away. I'm acting like I'm 5 but its more than that.

Now, 3 hours later, I was extremely tired. I didn't care anymore. I just wanted to sleep, but I wouldn't let myself. Then I thought I saw something move out of my peripheral vision. It almost looked like a person. I thought it was just my tired mind playing tricks on me but I was hoping that it was real. I didn't have time to find out if it was or not. The sun was so hot, I was parched and starving, and my mind and body were being pushed over the limit. I'd been hiking through this forest for hours without giving my body anytime to rest at all. I was miserable but I didn't want to go back. I wanted to keep going but then, without my permission my mind and body gave out on me. The last thing I saw was the blurry figure coming towards me and then I was plunged into complete darkness.

I'm writing chapter two now. Please come back and read when it's up. I hope you enjoyed this! R&R.