Trent's POV

I didn't think it would happen. I never thought I'd ever do this kind of stuff to someone. Yeah, I've been mean. Rude. A douchebag. I guess I was cocky. I didn't think I'd make anyone go to these kinds of exremeties. Especially to a girl.

Jade Mitchel. A girl I knew nothing about. I've heard people talk about her. People say she was a bitch. Others say she's just a nice girl who's misunderstood. Alot of people talked about how she would hurt herself on purpose. Even tried killing herself a few times. She was outcasted by absolutely everyone.

...I am such an asshole.

Flashback

A black haired girl walked past Trent as he smoked outside the school building.

"Heard you tried to do yourself in." Trent said with a smirk to the girl.

The girl timidly took one glance at him and looked back at the ground.

"Euagh..that fat face. You should have killed yourself. Nobody wants an ugly chick!" The blonde boy laughed at his own wisecrack.

"That's not true!" Jade protested. "I am beautiful on the inside! You have no right to call me names! You don't know me!"

Trent blew smoke in her face and laughed harder. "Get real, chick. In this world, you're nothin' if you're not hot. Duh!"

"You are a jerk! A shallow, ignorant, ill mannered, bully!" Jade said with tears forming in her eyes.

"HAHA! You're only offened if you're an ugly bitch! Go kill yourself, bitch!" Trent cackled. He laughed so loudly and so rudely people were starting to stare.

Jade's brown eyes spilt tears. She was so humiliated. How dare this loser make fun of her in public?

Trent's POV

Jade commited suicide. I'm such a loser! A girl is dead...and it's all my fault. Such a fucking LOSER!! I don't know why I said those things..I never meant them. I never meant to make Jade cry. She didn't do anything to me! That was actually my first time speaking to her! Where the hell do I get the right to say those stupid things I said?!

No girl..deserves to have that said to her. The fucking beauty standard is so high, girls like Jade, nice girls with low self esteem, are under alot of pressure. I was the straw that broke the cammel's back. I can't believe I said that!!

I should have died. Not Jade.

I remember it clearly. I was in the boy's dorm playing cards with some friends when it came on the intercom. Miss Davers saying: "Attention Bullworth students and staff. It is with great sadness and grief that I report, one of our students is no longer with us. Jade Mitchel has died last night from a gunshot through her chest. It was suicide. The funeral will be next friday. All are welcomed."

I know what you're thinking. "It was probably something else that triggered it." It doesn't matter. The last words I said to her were "Go kill yourself, bitch."

I went to her funeral with a single red rose. I know right? Trent Northwick? Big mean scary Trent? Never! I'm suprised myself. However this was something I never thought I'd be dealing with. I neve thought I was the one that sparked a girl's suicide.

That..is a heavy weight to carry on your shoulders. Knowing that an innocent girl that could have been anyone. Your sister. Your best friend. Or You. Now she's gone. All for something stupid?

The funeral home smelled of insence and burning candles. The requiem played in the background. Jade's family stood beside me. Not knowing who I was or what I've done.

She looked really pretty in her white casket. Her hair and make up was done and she was in a white dress. I put the rose in the casket and said a little prayer for her. May her journey to heaven be safe. May she finally find the peace she always longed for.

I do know one thing.

My bullying days are over...