Guess this means you're sorry

You're standing at my door

Guess this means you take back

All you said before

Like how much you wanted

Anyone but me

Said you'd never come back

But here you are again

He's standing at my office door and after our fight last night, where he stormed out and told me he never wanted to see me again, he's the last person I want to see right now.

"Sandra, whether or not you want to see me I'm coming in." True to his word he's stormed in but I can imagine the look on his face as he realises I've turned my chair the other way. Now I'm not one for hiding but I trusted him, I allowed myself to love him because he promised me he'd always love me.

"What the hell are you playing at?!" He questions me as he walks round to face me. "I've obviously done something wrong as I woke up on the sofa and you were no where to be seen but you'd obviously slept in our bed." He's right about half of it at least. I did sleep in our bed but he put himself on the sofa, he left and I never heard him come in but when I came down this morning he was on the sofa.

"You actually haven't a clue do you?"

"No."

"It was my birthday yesterday and our 1 year anniversary, you promised me a great evening then walked in at midnight stinking of booze." His face has dropped as I tell him.

"Baby, I'm so sorry." He apologises as he tries to take my hand.

"No you're not though. You never even wanted me, that's clear from the amount of dates you've been on since UCOS started. You just felt sorry for me being on my own but you know what? I like being on my own. It's better than being with you." I don't know where any of that came from but it isn't true, I just want him to hurt like I do, I can't help the tears that are now falling from my eyes.

"Come here you stupid cow. You really think any of what you just said is true?" I've shaken my head in answer and not pulled away when he's gone to hold my hand again.

'Cause we belong together now

Forever united here somehow

Yeah you got a piece of me

And honestly

My life would suck without you

"Sandra I do love you and we've been over this before, I never thought I could have you. Yes I know we argue a fair bit but it's because we're both so stubborn, not a lack of love. Anyway most of the time everything's perfect. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone before. This is real."

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight

I know that I've got issues

But you're pretty messed up too

Either way I found out

I'm nothing without you

Last nights all flooding back to me as we lay in bed. The only noise accompanying my thoughts is the gentle snores escaping your mouth. I was wrong for coming in and saying that I'd had a fantastic night without you and I was definitely wrong for telling you it was over when you argued back. You must have known I wasn't serious or I wouldn't have even been on the sofa. This time thought I know I'm forgiven but I don't want there to be a next time. I know I've said it before but this time I mean it, best behaviour from now on.

Being with you is so dysfunctional

I really shouldn't miss you

But I can't let you go