Thanksgiving.

Today is thanksgiving; it used to be a day that I hate most. I mean what's there to thank when you're all alone, hiding behind a façade?

But then that changed for me and I couldn't be more thankful.

Everyday was a pain before, hearing the gossips around school; all I wanted to do was shout at their face that nothing is true but I couldn't do that. I didn't have the courage and I was scared; scared that if I did; no one would bother to glance at me anymore.

I would be even more of loner. I would become an outcast.

I used to assure myself that it's okay.

Being admired is better than being bullied, being hated; which is quite true but the only thing is that I wasn't admired for being who I am. I was admired for being the fake person that I am.

I hated my shyness; hated how I'm not brave enough; hated how I'm misunderstood; hated how I scare away everybody; hated how I'm too unapproachable; hated how I was alone.

I was screaming on the inside; my heart felt weak from screaming so loud, so long and yet no one heard.

And then, everything changed.

I have a lot of things to be thankful about now.

My Shugo Charas for supporting me; for helping me be the 'me' that I'm supposed to be;

Tadase for speaking to me;

Rima and Nagihiko for being my best friends;

Yaya for being the one that always make every tense atmosphere into a happy one;

Kukai for helping me stay fit –not sure if I should thank him for this-;

Kairi for making me a smarter person;

Utau for always sticking up for me – though she was a big meanie before-;

Ikuto for being there for me;

Ami for being that innocent kid that brings me hope;

My parents for always being there to push me back up when I fall

And finally;

Saeki Noboku for everything I have now.

If it weren't for her, I wouldn't wish for the courage.

If I didn't wish for the courage, I wouldn't have Ran, Miki, Su and Dia.

If I didn't have my Shugo Charas, Tadase wouldn't have spoken to me.

If Tadase didn't spoke to me, I wouldn't have friends; I wouldn't have meet Ikuto and Utau.

And if that all didn't happen, I wouldn't be as close to my family now.

I would still be screaming as loud as ever, still alone, hiding behind my façade.

I still wouldn't have anything to thank.

Therefore, Saeki Noboku is my hero – not that I would admit it out loud-.

I decided to tell you so keep this a secret, okay?

Oh and one more thing;

If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have meet him, get married and have children.

I, Hinamori Amu am thankful for everything she has now and if she has the chance to go back and change something? She wouldn't want to; she's perfectly content with her life now.

Everything turned out okay in the end for me.

So don't lose hope because one day, everything will turn out okay for you too.

I promise.

; too early for thanksgiving. too tired to care.

;I think that Saeki Nobuki deserves more screentime like seriously. She plays such a huge role, anyone noticed that?