a/n. hello!

this is to infinity and beyond the sequel to under that tn. sky

it takes place four months after under that tn. sky which y'all should read first.

I'm not sure when I'll be posting the next chapter but it should be soonish.

I hope y'all like it.

disclaimer: I own nothing. except for Tilly and the plot.

p.s. sorry for any mistakes I may have made. also there's some minor James/Lucy going on.

To infinity and beyond.

Tilly stood at her counter, her hand shaking and her heart racing.

She had two weeks to make the decision, she already quit her jobs at the school and the studio, but she couldn't make up her mind. If she did this it would mean she'd be going to California, L.A. to be exact and honestly she wasn't sure if that's what she wanted.

Well that was a lie that's exactly what she wanted, she wanted California because everything she ever wanted is in California.

She had dreamed of moving down there, work as a photographer and live on the beach, ever since she was a little girl.

When she was little her mother promised to take her to California and then it was supposed to be her twelfth birthday present. It was all planned out, they would fly out of Nashville two days after Christmas/her birthday, spend New Year's there and then come back home.

But then with everything that had happened dreams of California were tucked away safe and sound and thought of again, that was until she got the opportunity of a life time.

But then Kendall came and everything changed. Because she's in love with him and he's all the way on the other side of the damn country.

She feels like everything is on the other side of the country; Kendall, her first real friends, the job she's been dreaming of forever. It's all on the west coast.

Sometimes when it's two o'clock in the morning and she can't sleep so she goes outside and sits on the swing and sings that lullaby, she thinks she hates that he came into her life. Because if he didn't, her life would be easier.

And then she realizes that if everything was easy life would be boring.

And plus her life has been anything but easy.

And she sits there by herself on that empty porch swing, surrounded by her large empty house that's surrounded by a large empty forest and she screams as loud as she can telling easy to just fuck it and she decides that all she wants is Kendall, she doesn't want easy.

She wants waiting for him to call her, no matter what time it is, she wants to hear his voice even if it's for a quick second during rehearsals. She wants the feeling she gets when his green eyes are looking at her, especially while she screams out his name, like she's the only thing in the world.

She wants, needs, everything.

But that's not making her decision any easier.

Her whole life is in Clarksville, her family, friends, work; everything she needs is here, well except for Kendall.

She always comes back to him.

She doesn't know if she can leave here, Jack and Lacy are here and so are her brothers, her parents graves are here and she's never been able to be away from them.

But honestly this is a once and life time chance and she wants to take it. But even living in a town where so much has happened, she still doesn't know if she could leave.

She hasn't even told Kendall yet, not knowing what would happen between the two if she were to chicken out.

Her hand begins to shake harder as tears threaten to fall.

She hate's what this whole thing is doing to her.

She wishes that she could just pack up and runaway. She's thought of it plenty, taking the money her parents saved for her and using it to just runaway from everything.

"You're gonna cut off your hand if you don't calm down"

"What?" Tilly looked over at her brother like he was an idiot, not understanding his warning. The older boy walked over and pulled the knife out of his sister's hands and turned her so she would look at him.

"Your hand, you're gonna hurt yourself if you don't calm down. What's wrong?"

"Nothing"

"Don't lay Tils"

"Colby I just don't know what to do."

"You're still thinking about the offer?"

"Yea"

"Take it. Tilly you've wanted this. This has been your dream your entire life. You are one of the best photographers I've ever seen. So just take the damn job. You deserve this." She had been offered the job of top photojournalist at an up and coming fashion magazine.

It's one of two things she wants in this life the most.

She was already to take the job, her mind made up and her signature on the contract but then the what if's flooded her mind.

"But my life is here"

"We both know California became your life the second you fell in love with Kendall."

"What if he doesn't really love me?" That was the biggest fear of hers. Even though they both knew they loved each other and have told each other, it scared the daylights out of Tilly that it might not actually love her. That he was only using her and he was still in love with Jo.

"A blind person can tell he loves you. The guy talked his producer into letting them come to Memphis just to see you. " Tilly smiled at the memory. It had only been a little over two months since the two had met and Kendall talked Gustavo into adding Memphis to the small list of mall dates they were doing, just to see Matilda.

Tilly could barely contain herself on three hour drive up to Memphis. Her heart had been hurting for the last two months and all she wanted to do was to wrap her arms around Kendall and stay there as long as possible.

They only got five hours with each other after the unexpected performance, but five hours was all the two needed.

As soon as the last song ended, Kendall found Tilly and quickly took her back to his small hotel room.

Kendall didn't want to rush anything and push Matilda into something she was ready for, but as soon as that door was closed Kendall was on the bed shirtless and Tilly was situated across his lap, kissing him with fire that left him intoxicated and gently but roughly rocking her hips over his own.

In no time they were both under the sheets, Kendall thrusting into her at a steady pace as Tilly ran her hands up and down his back, matching his thrusts, and occasionally pressing her nails into his back, leaving red angry lines, that weren't going anywhere anytime soon.

He pulled her closer and started moving faster until they both came gasping each other's name.

After they were finished Kendall held Tilly close as they talked about what had been going on in their lives and just enjoying the only few hours they would have together for god knows how long.

"See your thinking about him."

"I am." She smiled softly at the memory of their first time together, quickly tearing herself from her thoughts she turned back to her brother, looking at him with sad eyes.

"But Colby mom and dad are here, you guys are here and my girls, I can't leave them without a coach. My parent's graves are here." She knew Jack and Lacy and brothers and anything else would be fine without her, the only thing that was stopping her is the thought of leaving behind her parents.

"Mom and dad will be fine without you, so will we and the gym can find a new coach. And I'm certain that your mother will haunt you from her grave if you give up this job because you're scared."

"I'm not scared." She wanted to take that statement back and tell her older brother just how scared she actually is, but being the headstrong girl she is she just kept her pretty little mouth shut and looked anywhere but at Colby.

"Bullshit." He shot at her, looking at her in disbelief. Matilda always pretended not to be scared of anything, but she was just lying to herself. "You are so scared that you're not perfect. You don't have to be Tilly. That woman chose you because she knows how amazing you are and Kendall you do not have to be perfect for that man. He loves you for you."

"I need to think about it." He rolled his eyes and pulled his sister into a tight hug and spoke into her hair.

"I already know you quit your job at the studio and you they're already looking for a new photography teacher and cheer coach who's willing to start as soon as spring break is over, which is in a little more than two weeks. We both know you made your decision."

"Maybe"

"Maybe you need to talk to Kendall and tell him your fears. Even though I know what he'll say. Tilly he will tell you exactly what I'm trying to get through your thick head, just take the job and go be with him. All of us here will be just fine. Just be happy."

"Ok ok and how exactly did you know I quit?"

"I know everything"

"You're a creepy person" She laughed out as she opened her laptop and began searching for a plane ticket.

"What are you doing?"

"Looking for a plane ticket"

"You're flying out there? Now?"

"You just told me to talk to him"

"I meant on a phone, you know that black, flat thing that constantly stuck to whenever you to have a spare second."

"Well you should be more specific and I really think going to see him would be better. I need to see him Colby. And maybe seeing him and getting that reinsurance would make this a whole hell a lot better."

"I know I'm not going to be able to talk you out of this. So when are you gonna leave"

"As soon as I can get a damn ticket" Banging of keys were heard as she searched for a ticket and then carving block was thrown in frustration.

"What is your problem woman?"

"The airlines are on strike, all of them are on strike." She shrieked.

"What are you going to do?"

"I don't really know" Tilly groaned and slammed her hands on her counter, she knew seeing him would make her feel better. But now the world was out to stop that.

"Maybe in a few days the strike will be over and you can get a flight out."

"I don't, I can't wait that long… I'll drive."

"What?"

"I'll just drive."

"Matilda that's a two day drive at the least"

"I don't care, it's worth it. Kendall's worth it."

"You're insane."

"I've been told."

"I really don't think this is a good idea."

"I'll be fine Colby. You really don't need to worry about me"

"Oh but I do."

"Look I'm doing this, because if I don't I'll talk myself out it and then I'll just get more scared and end up ruining my and Kendall's relationship. Is that what you want Colby?"

"You are too bullheaded for your own good."

"It's part of my charm. I need this."

"I know. But if anything goes wrong I am kicking someone's ass. Even if has to be yours."

With that she was off to pack her things, finally ignoring the hesitation and fear she felt.

…

Two and a half days later Tilly finally made it to L.A.

She had a brief panic attack in Texas where she had decided to turn back and then it was like she had an angle somewhere and Kendall had called. It was only for a few minutes, but even though he didn't know she was coming, he gave her the reassurance she needed.

She found a hotel to freshen up and calm her recurring nerves. As soon as she was ready she was gone and driving down the highway only to realize she had no clue where her love lived.

She pulled over and dialed Carlos and Logan, not reaching either, she finally got a hold of James. After telling him what was up she had an address and she was once on her way.

Lucy Stone watched in high annoyance as her boy friend's best friend banged and cursed around the living room looking for the cigarettes and his car keys that dark haired girl had stolen and hid.

"Kendall knock it off."

"Babe just calm down" James pulled Lucy closer to him, smiling when she let him hold her.

"I will when he does."

"It's not my fault people took my shit." Lucy understands what he's going through. She hates it when she and James aren't together, it took her to long to realize her feelings for him and she doesn't want to be away from him for longer than necessary. But seriously he needs to calm down.

That's why when she found out that Tilly was on her way, she was way more excited than probably needed.

It wasn't only her though; James, Logan and Carlos were starting to get fed up with the way Kendall was acting.

"I swear she better get here soon or I will kill him James. I promise you" She spoke softly to her boyfriend. He agreed and watched along with two other best friends as the blond leader continued stomping around.

Kendall was being unreasonable with all the yelling and pushing things around.

But things have been irking him a lot easier lately. Gustavo had them in the studio a lot more; they were planning on another tour and working on another album. Along with that he had been on the ice a lot more trying to get his skills back.

And he hasn't seen Tilly ever since Memphis which was over two months, so he's been a little pissy lately. Sure they've talked and skyped, but it's not quite the same as holding her in his arms and just being with her.

So to cope with not seeing her, he's taken up smoking, to the displeasure of his brothers and Lucy and Gustavo was not happy at all. Kendall was actually afraid of the large man.

He just needed something to take away the lonely he felt and cigarettes were filling that void.

"Ok I know someone took them and I want it back. Or at least give me back my keys so I can go to the store."

"Not happening Kendall"

"You took them didn't you Lucy"

"I sure did"

"I knew it. Give them back."

"No. They're bad for you anyways"

"You smoke a pack a day. So you can't say anything" James frowned at this new revelation and Lucy shrugged and went back to arguing with Kendall.

"It's different"

"Hypocrite. Give them back"

"Not gonna happen"

"Fine just give me my keys"

"No you'll just go get more"

"That's the point."

"To bad"

"James make her give them back."

"I can't really make her do anything and she's right"

"But…" Kendall was interrupted by knocking at the door.

'KNOCK KNOCK'

"Give me my keys" He ignored it and continued grousing.

'KNOCK KNOCK'

"Get the door Kendall" Carlos said after a while of everyone just standing around.

"Give me my keys" Being the hardheaded person he was he stood his ground, letting the knocks at the door continue to be forgotten.

'KNOCK KNOCK'

"Get the door Kendall"

"No not until…"

'KNOCK KNOCK'

"Get the damn door Kendall" Lucy shouted, finally having enough of the four brothers arguing.

"Fine. I just need one fucking thing and I can't even get that. No it's just fuck with Ken…" His mumbling came to a screeching halt when he flung the heavy door opened.

His jaw dropped as he stared at the brunette beauty at his door step. An unnaturally large smile graced his lips and all anger and anxiety left him as the girl in front of him smiled her breathtaking smile.

"I was afraid I had the wrong address."

a/n. so? what did you think? review. please?