Dear Brittany
I have been thinking about this for weeks, maybe even months. Trying to find the right words and even the right time to say them. It's so hard for me because I'm not sure how you will take them, how you will react. But I have to find a way of telling you how I feel, tell you what is going through my mind at the moment. I am so sorry I am putting this in a letter but telling you my true feelings is sometimes so hard. Just looking into your eyes as I speak can make my heart swell and break. So please forgive me for doing it this way, but please understand the reasons why.
Brittany, for years we have been the closest of friends, been there for each other through thick and thin and beyond. I don't know exactly when my feeling for you changed…..no that's a lie. My feelings for you never changed. In all honesty I think I loved you from the moment I saw you. So sweet, so innocent, all I had ever dreamed of but could never admit to wanting.
Being honest with you about my love for you was so hard and scared me so much. But I don't know why I ever needed to worry. You were my best friend and I knew deep down you would always be there for me and love me one way or another.
The first time you told me you loved me was…my god Brittany it was the best day of my life. I looked into your eyes and saw my life, my future and I knew then that it was right, me and you were right. We were together, best friends and girlfriends and I never wanted anything to change.
But lately, Brittany, lately something has changed in me. I don't know when it happened or how it happened but it did. I'm not even sure I can explain it, not even sure at the moment that I want to. And I guess that's why I'm writing you this letter. I can't speak these words I can only sit and write them because I have to get them out. Speaking them is too hard, just thinking them makes me want to weep.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I want more, I need more then what we have now. School is over, glee is over and now I need more from life. I need to take the next step to being a grown up. BLAH a grown up, god that sounds wanky doesn't it but it's what I want. I need to move on, make life changing decisions that will have untold effects on our lives.
Oh god I don't even know what else to say Brittany. All my words have gone and my brain has gone blank. I guess I need to finish this letter now and just say one more thing…
Turn around…
"Brittany Pierce, will you marry me?"