I wrote this on May 27th, 2009 during two class periods and just fell in love with it. It can be disturbing to some, but it's not too graphic. I already posted this but things have changed.

What's new about this story?: I decided to write at least one more chapter to this to make it more appealing. I wanted to add Dean in here, so that's why I changed the summary… So a second chapter is on it's way! Dean is in that one, not this first one.

The first chapter is a bit more haphazard (in my mind anyway) in order to mirror Sam's feelings. I promise the next one will be more orderly. This chapter is short too, which is a surprise. Usually my serious stories are long...

Rated T (bordering M) for language, some sensuality, and mild violence (well, I think it's mild...)

Disclaimer: Supernatural doesn't belong to me!!! I wish... But Kripke, CW, and whoever else has the power does.

Chapter One: An Addicted and Twisted Sam

If he just sucked once, just once, maybe the burn would go away.

He sucked at that pulse, just right there, and something just clicked. Everything turned to nothing. Nothing mattered. Only now, right here, what he was feeling was incomparable to anything he had ever felt. It tasted so sweet… So goddamn sweet, (yet so wrong), but so tantalizing (but so wrong), and so delectable (and wrong, it was wrong… IT WAS WRONG!).

But Sam didn't care. This was about him.

He sucked again, and again, and again.

He could hear Ruby moaning, almost panting, but he immediately tuned her out. This wasn't about what she felt. She was using him. Sam wasn't foolish enough to not realize that. What she was using him for, he couldn't be sure. But that didn't matter either because he was using her too. There was no attraction to her, not really. It was what she offered him…

Sam always, always, felt unnatural. It was as if only a brief moment of the time he had thus spent on Earth was pure and untainted. He knew it was due to Yellow Eyes. His blood had been soiled from the get-go. Why try and pretend like everything was dandy when it just fucking wasn't?!

But what Ruby had released him. He no longer had to try and delude himself into the hope of a normal life. Gone was his lawyer career. Gone was college. Gone were parties, wild Spring Breaks, sleepovers, going to a job where business suits were all the rage, living in a steady home, raising a family, spending time with his children, dying an old man…

No. Those were gone and Sam got it. He understood now. Nothing could change who he was or what blood ran through him or what he had done… or would do… His life had been set and he had no control over that. But this… This Sam could handle.

He bit Ruby's forearm viciously with his teeth mauling the skin as he sucked harder. Ruby took in a surprised breath and a flicker of pain passed through her face.

"Sam, that hurt," she said… well, more gasped. "That's enough."

This was Sam's domination: his rules, his territory.

He dug his left hand into her other arm and practically squeezed the arm he was mutilating with his mouth.

"Shit! Sam! I said stop!"

Like that was really going to stop him.

Ruby began to thrash around to get Sam off her, but she suddenly became aware of something painfully clear: Sam was stronger than her now. That thought, the epiphany, stole her breath away with a violent shudder. He could kill her… He would kill her… She felt truly helpless, something she hadn't felt in a long ass time and didn't welcome now. This wasn't supposed to happen. This wasn't what she fucking planned!

"Sam! I said get the fuck off of me!"

He didn't relent and she could feel herself ebbing away slowly… slowly… slooowly…

Then he stopped.

Sam stood up abruptly and gave Ruby a toothy grin. It had to be the freakiest and creepiest smile that Ruby had ever seen. His teeth were stained with blood that also coated his lips and dribbled off his chin. She began to feel dizzy and allowed her vessel to fall asleep.

As she entered that darkened land, she heard Sam say, "I'm only using you for now, you bitch. It'll only be a matter of time before I kill you."

And Ruby didn't doubt it.

Wow. That was a little intense. Hopefully Dean's presence in the next chapter will help Sam? *crosses fingers* Please review!

And don't worry! Ruby isn't going to be with Sam or anything in this!