A/N: Okay this is set after the season finale. That night, Lorelai went
back to the inn but then came back early in the morning to go get breakfast
with Rory.
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JESS When I got back to my apartment, it suddenly looked very different to me. I guess my time in Stars Hollow really changed me. Suddenly, the apartment that I had been so happy to have began to look dirty and pathetic. "What am I doing?" I mumbled to myself. Sighing, I made my way over to my corner. Without realizing what I was doing, I began to pack what little belongings I had. I finally decided that I couldn't go on here like this. Leaving behind my key and some cash to cover the rent that month, I left that horrible little apartment for good.
RORY
It's the morning after my "encounter" with Dean. I'm waiting for mom to get ready to go to Luke's. Since when does she have to touch up her make up for Luke? This whole dating thing is going to put a delay on our coffee drinking. I'm hoping everything will be okay between us. After the fight she came out on the front porch with me and I just sat and cried. I think we kind of came to an understanding then. I just... I don't know what's going to happen. I love Dean and he loves me. Why can't we just be together? He wouldn't lie to me would he? This is too much thinking, way too early.
"Mom are you ready?"
"Alright, alright. Let's go."
Things seem to be a little awkward between us. More in that forced normalness kind of way. I guess it's just going to take a little bit of time to get back to normal. Walking into the diner, I couldn't help but smile at how happy my mom and Luke are. Both of their faces lit up when they made eye contact. Suddenly, she grabs me and pulls me back out of the diner.
"Mom? What? What's wrong?"
She stops me by the street and beams. "I didn't get to tell you. Me and Luke, we kissed. Twice!"
"Oh my god! Mom!!! That's great!" Awkwardness has left the building. We hug and recompose ourselves to make a new entrance into the diner. All of its occupants, including Luke, look extremely confused and we laugh some more. Laughing like this feels so good right now.
Breakfast was great. I was happy and distracted. I had about three sips of my second cup of coffee when the diner door opened and in walked Jess. Just in case my life wasn't complicated enough, HE decides to make another dramatic entrance. He doesn't see me yet, which gives me a few minutes to analyze him. He seems more subdued, yet still as confident as ever. He walks up to the counter and without a word, nods upstairs. Luke nods in return and Jess walks up the stairs.
"That, my friend, is good communication skills," My mom has to say it. Then she looks at Luke quizzically.
Luke shrugs. "I'll call you later. Ceaser!! Watch the place." With that said he goes upstairs too.
LUKE
Walking up the stairs, I was trying to figure out every reason possible that Jess would be here. Short of being in some sort of trouble, I really didn't know. When I walked in he was just kind of standing in the middle of the place. I kind of felt bad for him, he looked really lost.
"Hey." I didn't really know what to say.
He nodded. He seemed to be at a loss for words as well. After a few minutes, he finally spoke. "I don't know why I'm here. I just couldn't be there anymore. I... I'm tired of settling. I'm tired of just accepting this as my fate and trying to deal with it. This can't be all there is, right?"
He looked at me then, with his eyes pleading, begging me to tell him that there was more in store for him than a messenger job that barely pays the rent for the smelly cramped apartment that he shares.
"Jess, you're going to be fine. You're better than that life and you're just realizing it now. Everything will work out. I will help you in any way I can. You have so much potential. Just don't give up."
Nodding, he seemed satisfied. "Listen, I have to get back to the diner. You make yourself comfortable and how about we get some dinner later?"
"Okay." Jess sat down and took out a book. I smiled. I really did miss not having him around.
DEAN
I meant what I told Rory. I really did, and honestly, I really do love her. It's just... well... I can't get divorced. I mean divorce sounds so ... messy and so sad. I mean we just got married. I can't be nineteen and divorced. I have to at least give it some time, right? Then this morning, Lindsay made me this huge breakfast. I mean, pancakes, eggs, French toast, everything. She set the table really nice. When I looked surprised, she simply looked happier.
"Dean, I think we should talk." She gestured for me to sit down and so I did. "I made this breakfast as a peace offering. I realize that we've been fighting a lot and I think it's because we aren't communicating well enough. I thought we could have a nice breakfast and a nice talk?"
"Lindsay, I just don't really understand what you expect from me. You want a town house, so I drop out of college and take on extra work. Then you complain that I'm not here enough. I can't do everything."
"Well Dean, what do you want to be doing?"
"I want to see you. I want to be able to enjoy our marriage. I don't want to be working 18 hour days to come home to you upset."
"Dean, I want to see you too. I want us to be able to go out and do things together. I'm bored here Dean. I don't understand why you don't want me to work. Don't you see, then maybe we could both work, but less. Maybe we could both go to school part time. Can't we just try it?"
I sighed. It had always been a sign of weakness in my family if the wife had to work. My family always taught me that a man should be able to support her. Her plan made it all sound so simple though. "Part time. You find a job part time and let's take it from there."
Lindsay smiled. "Thank you!! I think this will really help."
JESS
I'm not sure what I'm going to do now that I'm here. I didn't really have a plan in leaving New York, except that I was headed here. This time I'm going to focus on me. I need to go to school. I need to get a job. I need to straighten out my life. Of course, it's going to be hard here, but that is only because I made it that way. If people here are wary of me, that is only because I made them that way and now I need to come to terms with that. I'm sure people are going to think that part of the reason I'm here is Rory, but really it isn't. I've been wandering around this town all day thinking about her. Those last two times, I really put myself out there, I've never told anyone I loved them. It may have seemed strange that I ran afterward, but at the time, hearing her rejection would have killed me. Literally. I was really bad around that time, desperate, almost suicidal. The last time I came here really helped me out. I was stronger, and it still crushed me when she said no. So that's it. I'm done. I've tried to think of ways to help us but I can't do it on my own. It kills me, because I was so sure of her. It just seemed so right, I was convinced she was my soul mate but I have to let it go. I actually cried today thinking about it but it's the only option. So that's it. I have to put it all behind me now and step into my future. Goodbye Rory Gilmore.
Okay so this chapter was really to set everyone up. I'm still not exactly sure where this is going but I wanted to get the stage set. Please please please review. I have the time to actually write this now, I just need feedback!
Disclaimer: I have nothing to do with the show Gilmore Girls.
Feedback: yes please!
JESS When I got back to my apartment, it suddenly looked very different to me. I guess my time in Stars Hollow really changed me. Suddenly, the apartment that I had been so happy to have began to look dirty and pathetic. "What am I doing?" I mumbled to myself. Sighing, I made my way over to my corner. Without realizing what I was doing, I began to pack what little belongings I had. I finally decided that I couldn't go on here like this. Leaving behind my key and some cash to cover the rent that month, I left that horrible little apartment for good.
RORY
It's the morning after my "encounter" with Dean. I'm waiting for mom to get ready to go to Luke's. Since when does she have to touch up her make up for Luke? This whole dating thing is going to put a delay on our coffee drinking. I'm hoping everything will be okay between us. After the fight she came out on the front porch with me and I just sat and cried. I think we kind of came to an understanding then. I just... I don't know what's going to happen. I love Dean and he loves me. Why can't we just be together? He wouldn't lie to me would he? This is too much thinking, way too early.
"Mom are you ready?"
"Alright, alright. Let's go."
Things seem to be a little awkward between us. More in that forced normalness kind of way. I guess it's just going to take a little bit of time to get back to normal. Walking into the diner, I couldn't help but smile at how happy my mom and Luke are. Both of their faces lit up when they made eye contact. Suddenly, she grabs me and pulls me back out of the diner.
"Mom? What? What's wrong?"
She stops me by the street and beams. "I didn't get to tell you. Me and Luke, we kissed. Twice!"
"Oh my god! Mom!!! That's great!" Awkwardness has left the building. We hug and recompose ourselves to make a new entrance into the diner. All of its occupants, including Luke, look extremely confused and we laugh some more. Laughing like this feels so good right now.
Breakfast was great. I was happy and distracted. I had about three sips of my second cup of coffee when the diner door opened and in walked Jess. Just in case my life wasn't complicated enough, HE decides to make another dramatic entrance. He doesn't see me yet, which gives me a few minutes to analyze him. He seems more subdued, yet still as confident as ever. He walks up to the counter and without a word, nods upstairs. Luke nods in return and Jess walks up the stairs.
"That, my friend, is good communication skills," My mom has to say it. Then she looks at Luke quizzically.
Luke shrugs. "I'll call you later. Ceaser!! Watch the place." With that said he goes upstairs too.
LUKE
Walking up the stairs, I was trying to figure out every reason possible that Jess would be here. Short of being in some sort of trouble, I really didn't know. When I walked in he was just kind of standing in the middle of the place. I kind of felt bad for him, he looked really lost.
"Hey." I didn't really know what to say.
He nodded. He seemed to be at a loss for words as well. After a few minutes, he finally spoke. "I don't know why I'm here. I just couldn't be there anymore. I... I'm tired of settling. I'm tired of just accepting this as my fate and trying to deal with it. This can't be all there is, right?"
He looked at me then, with his eyes pleading, begging me to tell him that there was more in store for him than a messenger job that barely pays the rent for the smelly cramped apartment that he shares.
"Jess, you're going to be fine. You're better than that life and you're just realizing it now. Everything will work out. I will help you in any way I can. You have so much potential. Just don't give up."
Nodding, he seemed satisfied. "Listen, I have to get back to the diner. You make yourself comfortable and how about we get some dinner later?"
"Okay." Jess sat down and took out a book. I smiled. I really did miss not having him around.
DEAN
I meant what I told Rory. I really did, and honestly, I really do love her. It's just... well... I can't get divorced. I mean divorce sounds so ... messy and so sad. I mean we just got married. I can't be nineteen and divorced. I have to at least give it some time, right? Then this morning, Lindsay made me this huge breakfast. I mean, pancakes, eggs, French toast, everything. She set the table really nice. When I looked surprised, she simply looked happier.
"Dean, I think we should talk." She gestured for me to sit down and so I did. "I made this breakfast as a peace offering. I realize that we've been fighting a lot and I think it's because we aren't communicating well enough. I thought we could have a nice breakfast and a nice talk?"
"Lindsay, I just don't really understand what you expect from me. You want a town house, so I drop out of college and take on extra work. Then you complain that I'm not here enough. I can't do everything."
"Well Dean, what do you want to be doing?"
"I want to see you. I want to be able to enjoy our marriage. I don't want to be working 18 hour days to come home to you upset."
"Dean, I want to see you too. I want us to be able to go out and do things together. I'm bored here Dean. I don't understand why you don't want me to work. Don't you see, then maybe we could both work, but less. Maybe we could both go to school part time. Can't we just try it?"
I sighed. It had always been a sign of weakness in my family if the wife had to work. My family always taught me that a man should be able to support her. Her plan made it all sound so simple though. "Part time. You find a job part time and let's take it from there."
Lindsay smiled. "Thank you!! I think this will really help."
JESS
I'm not sure what I'm going to do now that I'm here. I didn't really have a plan in leaving New York, except that I was headed here. This time I'm going to focus on me. I need to go to school. I need to get a job. I need to straighten out my life. Of course, it's going to be hard here, but that is only because I made it that way. If people here are wary of me, that is only because I made them that way and now I need to come to terms with that. I'm sure people are going to think that part of the reason I'm here is Rory, but really it isn't. I've been wandering around this town all day thinking about her. Those last two times, I really put myself out there, I've never told anyone I loved them. It may have seemed strange that I ran afterward, but at the time, hearing her rejection would have killed me. Literally. I was really bad around that time, desperate, almost suicidal. The last time I came here really helped me out. I was stronger, and it still crushed me when she said no. So that's it. I'm done. I've tried to think of ways to help us but I can't do it on my own. It kills me, because I was so sure of her. It just seemed so right, I was convinced she was my soul mate but I have to let it go. I actually cried today thinking about it but it's the only option. So that's it. I have to put it all behind me now and step into my future. Goodbye Rory Gilmore.
Okay so this chapter was really to set everyone up. I'm still not exactly sure where this is going but I wanted to get the stage set. Please please please review. I have the time to actually write this now, I just need feedback!