A/N: So this is defiantly something I haven't done before, however, I just finished reading the novel A Separate Peace and it really touched my heart. So this is where it came from. I hope you like it. I really enjoyed writing it as I almost burst into tears~
I Believe You
I never would have thought that the last words I would ever hear him say was "I believe you."
The day Finny died, I felt a part of me die along with him. Finny shouldn't have died. He didn't deserve it and now that I think about it, no one really does, but Finny was one of those that shouldn't have died. I loved him too much – he shouldn't have left me behind – it wasn't right.
When Dr. Stanpole saw me in the hallway and told me what had happened to Finny, I felt cold. My whole world shattered before me, and I fell into an endless pit of darkness.
I still lay awake at night wondering what could have been and what would have happened had he survived. I close my eyes and I see his bright blue eyes staring right back at me. Finny's eyes were always filled with adventure and curiosity. And I still see him like that. In my mind, Finny is full of life and happiness – nothing more. And in my mind, Finny is still alive.
Sometimes, when I go to his grave, I just stare at his name blindly and I can almost hear his voice, telling me to stop brooding about and be a man. I see splotches all the time and my eyes water whenever I think of him, but the thing is, I can never cry. What would Finny think, if I just broke down and burst into never ending tears anyways?
He believed me.
Oh God, he believed me.
And I feel like I let him down.
The last time I saw him; he gave me a sad smile and had tears swelling in his now-dull blue eyes. He was like me, I couldn't cry or maybe he just wouldn't, but then again, Finny was always stronger than me. Did he know he would be leaving me that day? Did he know he was going to die and that he would be leaving me forever? I don't know and to be honest, I think I'm scared to know.
The day Finny died a part of me died along with him and I don't think I've ever been the same since.
I can never forget Phineas. He was everything in my life. He made my life worth living. He made it exciting and he made me who I am now. I can't ever forget Finny, because when Finny left me, I took a part of him as he took a part of me.
I love Finny and I always have and always will.
And in the very end, he believed me.