Remembering the past
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Summary: Shikamaru is hiding from his dark past. Kiba tries to help put only pushes him over the edge. How will Shikamaru cope with the pain?
Warning: Dark Shikamaru. Sorry, I love him too TT-TT. Cutting, language, and yaoi. But not in the first chapter. I'M SOOOOOOOOO SORRY! Plz I promise to put smuty yaoi in next chapter! Promise!
Chapter 1
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'Ugh! Why does Asuma-sensei push me to my limit? I have to use up my chakara reserves. And I need those!' Shikamaru was storming into his apartment near the Hokage Mountain. He had just survived six hours of survival training with Asuma and his team mates. He never was one to move much. To troublesome. He sighed as he flopped down onto his bed.
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"Shikamaru your parents were killed in a fire at the compound while you were on a mission…not many lived from the Nara clan, I'm terribly sorry." The Fifth Hokage simply stated with an expressionless face.
"So what? Do I just live on the streets now or with a friend or what? You always were good at breaking news to people especially if you were ordered by the council to do so." Shikamaru said returning Tsunade's blank stare.
"No the village will accommodate you with an apartment. I really am sorr-" Tsunade stopped when she heard a choked sob.
"NO! The village can keep that damn apartment! I would never live in it! I'll buy my own! Just keep sending me on missions! Please…this is the only way my father would have had it…" Shikamaru trailed of and fell to his knees, sobbing.
"Shikamaru! I went through hell to get the council to approve of buying a child an apartment! I won't let you toss it away! And what's this about your father? He is dead don't you understand?" Tsunade was cut off again but the brunette sobbing in front of her. She could tell she went just a little bit too far.
"Shut it, you stupid old hag! You know nothing of our clan! You think you do but you don't! Our clan was cursed to worship the deer as a god and nothing else! We were cursed to bad luck and war! That is what the deer symbolizes!(sorry but I'm not really sure if that's right…) That is our fate because of the damn council!" Shikamaru bit back at her. Already running for the window out of her office.
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Shikamaru reached behind his bed looking for his blood red kunai. After finding it, he ran to his small bathroom and started the water in the tub. He had every little detail planed out, of how he would kill himself to get rid of the pain in his heart. He even left a suicide note, for anyone who gave a damn, on the door of his apartment.
'KNOCK' repeated on the outside door to his apartment.
'Damn it! Why? I need to do this… I don't want to live anymore! I've been broken and betrayed. Broken by the damn council and betrayed by the one I loved.' Shikamaru started to put his plan in action and jumped into the tub, digging into his upper body. Until he reached his stomach, he then stabbed the kunai into his gut 2 times, and sunk to the bottom of the tub. He could feel it, the dark being chased away as he followed it into the utter darkness of death. (yeah I know it doesn't make much sence to me either. Sorry)
"Shikamaru open this god damned door or ill break it down." Kiba said not waiting for an answer to let him in as he kicked the door in. What he saw was horrible. Shikamaru laying flat on the bottom of the bath tub. Sinking into crimson water. Kiba dived in and pulled his dying friend out. He had no clue what he should do, so he carried Shikamaru out of the apartment and ran for the hospital.
A/N: Hehehehe…… sorry guys but I couldn't fit any smut in here. But I promise that I will bring you yaoi smut in the next chapter. I promise. Oh and I'm sorry if I spelled anything wrong….plz let me know and I'll go change it. Flames are accepted…But be warned I can report you. LOL jk. I like criticism. It builds character.