So clearly i cant stay on tract. Anyone reading my other works... im sorry im so hopeless. I get writers block and get side tracked and since having the baby i struggle to find time to write anymore. But i always have excuses. =)
Anywho, this is my attempt to write a RedQueen fic, because i think the pairing is awesome and i havent been able to shake this one. All mistakes are my own.
I dont own any of these characters just the story =)
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After Emma and that foul pirate returned from the past in the Enchanted Forest Regina was left yet again with a massive feeling of loss. The ex-mayor had gone home just wanting to be alone to sort out her feelings only to realise that she didn't have many feelings to sort out.
Sure Regina had developed feelings for the outlaw who had apparently been destined to be her soul-mate But now she thought about it the feelings she had for Robin were a mere drop in the ocean compared to how she had felt for Daniel and even then Regina was beginning to wonder if that had been true love after all.
No what was keeping Regina awake was her shattered hope that she would get a happy ending in life. Was that not how this all started? An innocent young woman with a monster for a mother had her heart, damn near literally, ripped out. From there it was just a downward spiral, all the wrong influences forcing her make all the worst choices.
So late that night Regina found herself wandering around in the woods behind her home simply stumbling along in a half drunken state looking for she didn't know what. Was she looking for feelings? How ridiculous. She stopped at one point and actually checked to see if her heart was still in her chest. It was.
Regina was still stumbling around the forest an hour later, her half empty bottle of scotch long since dropped along the trail she imagined. Mumbling to herself Regina didn't hear the soft quick thuds of large paws on the leaf litter around her until she stopped startled by the hot breath on the back of her neck.
Spinning too quickly in her drunken state Regina stumbled and fell before being able to gather herself enough to look up at the huge black wolf that had been behind her. She opened her mouth and let out a shrill scream. Why? No one was there to hear her. The wolf seemed to wince from the pitch and stepped back shaking its shaggy head before lifting its muzzle and howling, the sound drowning the screams.
The once-queen stopped screaming and looked dazed at the wolf as its howl was long and drawn out but the sorrow in it seemed to sober the brunette considerably and she simply watched, rapt, as the large lupine head dropped down and fixed her with a dark sad but curious stare. Realisation finally hit Regina as she stared at the wolf. Ruby. Or was she going by Red these days. Where had she been?
"Ms Lucas?" Regina slurred the name but the perking of ears confirmed the drunk woman's suspicions.
"Where have you been? You kind of just vanished... I missed your legs." The last words drunkenly slipped from the dark red lips of one Regina Mills.
The wolf gave a tilt to the head and surprisingly amusement flashed in the bright yellow eyes but it was clear the inebriated former mayor was no longer in control of her senses. The wolf huffed but was surprised when Regina picked herself up and stumbled forward and strong arms wrapped around the wolf's neck.
Regina buried her face in deep soft fur and wept, not because of her feelings, but because she didn't feel. Not enough. It took Regina since Daniel was ripped from her to realise that her heart has never quite been in it. She had done such atrocious things in her past, because of logical suggestions and constant influences.
This is why Regina wept into the crook of one Red Riding Hoods neck, because out of all the feelings she didn't feel, she felt shame the most. She was utterly ashamed that she was acting on the will of others, so perfectly manipulated that it took her until this very moment to realise she had been a puppet albeit a somewhat willing one.
Sobering fast Regina couldn't help but be aware of strong arms lifting her from where she knelt on the ground, cradling her against a decidedly naked chest. How ever aware the former queen was, she was far from willing to push away from the woman who was clearly carrying her back towards the ex-mayors home. Distraught, she didn't care who took her anywhere.
A small part of Regina hoped that Red would simply take her to the nearest cliff and let her go, the suicidal thought unbidden but not completely unwelcome as Regina realised just how much of a monster she truly was. But the bigger part wanted to remain in the strong, yet gentle arms of the missing wolf, to simply feel another's warmth for a while, to be comforted the way she never had been.
"Sh, 'Gina, You're ok. Its ok." Red mumbled soothingly as she got closer to the mansion.
At this point it was clear to Regina that she was not at all feeling the affects of the large amount of alcohol she had consumed but not for a moment did she think of pulling away from Red and there was apparently no way she was going to stop crying any time soon.
Regina was vaguely aware of being carried in her front door and up her stairs, she mumbled directions to her room at some point though she couldn't remember that, and was soon deposited on the bed. Against Regina's protests Red pulled away from her only to stop and unbutton the blazer and shirt beneath it.
Red pushed the clothes off of the ex-mayors shoulders and dropped the items on the floor beside the bed before pushing Regina back on the bed. For the mayors part she did as suggested and lay back on her back a little surprised when she felt her heels removed and the zip on her skirt pulled down.
Without really thinking about it the queen lifted her hips and felt first her skirt and then her stockings quickly pulled down and off leaving Regina in nothing but black lacy bra and panties. Red glanced at the mostly naked form of Regina but only hesitated for a moment before scooping the queen up again and pulling the sheets on the bed back gently placing the ex-mayor in the bed again and pulling the sheets up.
Regina rolled onto her side under the sheets and couldn't help but stare at the entirely naked, lithe, woman currently tucking her in. Her breath caught in her throat and she bit her lip as she unashamedly checked the naked werewolf out. Red was hyper aware of the queen eye fucking her but she willed the blush not to creep to the surface as she stepped away from the bed.
"Red... Wont you stay?" Regina asked in such a small, unsure, voice that Red was wondering if that lust filled look a moment ago wasn't just her imagination.
"Regina, you're drunk. You will wake up in the morning and roast me with a fireball the moment you realise i'm naked and in your bed." Red tries to argue but she already knows its futile.
"Please... hold me." Regina pleads softly and Red sighs softly before nodding once and sliding under the sheets Regina quickly holds up for her.
"Roll over 'Gina." Red orders gently wrapping her arms around the queen the moment she complies.
"Thank you." Regina mumbles her voice taking on a sleepy quality as she presses back into Red.
"Go to sleep." Red orders again her voice soft as she pulls the other brunette close to her.
Regina smiles at the feeling of warmth seeping into her body and she knows that Red is the only person that could ever make her so warm. The lanky waitress was a werewolf after all. Beyond that though, Regina smiled because for the first time in a long time she felt comfortable around someone else. With this realisation she fell asleep with a tall beautiful werewolf wrapped around her body.
Much to her surprise Red felt utterly comfortable with her arms around the former queen, the revelation a little frightening. Shortly after she realised Regina was asleep Red pressed a little closer and marvelled at how perfectly Regina seemed to fit against her front. These musing slowly were cut short as Red herself found herself losing her battle against sleep.
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Red woke up to the feeling of the body still nestled against her front tensing and she immediately recalled the previous night. For a moment, though she remained relaxed and not really worried about the magic wielder in her arms, she worried she might just end up as a roasted pup.
"Red?" Came the surprisingly soft inquiry.
"'Gina. How are you feeling?" Red rasped gently in Regina's ear and was aware of the slight shudder running through the former mayors body.
"Like I got run over... twice." Regina mumbles as she lifts a hand to rub at her own face as if she can wipe away the hangover.
It was this action, how ever, that alerted both women to the long slender fingers curled around a black lace covered breast. Red made a small sound, reflexively squeezed the soft flesh once, before dropping her hand down to rest over Regina's stomach.
"Sorry. Chugging a bottle of scotch will do that too you." Red says and she can feel the blush in her cheeks due to her unintentional fondling on one Regina Mills.
"You couldn't have warned me before hand?" Regina griped like it was somehow actually Reds fault but the werewolf couldn't help the amused snort that it evoked.
"Sorry." Red says again though this time far less apologetically.
"My own fault." Regina says softly before rolling over in the waitress' arms and looking at her curiously.
Regina reached out and brushed the black hair from Reds face as she looked at her closely studying the youthful and friendly face in front of her. Regina leans up, before Red can really react, and kisses her on the cheek. Looking at Regina the werewolf could tell that she was trying to gouge out her reaction to the soft kiss. Regina is clearly surprised and relieved when a large grin breaks out on the slightly flushed face of the werewolf.
"Where have you been Red? You kind of just vanished." Regina asked after a moment of revelling in the grinning woman's beauty.
"Oh... well after the curse was broken... cast and then broken again. I was having trouble with control so granny told me to take off into the woods and figure myself out. I was kind of worried about being a danger again." Red opted for honesty as she gave a little shrug.
Idly, Red began to trail her fingernails up and down the smooth silky skin of Regina's back as she spoke but she didn't miss the goosebumps or shivers coming from the older woman. How long has it been that someone has simply touched this woman? Red frowned a little as she wondered this and she became a little annoyed at the thought that perhaps no one had ever been so tender with Regina. Though perhaps no one has been allowed.
"I think... that was my intention last night. I just wanted to leave and forget about this stupid town and those stupid curses and my stupid selfish vendettas." Regina spoke of herself reproachfully and it made Reds insides knot.
"Its not easy Regina. To just leave. It doesn't help as much as you think it might. That kind of space is dangerous in itself." Red explains softly her fingers not faltering in their random wanderings over Regina back.
"Why is that Red?" The former queen asks softly her eyes a little dark, the fingers trailing her back evoking a serious feeling of unwanted arousal.
"Because when your only company is yourself, you cant ignore the truth. I killed Peter, he was my first love and I murdered him... ate him. True, it was not entirely my fault, if I was aware... well anyway You cant run from yourself." Red admitted the pain in her eyes only amplified by the pain in her voice.
"We cant escape our pasts. But can we change our futures?" Regina asks curiously her own tone taking on a sad note.
"If we cant, who can?" Red counters but the comment brings a smile to the older woman's lips.
"Thank you Red, for finding me last night, and for staying." Regina says after a few moments of just staring at the waitress.
"You are more than welcome 'Gina. We are not so different after all." Reds smile was blinding but like a moth to the flame Regina couldn't make herself look away.
"Oh?" Regina inquires mildly distracted as the fingers on her back dip exhilaratingly low along her spine.
"Yeah. At least for a little while, your curse was a good thing for both of us. You got your revenge on Snow, and I didn't have to be an uncontrollable killing machine once a month." Red shrugged one shoulder as she she smiled and spoke.
Regina opened her mouth to speak but was interrupted by a loud knocking on the front door. Knocking? Banging. Frowning Regina sat up, the movement causing Reds hand to move around into her lap and both women blushed slightly before Regina grabbed said hand and sat it on the bed.
"Put on some of my clothes and stay for... lunch?" Regina asked the werewolf as she slid out of bed and moved to the door slipping on her black silk robe.
Red watched the way Regina moved and she could certainly appreciate the grace with which the older woman moved. Red nodded and smiled when she realised Regina was waiting for a response but once it was given the queen slipped out the door.
After stretching out her limbs Red slid from beneath the covers and went to the former mayors dressers looking through until she found a pair of black slacks and a tank top. Wrinkling her nose at her lack of available underwear the werewolf slipped on the clothes and moved out of the bedroom heading downstairs.
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"Regina! You're ok." Robin stated with a relieved sigh as the former queen opened the door.
"How observant Robin. What are you doing here?" Regina asked with a sigh as she was far too hung over to deal with the man.
"No one had seen or heard from you since last night after the saviour returned. Snow and Emma both have tried calling you. David stopped by this morning but you didn't answer the door." Robins tone had turned a little whiny.
"Did it not occur to anyone that perhaps I just wanted some time away from everyone?" Regina asked frustratedly just as Red came down the stairs and into view of Robin.
"Away from everyone? Who is this then?" Robin asked casting a reproachful look in Reds direction.
"Not that it is any of your business, this is Red." Regina looked over her shoulder and smiled genuinely at the taller woman.
"None of my business? You've been unreachable for more than 12 hours. What so you could spend some time with this... whore?" Robins tone had quickly become aggressive and Regina didn't fail to notice the waitress stiffen from the word the outlaw chose.
Without thinking about it at all Regina reached out and slapped Robin hard across the face before getting into his face.
"How dare you! First off, Red is not a whore, she is a friend. Secondly, you have absolutely no right to be here making assumptions about me. Tell me Robin, does Marion even know where you are?" Regina asked the question in an icy tone that had the man stepping back.
Not giving Regina a chance to get even more worked Red stepped forward and wrapped an arm around the shorter woman's waist gently tugging her back against her and into the house. Red didn't fail to notice the look Robin cast at her the moment her arm snaked around Regina.
"Thanks guy, if you could just let everyone know that the evil queen hasn't gone off the rails and isn't enacting another curse that would be great. Bye now." Reds tone held disdain as she spoke but before Robin could respond she slammed the door in his face, only then letting Regina go.
Regina glared at the door for a long moment before turning to Red with sad eyes and looking at the tall and obviously ruffled werewolf. Regina stepped closer to the waitress and placed a gentle hand on the other woman's arm before speaking.
"I'm sorry for what he said. He had no right." Regina says gently.
"It doesn't matter. He isn't the first to think it. You have." Red says with a shrug trying to mask the hurt but she can tell by the look Regina gives her that she failed.
"Yes... and I will be the first to apologise. I had no right to judge you, especially knowing what you were back in the Enchanted Forest. You're a beautiful confident wolf and that is how the wolf in you shone through. I was cruel to you for no reason." Regina was being honest and it felt liberating for the former queen but a large part of her was hurting for the werewolf.
Red stared at Regina for a long time wondering if she could see any kind dishonesty in the dark eyes before her but, pleasantly, she could see nothing but remorse shining back at her. Unable to stifle it another bright smile appeared on the werewolf's face and she moved forward into Regina and gave her a tight hug.
"Why do I feel so comfortable with you wolf?" Regina asked seriously though her tone is gentle as her arms come up and wrap around Red to return the hug.
"Whorish charms. I mean wolfish. Wolfish charms." Red says playfully and Regina surprises herself when she laughs at the waitresses comment.
But Regina is again interrupted as, as she is about to speak, there is yet another knock at the door. Annoyance quickly replaces all joy on the former queens face as she steps away from Red and clicks her fingers, conjuring a fireball in her hand before pulling the door open.
"I didn't take you for an idiot Robin..." Regina's voice trails off as she quickly realises it isn't Robin but instead is one Snow White and baby Neal.
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Red grumbles something that Regina doesn't quite catch as Snow Whites face lights up at the sight of her best friend and Regina quickly extinguishes the fireball just as Snow thrusts a dozing baby Neal into her arms. Snow rushes past Regina and happily hugs the slightly frustrated looking werewolf, completely oblivious to how agitated the wolf has become.
"Ruby! Where have you been?" Snow asks excitedly and Red just smiles and shrugs her shoulders.
"Just around. Sorry I bailed on you Snow." Red says as she glances at Regina who is rocking the baby but staring at her intently.
"It doesn't matter! You're back now. Oh its so good to see you." Snow hugs the wolf again and Red gives Regina a pleading look.
"Yeah. Sure am." Red says when Regina gives her a helpless look.
"Say you will come and have lunch with us!" Snow says beaming happily at her friend.
"Sorry Snow, but Red has already promised the lunch hour to me." Regina jumps in finally and Snow gives the former mayor a curious look.
"Oh... really?" Snow asked incredulously.
"Oh yes. Regina is paying me for sex." Red says wrinkling her nose a little but otherwise looking serious.
"I beg your pardon?" Snow looks comically confused by the statement and Regina snorts her amusement.
"Oh, i'm sure you will hear about it eventually. Yes, i'm rebounding with Red... paying her a fair wage of course." Regina adds seriously and Snow looks absolutely shocked. Classic.
Red and Regina are playing a game but snow cant seem to grasp that and she simply stands there looking from one woman to the other her mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water and it takes all their restraint not to laugh at the comical sight before them. Finally a scowl crosses Snows brow and she glares from one woman to the other before settling on Regina.
"That's not funny." She says and both women burst out laughing yet somehow not managing to wake the sleeping prince.
"Sorry Snow, you are so gullible. But I did promise Regina I would have lunch with her." Red says smiling honestly at her friend.
"Oh, well that's ok. Maybe I can catch up with you later in the day, or tomorrow." Snow sounds hopeful and Red smiles though a little falsely.
"Yeah Sure thing Snow. 'Ill let you know." Red says and Snow smiles brightly before taking the baby boy from Regina.
"Thank you for stopping by Snow. Always a pleasure." Regina says a little sarcastically to the young mother.
"Bye now." Snow replies over her shoulder before walking, or maybe bouncing, down the path with the baby in her arms.
Regina sighs heavily and closes the door leaning back against it with her eyes closed before finally looking up at the waitress who was standing hardly a foot in front of her. A smile graced the former queens lips and Red wished she could see that more often. The werewolf couldn't help but return the smile with one of her own.