Everyday.
"I'm sorry Yoko!"
"Why the hell would you do that? That was so stupid and don't say you're not hurt because I can see it written all over your face!"
"I'm not hurt! I said I was sorry and can't you see that?"
"Well what you to me did was fucked up! What happened to always telling each other everything?"
"I'm sorry!"
Did you ever just have that moment when you felt like no matter what you could say nothing would work? That everything would just fall apart and you could do nothing. Well…welcome to my life. Here are my two best friends, one whom I feel the closest to and the other who I'm close to also. And yes…they're fighting. Over something so stupid!
"That's it I can't take it! I quit!"
And just like that…my friend walked away, out of the house and out of our lives. Over something so stupid, too!
"Yoko! Wait!" My friend called after her, running into the street. "Please Yoko I'm sorry!"
"I'm not going to sit and watch you get hurt…good bye." And I stood there, unable to say anything. When Yoko was out of sight, Reiko walked back inside, not even sparring me a glance.
"Reiko…it's not your fault-"
"Shut up, Akina…Just shut up!" She snapped. At that moment I felt a dagger drive right through my heart. Reiko, the person I wanted to be like the most had just snapped at me.
"Just go away…" She said in a whisper, but I still felt the anger and sadness in her tone. I knew she wasn't angry at me directly, but more at herself. I nodded, a lump in my throat now, as I walked to the door, letting myself out. There was nothing I could do…I felt so useless. Then I finally understood what Sakura felt like when Sasuke left and she could do nothing. Even though Naruto wasn't real…I…still felt the sadness. The worthlessness. I had no idea that…just like that…over one guy and a few secrets…our little family like band would be torn apart and I would feel so alone and guilty. Everyday I ask myself "Why the hell hadn't I stepped in?" Everyday I look outside the window into the parking lot, hoping that they'll come back. Everyday I wondered…would this pain ever go away?
And from that day I came to the conclusion that a worse pain than not being needed was not being able to help…not being able to help the people who mean the world to you. The feeling of worthlessness that sets in when you realize of all those times when you say you'll be there for them and that you would never abandon them…were never really true until the moment of truth came and…you did nothing…you stayed quiet and you just watched.
Watched as just like that…you're family split apart…you're friend's split apart…your life split apart…
And what could you do?
Nothing…absolutely nothing…
THis was just something I did because...well...that's how I'm feeling lately and I can't really tell them because i think it would make things worse...so instead of a lifetime of anger built up inside of me i think I'll just write it and psot it up here. Maybe change it around to toehr characters. But this one specifically i wanted to be my OC's.