It felt like a slap in the face. After everything I'd done for you, but somehow it ended up this way.

Plenty of people had told me were too different. Gryffindors and Slytherins didn't get along for a reason. We were two different people.

I fought with my friends and family for you. I gave up Tuney because of you. She was the closest person to me; now she can't even look me in the eyes.

Honestly, I don't know how but, I thought we could stay together. To me it didn't matter that you were Snivellus Snape, meddler in the Dark Arts.

To me you always remained Sev, my first teacher in magic.

You meant the world to me and I foolishly thought the feeling was mutual. I feel so stupid to believe what you told me.

"Lily, you're my best friend- my only real friend".

You certainly have a funny way of showing it Severus. Forgive me if I'm mistaken, but I was under the impression that friends don't call friends mudbloods.

Your broke me in half that day, as any Gryffindor. In front of you I would never cry. I refused to give you that satisfaction.

But I sobbed. On the couch, curled up in a ball, all alone in the Gryffindor common room.

I was in a sever case of sock and denial. He had to convince me, tell me my nightmare was real.

It hurt both of us.

Do you know how bad I was? I let James Potter hold me. James fixed me.

"Everything will be alright Lily. I promise".

But in all truth I should thank you. Had you not torn down my defenses I wouldn't have let him in. If you didn't break me he wouldn't have fixed me.

I knew there wasn't enough room in my heart for both of you. No matter how much you pleaded with me we chose our paths. Two very different choices.

You chose your so-called 'friends'.

I chose James Potter.

My very first Harry Potter fanfiction. It was odd to write. The plot changed plenty of times before I settled on this. Originally, it was going to be James comforting Lily after the 'Snape's Worst Memory' scene. As you can see it did change somewhat.

Well no matter, I hope you enjoyed it, and that it was somewhat ok for a first HP fanfic.

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, Jo Rowling does.