You know once that chair is kicked over, there's no turning back. You know your neck is going to snap, your limbs are going to go numb, your eyes closing forever.

When you were tying that knot, you were thinking what it would be like to die. Would it hurt? Would you go to heaven? You haven't done anything wrong...

When you tied the other end to the rafter, you thought about your family. Your family full of traitors. Would they actually miss you?

When you put that rope around your neck, you think about it. What would your funeral be like, if you even have one? Who would show up? Your daughter? Your two sons? Tim...

Of course not, you think as you look at the chair under your feet. Even though you love him, love him as much as someone could, he hates your guts. For one reason, and one reason only...

Shizuru

That bitch ruined your whole life, not to mention your dreams. Even as a four year old, she was evil. Everyone thought she was a blessing; first grandchild, she would amount to something. Everyone had such high hopes. She would make something of the Fujino family name.

She was your living Hell, and Tim wanted her. He wanted her to live with with you and him so you could be in the perfect picture of the prestigious Japanese family. Why, why, why.

Within the first two weeks, he was done. Every night, he would tell you you how much he regreted it. He tried everything to get rid of the baby. Stuffed her with food, shoved her face in the water-filled bathtub, breaking her bones, whipping her with his riding crop while she was duct taped to the wall. She was only four, how hard could it be to kill her?

Then there was Orihara Izaya, hired by your father in-law to piss me off in pretense to protect Shizuru. Damn, he did his job perfectly alright, and you hate him for that. He wanted to see the kid so bad. What was so special about the baby? All she did was cry and whine and constantly ask for shit. Tim would never let him in the house. You said to keep him out.

He found a way to wiggle into your life. Hugging the baby, kissing the baby, giving her stuff. It drove you and Tim nuts.

Then he takes the baby and become her guardian, while reporting to your In-laws about you and Tim, like the dog he always was. Your In-laws, those backstabbers, press charges and -

Shizuru enters the room.

You smirked. And you close your eyes.