Hey guys this is a quick story that will be uploaded and finished quite quickjly as I am sitting in my bed late at night and am being lost in thought with myself and my feelings. I need to do something to help me go to sleep (as it is 4:00 am) and help me express what I'm feeling right now. It's also some vulnerability of myself and a small look into my personal life so … I hope you enjoy!
-Sami
It's late at night. About 4 o'clock in the morning to be precise if you wanted to know. You're probably wondering, "Why are you up so late Gwen? Do you have a flight to catch to go on an amazing all-paid vacation or something?" No. I wish I was up this late for a reason like that, but the reason is not as important as that. Sometimes, I lay in bed and just think. Think. Think. Think. It's usually not important thinking though, it's mostly just things such as "what will I have for supper tomorrow? What will I wear to work? If a tree falls in the woods and no one is around, does it really make a sound?" you know, silly things like that. But not tonight... Tonight I was having the worst thoughts that anyone could ever think of when lying in bed by yourself. You know, thoughts that fight with each other non-stop and won't resolve until you finally find an answer for yourself. Those are the thoughts that I was having tonight and it was not fun. Let me break down the thoughts for you.
Thought 1: What are we?
Thought 2: Why me?
Thought 3: What will I do with myself now?
You may think these thoughts are involved with one situation but they are all different. These thoughts are not, in any way, related to each other. The only similarities these thoughts have are that they are keeping me up at night. I guess to make this make more sense I should tell you why these thoughts have even appeared in my nightly thinking routine. Get ready for stories that will send shivers down your spine.