Why? Why did my parents do that? It hurts me! To see them argue... What if they're getting divorced? What would I do then? I want to help... But why does dad hit me when I'm going to do it?! I'm so tired of the world... I'm finished! But what is with Charlie...? Can he handle with it if I do THIS? I hope. I will do THIS! He must handle with it. Nobody can change my mind. But I don't want any pain anymore... It must go fast. A gun... I need a gun. Maybe dad has one... There. There is it. My hands are shaking... Why? I take it. Hold it one my head and...!