Prologue

Sasuke couldn't believe what he was hearing he thought for sure these guys were crazy. To begin with he had never even heard of the Higher Ups little lone go on a mission for them. When he was brought to Tsunade's office when he walked in he saw these two men, Kakashi and Tsunade. Tsunade almost looked proud same with Kakashi that was until they actually found out what the mission was going to be. Oh they told him the mission alright but not before Kakashi had to explain that the Higher Ups were a secret organization that was ruled the same as the village. There was a leader and he had other ninja ranked underneath him. Though instead of normal ninja rankings they had numbers the closer to one being the leader you are the more authority and power you have. The Higher Up himself mister number one also out ranked all the other village leaders. Apparently this organization was put in place after the first ninja war to try and prevent another one from happening. It didn't work but it has so far since the second ninja war to keep the villages in some form of normalcy towards each other. Sure there were still enemies but that was part of life. The ninjas that were picked to join the rankings of the Higher Ups were from all over the world they were to be the best of the best. Some were in the organization for their ninja skills, some for their mind and others for unique reasons that made them stand out.

So it's supposed to be this huge honor to actually be invited to go on a mission for the Higher Ups. Given any other circumstances Sasuke was sure it would have been but this mission wasn't one he wanted to go on. Judging by how Tsunade and Kakashi have both been arguing with the two Higher Ups, which through arguments Sasuke had learned that the one was fifteenth and the other was seventeenth from the top. These four adults had been at each other's throats arguing for almost fifteen minutes now and they didn't seem like they were going to just let up any time soon. Though Sasuke was fairly certain he really doesn't get a say in whether he can accept or decline the mission the Higher Ups didn't seem too bothered to pull rank they just let the argument continue. Maybe they wanted Kakashi and Tsunade to vent out their anger so they could move on or these two agents, as they called themselves, felt that sending in a thirteen year old boy into the den of a psychotic pedophile was really the best idea.

The psychotic pedophile also known as Orochimaru was supposed to be his mission. Apparently these two genius agents felt that it would be the best opportunity to destroy the Sound with Orochimaru's new interest in Sasuke. The mission was for Sasuke to go to the Sound for two in a half to three years really it all depended on how strong he got. He was to get all the information that he could on Orochimaru and his labs and then kill him. The best part was that no one but those in the room in this current moment can know he is on this top secret mission, not until he comes back anyways. He would be completely on his own for this if he needed help he didn't have any. If things took a turn for the worse he was stuck on his own to try and survive and make it out alive. Konoha's opinion and by Konoha it really was just Kakashi and Tsunade's opinion the mission was too dangerous for Sasuke to be in the Sound when Orochimaru wanted him for his next body. Though according to the agents that's why he was perfect, because it would mean that another war wouldn't be started by Konoha and the Sound. Finally Sasuke couldn't listen to it anymore so he decided to say something for the first time since the mission was brought up.

"Can you protect me from him?" the question was directed towards Kakashi.

"What?"

"Orochimaru are you strong enough to beat him can you protect me from him?"

Kakashi couldn't help but be taken back by the question. It wasn't like Sasuke to ever ask for protection or even bring it up. He always stood by that he didn't need protection from someone that he could take care of himself. That one question alone let Kakashi knew that Sasuke truly did understand the seriousness of this situation.

"I'm not strong enough to kill him no in a fight he would kill me."

Kakashi hated to admit it but he knew he couldn't lie to Sasuke in that moment even if he did he doubted that Sasuke would have believed him.

"So it's not really a matter of if he gets me it's when he gets me. "

"Sasuke Konoha won't just abandon you we can figure out a way to defeat Orochimaru." Tsunade said trying her best to sound convincing hoping that that would be enough for the young ninja. The problem was Sasuke was smart too smart for his own good and age.

"Is there someone in Konoha that can defeat Orochimaru? He killed the third so I'd imagine the ninja that could beat him in Konoha are very few. I mean no disrespect but can you even beat him?"

"He was my teammate at one point in time but to make a long story short I'm not sure if I am stronger then he is."

"So then my point still stands if he wants me he will get me it's just a matter of when. So tell me honestly what would be better waiting around for him to capture me or go willingly?"

This time his question was directed towards the agents for he knew that Kakashi and Tsunade would try and talk him out of it and sugar coat what he was in for either way. Mister number fifteen spoke.

"If you were captured he would have you in a cell where you will be tortured until it was time for him to take your body over. If you leave willingly you will be put through some tests to prove your loyalty. He will most likely torture you for a few days to make sure he puts fear into you so you don't disobey him. Once you pass that first week though he will train you to make you stronger. So you could either be tortured for three years straight or go through a week of pain to be trained for three years or so."

"He's too young he won't be able to handle the kind of torture and tests that Orochimaru would put him through. He doesn't even know how to kill someone nor has he ever had to." Kakashi said he was desperately trying to get Sasuke out of this. To get these men to change their minds though he knew it was pointless.

"The decision has already been made by the Higher Up himself Uchiha Sasuke will be doing this mission." Agent seventeen said

"Give me two days then. Two days to train him in a few areas that will help him survive. All I'm asking for is two days that could be the difference in him dying or surviving this mission." Kakashi was very close to begging but he didn't care he needed to teach Sasuke a couple of things before he went off to the Sound.

"Very well before dawn on the second day he needs to be leaving Konoha. I suggest you teach him how to kill Orochimaru will not hold back he will expect him to be emotionless, and cold hearted he can not hesitate to kill when ordered." Agent fifteen spoke.

Sasuke was really starting to hate how they were talking about him like he wasn't even standing there. Never the less he kept his mouth shut and waited for this conversation to be over. He really didn't want to kill more so than normal. He was sure it had everything to do with not wanting to turn out like his brother. Though if he was given the choice in battle between his life and his opponents he would choose his so maybe learning how to kill effectively wasn't that bad of an idea. Sasuke was so lost in his thoughts he didn't snap out of them until a puff of smoke appeared signalling the two agents had left. Now it was just Sasuke, Kakashi and Tsunade left to figure things out. Sasuke knew they were going to try and comfort him tell him how he would make it and everything would be alright. In reality though, Sasuke knew that everything wasn't going to be alright. He knew that he wouldn't come back the same that things on this mission that he did and saw would change him and maybe not for the better.

"Sasuke listen to me…"

"Don't."

Sasuke cut off Kakashi before he could say anymore and for the first time since this conversation had even started Sasuke looked Kakashi directly in the eyes.

"Don't tell me a bunch of lies about how it will all be okay. Don't tell me that time will go by quick. Don't tell me that I will come back alive and well and this won't affect me. Don't lie to me you never have before so please don't start now. Just teach me how to survive for the next three years and if I end up making it and coming back you can lie to me then."

Sasuke's voice was soft but it was full of determination. It was clear on his calm face that he really didn't want to do this but he understood all too well that he didn't have the choice. Both Kakashi and Tsunade couldn't help but feel incredibly proud of him.

"Let's go then to the training field and I'll teach you the easiest and quickest way to kill."

With that both Kakashi and Sasuke left Tsunade's office to head down to the training grounds. Kakashi had spent nine hours training him on killing methods and vital spots on the human body to aim for to make it quick and easy. After nine hours Sasuke knew everything that Kakashi did about killing someone. It was late at night when Kakashi left Sasuke at his place before heading home himself. He had told Sasuke to rest up that tomorrow night around nine to come to his apartment that he should make sure he was all packed up and ready to leave. When asked why Kakashi simply told him he had one more lesson that he needed to learn. Sasuke just simply trusted Kakashi and said ok and headed off to bed though Kakashi didn't. He spent a few hours wandering around Konoha just thinking about how to go about this lesson tomorrow. He didn't want to hurt Sasuke but he knew if he didn't teach him this if he didn't mentally prepare him for this then Orochimaru would destroy his mind when he did it to him. Kakashi couldn't stand the thought of that snake anywhere near Sasuke little lone hurting him in that way. Finally Kakashi went home and turned in though nine that following night really did come far too quickly for both Sasuke and Kakashi.

Sasuke knocked on the door and waited for Kakashi to answer. He really wasn't sure what Kakashi wanted to teach him especially this late at night but he wasn't going to argue. Kakashi had said it was important and it would be keen in his survival, so Sasuke trusted him and did as he was told. He had his pack all set to go so after this he could leave Konoha before dawn like he was ordered to. Kakashi came to the door and let Sasuke in he told Sasuke he could put his pack down and sit on the couch Sasuke did as he was told.

"What is it that you need to teach me Kakashi?"

Kakashi sat down on the couch as well he had been dreading this all day he truly didn't want to be the one to do this especially at Sasuke's age. However, given the choice between himself and Orochimaru he would pick himself every time.

"Sasuke remember yesterday when the agent was talking about torture?"

"Yes."

"Well there is more than one way to torture someone and I don't mean physically. Orochimaru will try to break you physically but also mentally and emotionally. I'm not too concerned about the physical part as I am with the mental and emotional part. There is an act that he can do that I'm honestly not sure if you'll be able to handle it. The easiest way to handle it would be to not fight against it and act like you know what you're doing even if you don't."

"I'm not really following you on this one what act could he possibly do that you think it would break me?"

Kakashi took a deep breath in and slowly let it out he knew this would be harder for Sasuke to grasp he was after al only thirteen. His mind didn't think this way he had no idea in regards to this topic.

"Sasuke Orochimaru will rape you partly to break you and the other part is because that's the type of person he is. He enjoys playing with little boys around your age."

Sasuke didn't say anything he was trying to get his mind around what Kakashi had just said. Finally after a few moments the only thing that came out of his mouth was "Oh"

Kakashi could tell that Sasuke was trying his best to wrap his mind around this. Kakashi could see if on Sasuke's face he was freaking out on the inside but trying not to show it. Kakashi was proud of Sasuke you could ask anyone and they would tell you that Sasuke was his pride and joy that he held a special spot in his heart for Sasuke.

"Why am I here Kakashi?"

"Like I said the best way to get through it mentally and emotionally is to know what's going to happen, and to go along with it. If you know what you are doing and have been through it before it's easier to convince your mind you want it."

"You asked me here to show me how to have sex."

It wasn't a question it was a statement Sasuke knew where Kakashi was going with this. He also knew he wasn't ready for this or even ready to entertain this idea. To be honest he didn't even know if he liked girls or guys he just didn't think about sex or things like that. Sasuke did know that he didn't want to do any of this but what Kakashi said made sense. It was going to happen regardless Orochimaru would rape him and he didn't know how well his mind would hold up against that. Not to mention his first time would be with him Orochimaru would make it hurt and knowing that it would hurt it would make Sasuke not want to do it with anyone else. If he turned out to be gay that would mean that he would never be with anyone again out of fear of the pain and memories.

"I know this is a lot to take in I really wish it didn't have to be like this. I don't want to do this anymore then you do."

"It's you or him right? I don't trust him but I do trust you."

That one sentence said it all Kakashi knew that Sasuke was on board with this that he understood what would happen if Orochimaru was his first. Kakashi had to teach Sasuke what to do but he wouldn't hurt him he would make sure that he would at least enjoy it on some level. Kakashi wasn't even sure how the hell he was going to get hard. Was Sasuke attractive of course he was had he been older by four or five years would he jump into bed with him in a heartbeat but currently he's thirteen. He's young and inexperienced and only doing this because it's better to do it with him then to go through it with Orochimaru.

"Ok just follow me and I'll tell you what to do when the time calls for it."

Kakashi pulled his mask down and turned to face Sasuke he was going to start off slow and work his way up hopefully easing Sasuke into this. Sasuke didn't even care in that moment that he was seeing Kakashi's face for the first time. He was too busy trying to get his heartbeat under control. He knew Kakashi didn't want to do this anymore than he did and him freaking out would only make this harder for Kakashi. Kakashi placed a hand on the back of Sasuke's neck and slowly moved him closer once close enough Kakashi placed his lips against Sasuke's. He could feel Sasuke tense up for a few seconds before he tried to relax. Kakashi gently rubbed his thumb against Sasuke's cheek to try and help him relax. After a few seconds Sasuke started to kiss back and follow Kakashi's lead. He felt Kakashi's tongue on his bottom lip asking for entrance and Sasuke gave it to him. It was weird at first to have someone else's tongue in his mouth but he quickly got use to it. He started to move his own tongue against Kakashi's and Sasuke found that just doing this just the kissing he didn't hate it. After a good fifteen minutes Kakashi pulled back they needed to move from the couch to the bedroom. Kakashi grabbed Sasuke's hand and guided him into his bedroom. Once there Sasuke's nerves picked back up again he knew being in here was going to be more than kissing. Kakashi moved him over to the bed and sat him down and Kakashi sat down beside him on the bed. He then pulled him into another kiss Kakashi was going to do this slowly they had plenty of time he wasn't going to rush this. After all this was Sasuke's first time and Kakashi was going to try his best to make this as positive as an experience as he could make it.

After a few minutes Kakashi pulled back to remove his shirt, mask and forehead protector. He then went back to kissing Sasuke before he removed Sasuke's shirt. Kakashi continued to kiss Sasuke as he ran his hands over his back and his chest. Sasuke was doing his best to ignore the nerves that were flooding his body. He followed Kakashi's movements and began to feel Kakashi's torso as well. Kakashi was thankful that Sasuke was a genius and could just go off of what he was doing. Kakashi slowly pushed Sasuke down on the bed so he was lying down on his back with Kakashi leaning over top of him. Sasuke was just trying his best to just relax and enjoy what was going on. He could feel Kakashi's hand going down his chest till he got to the waistband on his shorts. Kakashi moved his hand over Sasuke's clothed crouch and started to gently rub it Sasuke needed to know how it felt to be touched he knew Orochimaru would do it at any chance he got.

Kakashi moved from Sasuke's lips and started to kiss down his neck. Sasuke took this time to move his hands down Kakashi's chest to Kakashi's clothed crouch and started to rub him just like Kakashi was doing to him. They both could feel each other getting hard and Sasuke surprised Kakashi when he took the next step. Sasuke moved his hands to Kakashi's belt and started to undo it so he could get Kakashi's pants undone. Kakashi moved his attention back to Sasuke's mouth Kakashi had to admit knowing that Sasuke was turned on as well and his nerves were starting to fade made him feel a lot better. They both were going to enjoy this at least Sasuke would always remember how good sex with another man can feel. Sasuke slowly ventured his hand down Kakashi's pants and boxers as Kakashi did the same with him. Sasuke let out a small moan when Kakashi's hand touched his now hard member. This was all new to Sasuke but he found himself not afraid to touch Kakashi's member he found himself wanting to touch it. Kakashi thought his heart would stop when he heard the small moan that escaped Sasuke's lips. It had to of been the sexiest sound he had ever heard in his life.

Kakashi was trying his best to take it slow but he didn't know how long that would hold out if Sasuke made any more of those sounds. Kakashi moved Sasuke's shorts and boxers off from his body leaving the boy naked. Kakashi moved his mouth to Sasuke's ear and whispered.

"I'm going to show you something then you're going to do it."

Sasuke just gave a nod as Kakashi began to kiss his way down his neck and his chest. Once he got to Sasuke's member he ran his tongue along it causing Sasuke to let out a small moan once again. Kakashi took Sasuke's member in his mouth and began sucking it taking it more and more every time he moved his head down. Sasuke was biting his lip trying to hold back the sounds that were threatening to escape. He honestly didn't think it would feel this good sure he had touched himself before at night or in the morning he was a teenager after all. Never had it ever felt like this he couldn't believe how good Kakashi's mouth felt around his member. After a few more minutes Kakashi pulled his mouth off and stood up to take his pants off Sasuke knew that it meant it was his turn. Sasuke moved over closer to the edge of the bed so he was level with Kakashi's hard member. Sasuke began to trail kisses down Kakashi's stomach until he reached Kakashi's member. He then did what Kakashi did he started to lick all along Kakashi's member. When he got to the tip Sasuke licked it getting the taste of Kakashi's precum in his mouth the taste was bitter but sweet. Sasuke moved his mouth so he could take Kakashi's member in his mouth and slowly he edged his way down until the whole thing was in his mouth. For the first time Kakashi couldn't help but let out a moan. Sasuke began to work Kakashi's member with his mouth he rolled his tongue over the tip of his cock while he was working his mouth down to the base and back up. Kakashi's mind felt like it was going to explode Sasuke was a quick learner considering this was his first time he was doing a dam good job. Kakashi had to fight with himself not to put his hand in Sasuke's hair and fuck the hell out of his mouth.

After a few more minutes Kakashi spoke.

"Stop lay back on the bed."

Sasuke did as he was instructed and Kakashi reached into the drawer and pulled out the bottle of lube he kept there. He moved onto the bed so he was on top of Sasuke but made it so he was in between Sasuke's legs so they were open. He knew Orochimaru wouldn't prepare him but he couldn't just not do that. This was about showing Sasuke what to do and that it can feel good when done right.

"I need to prepare you it's going to feel weird but just relax if you tense up it will hurt worse."

Sasuke just gave a nod and Kakashi grabbed the lube and spread some onto three of his fingers. He leaned down and started to kiss Sasuke again as he inserted the first finger. Sasuke took a deep breath in as he felt Kakashi's finger going inside of him. It stung a little but he found that if he relaxed like Kakashi had said it helped a bit. With Kakashi kissing him it also worked to have his mind elsewhere. Kakashi slowly started to move his finger in and out of Sasuke before he inserted the second finger. Sasuke managed to keep in the whimper as he got use to the intrusion. Kakashi began to scissor him and search for that sweet spot that would send pleasure through Sasuke's body. Kakashi knew he found it when Sasuke let out a moan and his breath picked up. Kakashi made sure he kept hitting that spot as he inserted the third and final finger.

Once Kakashi felt like he was stretched enough to removed his fingers though the small whimper of disappointment didn't go unnoticed. Kakashi put lube on his cock and then positioned himself at Sasuke's entrance.

"Remember to relax it's still going to hurt for a little bit."

Sasuke gave a nod and took a deep breath in as Kakashi slowly pushed into Sasuke. Kakashi couldn't believe how tight Sasuke was even though he had spent a good fifteen minutes stretching him. It was taking every ounce of strength in him not to push right into him and pound the hell out of him. Slowly being careful not to cause Sasuke too much pain Kakashi pushed in until he was completely inside of him. Sasuke hand moved his hands to Kakashi's shoulders as he pushed into him. It hurt it wasn't unbearable but it did hurt. Kakashi waited a few moments so Sasuke could get use to the feeling he then slowly started to pull out of Sasuke part way then he slowly pushed it back in. he wanted Sasuke to loosen up and get use to the feeling Kakashi knew that it wasn't something that felt normal. He was also looking for Sasuke's sweet spot that would take his mind off the pain. Kakashi knew he hit it spot on when Sasuke let out a loud moan and his hands on Kakashi's shoulders tightened.

Kakashi began to move a little faster making sure he hit that spot each time. The sounds of Sasuke moaning was driving Kakashi crazy and soon he found himself pounding into Sasuke moaning and groaning just as much as Sasuke. When Kakashi was getting close he started to jerk Sasuke off so they could cum close together after a few moments Sasuke cam and a few more thrusts later so did Kakashi. After a few deep breaths Kakashi gently pulled out of Sasuke he rolled over so he was lying on his bed beside Sasuke.

Nether spoke for a good length of time finally Kakashi broke the silence.

"If we lay here any longer we're going to fall asleep. Why don't you take a shower and then you can get ready."

"Ok"

Sasuke slowly got up and made his way over to the bathroom where he could take a shower. He turned the water on so it was nice and hot he had a feeling that this would be the last hot shower he would have for a long time. The hot water on his skin felt good the shower also gave him time think about what happened. He had to admit he didn't hate it like he thought he would he actually enjoyed it. Maybe he did like guys over girls not that it really matter to him either way if he was gay then he was gay he couldn't change that. He wanted to have children one day but there was more than one way to do that. For right now he would just try and make it through the next three years. After a good half hour Sasuke got out of the shower and got dried off and changed. When he went out of the bathroom Kakashi was already in the living room sitting on the couch waiting for him. Sasuke knew that Kakashi would answer any questions that he might have had but in that moment he really didn't have anything to ask. He didn't want to leave but he knows he has to so he picks up his pack and looks at Kakashi.

"No questions?"

"No"

Kakashi got up and moved over so he was standing in front of Sasuke.

"Be safe take it one day at a time and most importantly come back alive."

"I will"

Kakashi didn't say anything more there wasn't anything he could say they both didn't want him going. Kakashi pulled Sasuke into a hug he couldn't help himself he didn't want to let this boy go but he knew he had to. After letting out a sigh Kakashi let Sasuke go and watched as he walked out of his apartment. That would be the last time he saw him for the next three years and when he finally did get to see him nothing would be able to prepare him for the new Sasuke that would walk back into his life.