To sum it up; being an apprentice sucked big time. All we ever did was training and then after that it was "Get me this" or "Go take care of the elders" It's like they assume we have nothing better to do and we don't enjoy our free time.

Sometimes I wish I was born blind like Brownpaw, "a bland name for a bland cat" They would say. He was neither warrior nor medicine cat he was given an apprentice name so he wouldn't always have to be referred to as a kit. He never had to do anything but he would help with some things but not that much he was basically a young elder.

Due to that all the other apprentices hated him, I was his only friend he was my only friend. Despite all that we didn't have time to just hang out I guess. He would just rant whenever I had little time to talk to him so I tried to avoid that.

I had other problems too; I was mid-apprenticeship so around the time cats started looking for suitable mates. No, this isn't only of those cliché love triangles. I was in love with my ex-best friend and he was a tom.

To you that may not seem like a big deal but in Shadowclan that wasn't allowed no one had ever heard of a cat liking its own gender. Yet I did, his name was Bluepaw we used to be good friends when we were kits. We were inseparable like sap to a tree yet when we became apprentices, that is when it all changed.

Flashback

"Bluekit from now on you will be known as Bluepaw and your mentor will be Tigerfoot. Mizukit you will now be Mizupaw and Thrushfang will be your mentor." And so on. I didn't care I was finally an apprentice this is what Bluek- sorry I mean Bluepaw and I had dreamed of.

Soon we would be warriors; there were three other apprentices already there: Stickpaw, Rubypaw and Fangpaw. They were the reason that all the other clans apprentices were trained a bit earlier than us. In Shadowclan you had to be seven moons, and we were. In short they were amazing fighters and hunters. It was said if you were noticed by them you were officially cool.

Of course they picked Bluepaw despite his age he was very tall and muscular it was a natural gift. Unlike me sometimes cats confuse me with a g=she-cat because of my feminine structure. I hated that feeling; I was a tom not a she-cat.

After our introduction, I noticed he started hanging out with them more and spending less time with me. Maybe I am just being paranoid we were best friends inseparable.

Flashback

Boy was I wrong, first off if you are confused with my name it means water in a different language my mother is from a different forest so. I was named that, some cats said that it was because I was special but in all honesty it made me feel worse.

Back to my point though after that Bluepaw and I didn't interact often, I was in love with him so I would usually follow him when he was alone hunting and such. Which I guess kind of makes me a stalker but I didn't like to think of it like that.

"Hey, girly!" Oh no, my mentor Thrushfang that was his nickname for me again I hated being called that I was a tom.
"Yes"
"We are going hunting with Tigerfoot and Bluepaw you two will be hunting together." No, no, no, no, no, no way! I can't do that that would mean interacting with him.

"*Cough* Oh no I sure am sick I should go to the medicine cat den." I started.
"Nice try we are going, now!" He snarled.

Nothing could have been more awkward partially because he didn't know anything about me yet I knew lots about him but I was not about to say that.
"So, Mizu how has it been we haven't really talk in moons."
"Not really it's only really been four." I coughed out
"Yeah, I noticed that you've been hanging out with Brownpaw that's good he needs a friend." He replied
"Well, you could try being his friend." I glared at him suddenly angry at myself.
"Um, uh he um doesn't um we should get hunting." He quickly churned out and ran deep into the woods.

We finish early and had a lot of prey about enough to feed the elders for a day. He was looking away only sneaking glances when he thought I wasn't looking. I wonder what he wanted to say about Brownpaw I remember one day Brownpaw was really angry at Bluepaw but about what?

"Let's head back now it's getting dark." He started grabbing the prey and heading off I followed behind him like we used to.

This is a new story by moi as you can guess; now I plan on finishing this properly for the first time. So the next chapter should be up around this time next week.