Finding love

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.

Pairing: / Harry

Rating: T

Summary:

Challenge: Phobia Challenge

Prompt: Atychiphobia, fear of failure.

Note: Poor story if you ask me.

"..." - Talking

'...' - Thinking

~...~ - Dream

Harry knew that everything in his life have to be expected after he entered the wizarding world and he couldn't be a failure: first, he had to defeat Voldemort: secondly, his grades had to be good enough to be auror, because he was their saviour and so on. And Harry also knew that he couldn't do all of expectation from wizarding people which if he failed them, they wouldn't accept him in their world and Harry didn't want to leave somewhere he felt he belonged .

First, Harry didn't want to be auror anymore after the war which he had enough of killing and capturing things, he want to be healer because he could save more other's life in that way. Second, Harry wasn't going to marry Ginny or dating her again like someone thought (-cough- Ron and Molly -cough-). He and Ginny had this discussion that he and her were nothing other than brother and sister, and Ginny admitted that she only admired not loved him which he was grateful that she admitted that, because he wouldn't know how to tell her that he liked boys more than girl(which he also didn't tell anyone except Hermione because she somehow knew about this and pestered him to affirm it.). Harry didn't knew he was gay until he had dreams about himself and someone whose strong arms wrapped around his wrist board shoulder and muscular chest that he leaned on which he was so sure was not female.

Right now he just wants to travel around the world or only stays anywhere far away from British wizarding world because every girls or their mother tries to get him marry them or their daughter (-cough-Romilda and Molly-cough-) but they can't get through Hermione and Ginny(he feels like he is celebrity with bodyguards) and because he stays in the room of requirement for sometimes now.

"Harry."

"Yes, Hermione?"

"After this school year is over, where are you going to live? and what are you going to do after that?"

"Grimmauld place I think. I wish to travel around the world but I can't even go anywhere outside this room without stalker. Only when everyone have class that I can go outside to study."

"Yes, that's really troublesome. Can't they just leave Harry alone? He can't even find peace not only that he can't even find love." irritated Ginny said.

"I don't know even also bother him with marry him with you. And I just see some boys stalk Harry as well but I don't know their intention."

"I talked to mum and she just say if Harry don't want to marry her, then he can marry one of my brothers"

"Your brothers? They're males. doesn't she know?" surprised Harry said.

"Yes, she knows. Don't worry, Harry. In wizarding world, same-sex marriage is common, so that is why you have some boys stalk you too."

"Oh" Hermione and Harry said. They looked each other then Hermione just nodded to Harry and Harry just stayed still.

"Ginny, I think that I like boys than girls.""Oh, I know that."

"What?" stunned Harry said while Hermione just said "Girl instinct."

"Yes. The girl instinct things, the way you look at me and I think you deserve someone who can protect you than you protect them."

He didn't ask why Hermione knew that he liked boys more than girls, now he know why. he knew that it's a good idea to not question someone's instinct especially girls.

"Then I don't fail their expectation yet. I mean that I like boys."

"Yes. Harry, do you contact gringgotts yet? maybe we can find something to help you with this situation."

"Like what?"

"Marriage contact or magical heritance." serious Hermione said "That's only two ways left, no one will bother you anymore because you have mate or spouse that you will marry someday and you can study each other too." After Hermione said that the silence surrounded the room.

After their meeting ended with Hermione's suggestion, Harry debated with himself for long time that he would forget dinner if dobby didn't bring dinner for him after Hermione said to him.

'send or not send' Harry thought. Sending to stop stalker problem if he had any of them or not sending and dealing the stalker problem by himself which he didn't know how and won't be disappoint if he found out that he didn't have any of them.

"Let's sleep. If I think anymore of these, I will have a headache for sure." Harry muttered to himself.

~ Dream ~

strong arms wrapped around his waist board shoulder and muscular chest that he always leaned on when he entered dreams. He always felt completed when he was be held by these arms, he felt that this man was the love of his life. When he entered into the dreams, he never saw his love's face, he felted that it's not the time or he turned to see his face, he would disappear and he would never dreams about him again.

~My love, what's wrong? Your eyebrows is frowning. ~ He rubbed the frowned eyebrows.

~It's just the stalker problem like always.~ He told him about this a few times.

~They still stalk you? What's about Ginny and Hermione? they don't guard you?~

~Yes, they still guard me but things get worse now that I have both boys and girls stalk me.~ Harry said in the matter-of-fact voice.

~Don't worry, baby. I'm going to take care of this.~ He's tighten his hold and kissed Harry's neck made Harry felt a little shiver.

~I don't fail you right?~ worried Harry said.

~No, you don't fail me anything. I really don't know why they still bother you, I mean that you don't show any interest in them and you have Hermione and Ginny as your bodyguard.~ He kissed Harry's temple.

~I don't know either.~

~I will take care of that when we wake up.~

~When I'm going to see you in the real world.~ Harry said in the hopeful voice.

~Soon,il mio amore .Soon.~

il mio amore means my love in Italian language.

AN: I don't know that it's still in the category of that phobia. I hope you guys like it.