This was something that has been brewing in my head since I finished the series. This is a VictorxFem!Yuuri fic that I'm proud to post. I hope you all enjoy this fic as much as I enjoyed writing it.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, this is only for shits and giggles.
"After the final, let's end this." Yuuri said, having thought this decision over multiple times since having Victor as her coach.
Victor's eyes widened, "What?" he asked, feeling like he's about to choke.
Yuuri was unable to look her idol in the eyes, "You've already done more than enough for me. My final season was my best one yet, and it's all because of you. I'm grateful to have had you as my coach." she said, bowing her head to her instructor whom she has known for eight months.
A teardrop falling onto Victor's foot made her look up to see the Russian's eyes swimming with tears that fell from his face. Guilt constricted her throat for being the cause of his tears since this is the first time she has ever seen him cry.
"I see, that's disappointing. I didn't expect this from you of all people, something so selfish." Victor said, feeling betrayed by the woman who not only inspire him, but made him fall in love with her in the process without even trying.
Yuuri felt her heart break into pieces at his words, but refused to let any of her tears show as she responded, "Selfish or not, it's my decision. I'm retiring." This made Victor's tears flow faster.
Yuuri reached up to Victor's hair to get a good look at his crystal eyes that shone with tears. "What are you looking at?" Victor asked, unable to move from his spot, from the woman he loves.
Yuuri swallowed quietly, "It's just...I'm surprised to see you cry." she said, after getting to know the Russian for so long, she has never once seen him shed a single tear.
"I'm mad okay, what should I do!" Victor lashed out, slapping Yuuri's hand away from him, feeling as though she was mocking him for showing sadness.
Yuuri was taken aback by this action, "You're the one who said it was only until the Grand Prix Final." she said, remembering his words and what would happen the moment he became her coach.
"I thought you'd eventually decide you wanted my help for longer than that." 'That you wanted me as well.' He added, unable to get the words out, feeling like his shattering heart is preventing him from saying what he desperately needs to say.
"It's okay, you don't need to worry about me." Yuuri tried to assure him, "This way, you can make your comeba-"
"Stop it, I don't want to hear it! How can you ask me to return to the ice when you're retiring?" Victor exclaimed, standing up and placing a hand on the other's shoulder, making her look up at him in surprise as the Russian continued to cry.
Unable to stand Victor's broken expression, Yuuri looked down, "It's my decision. After the final, I'll tell you." she said, trying to keep her voice from cracking and from breaking down in front of Victor.
Victor tightened his hold on her shoulders for a second, as though to keep her from ever leaving him before he released her, "Alright...until after the final." he said, eyes downcast as he moved away from Yuuri and left their hotel room.
When his footsteps finally faded, Yuuri finally let the tears she's been holding in escape her eyes. Her hand flew to her mouth as she began to cry, her entire body shaking from the anxiety and heartache she's been putting herself through.
Her eyes widened when her stomach suddenly started to churn. Keeping her mouth tightly shut, she sprung from the bed and made a mad dash to the bathroom, lurching the toilet seat up before releasing the contents of her stomach. Once it was over, she flushed the toilet and leaned against the side of the tub, taking in shuddering breaths in an attempt to calm herself down.
Her hand wandered to her belly, having known the source of her sudden sickness for some time. Gasping a hiccup, she sniffled as she curled into herself, "I'm sorry Victor." she said, hating herself for hurting the man she loves deeply and for being a coward for not telling him the real reason behind her decision.
The day of the finals finally came, and things were tense between Victor and Yuuri. Ever since that conversation at their hotel, things were mostly silent between them unless it was about her routine.
With Sara Crispino being the first to take the ice, this gave Yuuri some time to sort out her thoughts as she tried to stay calm for her upcoming routine that will decide her fate. Her eyes left the ice to see Victor standing off to the side, talking to his old coach, Yakov, probably telling the older man about what might happen after the final.
Yuuri's heart started to clench at the thought of this coming to an end, making her break out in sweat as heat rose up within her body. Needing to cool herself down, she left the rails of the rink and made her way to the restrooms at a steady pace. But the moment she got to the women's restroom, she suddenly felt nauseous, making a quick dash to the closest stall, she went in and quickly locked the door before kneeling in front of the toilet bowl and started to vomit.
Spitting the taste out of her mouth, she leaned against the stall's wall with a groan, feeling miserable and wanting to sink down into the earth.
"Yuuri?" a voice outside the stall called to her.
"Check back in later." Yuuri responded, not feeling in the mood to talk to anyone at the moment.
"Yuuri, it's me, Minako, are you doing okay?" Yuuri's ballet teacher urged, concern lacing her voice.
"Yeah." Yuuri said, not very convincing as she stood up, using the wall for support before flushing the toilet. Unlocking the stall door, she was met with Minako's worried face as the former leaned against the frame, her hand unconsciously ghosting to her abdomen.
"Oh god, please don't have the flu." Minako exclaimed, begging the figure skater not to be sick when she is just about to perform.
Yuuri shook her head, looking down silently as her hand rubbed her belly. It didn't take long for Minako to put two and two together as her eyes widened, "Oh god...please have the flu." she begged, only now wishing for the lesser of two evils.
Yuuri let out a dry laugh as she walked over to one of the sinks and leaned her hands against it, "Why is it called morning sickness when it hits you at every frickin' moment of the day?" she asked rhetorically before she sniffed, feeling like she's about to fall apart like last year, only worse.
"Have you told Victor?" Minako asked, receiving the shake of Yuuri's head as her answer. "At some point he's going to notice." the ballet instructor said, feeling that Yuuri's situation will only get worse the longer she stays silent.
"He's a champion figure skater. This would only hurt his career if he's forced to stay for the baby." Yuuri said, feeling a lump form at the back of her throat when that thought sprung forth.
"Then what are you going to do?" Minako asked, watching as Yuuri shook with anxiety and fear, "I don't know Minako, I'm really scared." she said, tears streaming down her cheeks as she turned her face to her life long friend.
Minako wrapped her arms around Yuuri who hugged her back as she started to cry, "Oh Yuuri, don't be scared, whatever you decide, we'll be right here for you. Your family and everyone will help you no matter what." Minako said, trying to reassure the distraught girl.
Pulling away from the young skater, "But Yuuri, you have to tell Victor, he deserves to know." Minako urged, holding the girl at arm's' length as the latter wiped at her eyes.
"I figured that...as long as he doesn't know, he won't have to give up doing what he loves, and that way, at least one of us can still keep doing what we love." Yuuri said, hiccupping as she tried to calm herself down.
Minako brushed away her tears with the pads of her thumbs, "He needs to know, Yuuri. Whatever he decides afterwards is completely his decision. Just tell him after the finals, he'll understand." she reassured the girl, hoping that the Russian will listen to his protege.
Yuuri nodded, taking a deep breath, feeling much calmer than how she felt earlier, "Okay, but only until after I win the medal." she said, becoming confidant again as she wiped away any remaining tears.
Minako smiled in encouragement as she clapped the girl on the back, "Thatta girl." she said as she led Yuuri out of the restroom and back towards the ice rink.
When they got there, Minako smiled at Yuuri one last time before going back to her seat in the audience. Yuuri took a deep breath again, her eyes scanning the skaters to find her coach until her eyes landed on the silver haired Russian who looked a little frantic, but was trying to hide it.
Making a beeline to her coach, she waved at him to get his attention, which worked the moment his blue eyes caught her figure making it's way towards him. No matter how many times he sees her, it will always feel like love at first sight, and he wants to keep watching her forever, on and off the ice. As she got closer, he couldn't help but notice how her face seemed to glow, as though it was illuminated somehow.
Once she stood in front of him, she attempted to smile up at him, for what might be the last time for her. "Yuuri, where did you go?" Victor asked, noticing the redness around her eyes, indicating that she was crying.
"I was in the restroom, and was talking to Minako. It was nothing important, I just needed a little time to myself before I go on." Yuuri said, hoping that Victor would believe her lie and that he won't ask anymore questions. She'll tell him face to face when it's all over, and how he'll react will determine the rest of her life.
Victor stayed silent for a moment, feeling that something was off with Yuuri, but didn't want to push it unless it would damage her performance. "Alright." he said with a nod before he held up Yuuri's skates and led her to a bench and started lacing her up.
Yuuri watch Victor as he tied her skates, she wanted to commit his facial features to memory, not from a poster, but as a person she has come to know and cherish in front of her. She didn't want to leave, and she didn't want him to leave her. But whatever happens after the final, she will hold him back from doing what he loved. So she will bear that pain on her own if it means Victor's happiness.
Tying the last lace, Victor looked up to meet Yuuri's gaze, there was a look of sadness, one that made his heart clench. He wanted to take her into his arms and hold her forever, to keep the sadness away from her and make her happy. But instead, he took her smaller hand into his and gave her a warm and loving smile; the smile that he reserves for Yuuri alone, "You can do it Yuuri, show them who you are and what you're made of." he said, giving her his confidence for what may as well be the last time.
Yuuri smiled at Victor, feeling determined to win the gold for him personally. The man who helped her get to where she wanted to be, and the man who she wished to skate with forever. Squeezing his hand back, she nodded before he helped her to her feet, guiding her to the rink as though it was their last goodbye.
Stepping onto the ice with only the divider separating them, Yuuri faced Victor and hugged him with all her might, uncaring to how people are looking at them. "I'll make you proud Victor, I promise, I'll get that medal." she whispered to him, feeling her heart hammer in her chest in anticipation for her routine.
Victor hugged her back with an equal amount of force, "I'm holding you to it. Give it your all out there." he whispered back, placing all his faith into her abilities as a fellow figure skater and source of his inspiration.
Pulling away, she grasped Victor's hand for a moment before giving him a nod, "I will." she said before letting go of Victor's hand and skating to her position on the ice.
Throughout her performance, she allowed her feeling and emotions to go out to Victor. With every glide, every jump and every gesture...her love for him showed, the love that motivated her to get to where she is and experience the happiness that came with being in love. She wants this experience to last forever, to be with him everyday no matter what. Whether on the ice or off the ice, she would cherish every moment of their time together, even after they say goodbye.
Victor never took his eyes off her for a second, never once blinking, refusing to miss a single moment of Yuuri's dance. With every move of her arms and legs as she glided across the ice, he felt the desire to dance with her, to keep her close and keep her as his ice princess. He loves her, truly he does, and he wants to be with her no matter what, even if it means giving up his career.
With the final note of the song, she struck her last pose, panting from the sheer effort and energy she put into this performance, just for Victor. The roaring applause broke her out of her reverie as she bowed to the audience, feeling sad and relieved that it was over. Turning to Victor who was clapping furiously, she saw tears streaming, making her own tears well up behind her eyes as she skated quickly over to her coach.
Opening his arms to Yuuri, he caught her in a hug filled with pride and love after watching her, "Beautiful." he said, both to her performance and to her in general.
Yuuri sniffed, feeling incredibly happy as she hugged him tighter, "Thank you." she whispered to him as he carried her off the ice and sat her down in front of the camera while her score was being tallied. She was utterly and completely surprised when her score beat Victor's record, the shock never left her before Victor pulled into another hug in congratulations.
After her time with the camera was over, they made their way to the box to watch the rest of the performances with the other skaters. Together they sat, basking in the other's presence as they watched the finalists skate their routines. Yuuri felt very tired from her performance, unconsciously leaning on Victor's shoulder as she felt herself starting to doze.
Victor looked down at Yuuri to see her starting to drift, no doubt feeling exhausted after the rollercoaster ride that this competition put her through. Not having the heart to wake her, he wrapped an arm around her, keeping her close to him while he still can.
When the final results were about to be announced, Victor woke her up quickly so that she won't miss the moment of truth. The second they announced Yuuri name at the top of the list, Victor practically spun her around, she won.
Standing on the podium with the gold medal hanging from her neck, she smiled at the audience, the camera, and most importantly, Victor. She owes him so much, he's the main reason why she was here today...and she'll start by telling him.
Stepping off the podium with the other winners, she made her way over to Victor who gave her yet another hug, "I am so proud of you." he said before pulling away and taking the gold medal in his hand, and kissed it as promised. "You truly became the Ice Queen out there." he said, winking at her.
Yuuri blushed at his statement, "I couldn't have done it without you." she said, grateful to the man in front of her who made all this possible.
Looking down, she smiled sadly, knowing that this is the end for them, "Can you and I talk in private?" she said, her voice filled with heartbreak and love.
Victor felt himself start to crack at those words...oh, how he hated those words. "Of course." he said before leading her to a private area behind the bleachers where they can talk.
Yuuri was unable to look him the eyes, the medal around her neck seems much heavier to her. "Victor..." she paused, unable to form the beginning of a sentence, taking a deep breath and letting it slowly, she opened her mouth, "There's something I haven't told you, something I've kept to myself for the last couple of days." she began, her skin feeling hot under her costume.
"Victor...I'm..." she had a hard time getting the last word out, "...I'm..." the moment she said it, it will all be over for him as a figure skater. "...I'm..." she tried again, but the final part of the sentence refused to come out.
Victor hands held her cheeks and made her look up into his concerned eyes, "Yuuri."
Yuuri was unable to look away from his eyes, her heart broke at the sight of them, knowing that this is the last time he'll ever look at her. Tears swam in her eyes as a tear fell down her cheek before Victor wiped them away with his thumb.
Unable to say the word and take the silence for much longer, Yuuri took his hand from her cheek and splayed his hand across her belly, letting him feel the life growing inside her. A confused look took his face, then shock, then surprise when he finally understood what she was trying to say.
"Y-Yuuri...you're...pregnant." Victor said, his heart feeling like it was about to explode in happiness.
Yuuri lowered his hand as the Russian stumbled back in shock as Yuuri held her hands in front of her as she kept her eyes to the ground, "I didn't want to tell you." that single sentence struck Victor like a lightning bolt, like all breath was leaving his system at what he just discovered and what she said.
"You were going to keep my child from me?" he asked, feeling betrayed again by the woman in front of him.
Yuuri gripped her hands tightly, the tone familiar, "I wanted you to keep living your dream." she said, her voice heavy with pain at the thought of hurting him and causing him pain, "I figured if you had a child with me, you would leave the ice permanently for your child's sake." she felt her soul being ripped apart.
Victor's eyes widened at her words, "Yuuri."
"I want to keep this baby, you don't have to give up everything you've worked so hard for." she said, her voice crack as she trembled with her heart breaking words, "I want you to stay with me, but I don't want you to leave everything you love behind. You belong to everyone when you're out there and I can't keep you to myself if it means hurting everyone else." tears fell uncontrollably from her eyes as she said those words, the more she said them, the painful her heartbreak became.
Arms suddenly wrapped around her, her crying face buried in his chest. Blinking a few times, she pulled her face away to look at Victor in confusion, only to be surprised by a kiss. Her eyes widened while Victor's stayed closed before she relaxed into him and responded to his kiss.
The kiss seemed to last forever before they separated for air as Victor rested his forehead against Yuuri's. She opened her eyes to see his staring directly at her with warmth and tenderness.
"You've been torturing yourself for quite a while now, never once did you ever come to me when you needed me the most." Victor said this very softly, as though any harsh tone would shatter the already fragile woman before him.
Yuuri's lips quivered, "I..." she tried to apologize, but the words were blocked by the lump in her throat.
"Tell me Yuuri, do you even know what my dream is?" Victor asked, making Yuuri stare at him in confusion before answering, "To surprise the audience with your figure skating." she said, knowing that was the answer since that what he loved doing.
Victor smiled and closed his eyes, "Yes, I've fulfilled that dream at every competition, even this one." he opened his eyes, a sparkle twinkling in his bright blue hues, "But recently, I've been having a new one that I'm hoping comes true." he said removing his forehead from Yuuri's, but still kept his arms around her.
Yuuri stayed silent, mesmerized by his words, "You don't want me to not give up my dream, so I won't. Because today, I want to make my dream reality...on and off the ice with you by side." he said, watching as Yuuri's eyes widened with a blush staining her cheeks at his words.
"Victor, what are you trying to say?" Yuuri asked, her voice just barely above a whisper.
Victor smiled softly at her, his finger caressing her cheeks, "Something I have wanted since I first saw you skating my routine." he said, her blush deepening before he dug through his coat pocket and got down on one knee and held a golden ring to Yuuri.
Yuuri gasped softly at the sight of the ring gleaming between Victor's thumb and index finger. "Yuuri Katsuki, will you marry me?" Victor asked the most powerful yet delicate question, all his hopes and dreams depending on Yuuri's answer.
Yuuri felt all breath leaving her system, as though she was being judged before her sentence. Swallowing her saliva, she opened her mouth, "Is this what you truly want, what about your career?" she instead asked, wanting him to consider the consequences that will come with her marrying him.
Victor smiled brightly with an innocent tilt of the head, "Easy, I'll take an apprenticeship under Yakov to coach other skaters. I can't take all the medals." he became serious with a hint of his natural whimsy, "I won't leave the ice completely, I just want to spend the rest of my life with the woman I love more than the ice itself. With you and our daughter." he said, loving the blush that flared in Yuuri's cheeks.
"You're not doing this out of obligation?" Yuuri asked, knowing that their child is part of the reason why he wants them to get married.
"I'm doing this out of love. But I was hoping to do this in the proper order though." Victor said, admitting to wanting to ask her family's permission first, ask Yuuri to marry him, get married then have a baby.
Yuuri almost laughed out loud, "When has anything been proper for you?" she asked with laughter lacing her voice at the thought of Victor of all people doing anything normal people do.
"You can be surprised." Victor said, knowing the irony of his words.
A thought struck Yuuri, "Wait a second, how do you know it's gonna be a girl? You're not pregnant."
"Papa's intuition." was all he said as Yuuri suddenly became annoyed, "Well you're not the one who'll suffer all the pregnancy symptoms." a look of horror came onto her face, "Oh my god, my body's gonna go straight to hell, I'm gonna get so fat again." she said horrified at the upcoming weight gain that comes with pregnancy. Only this time, the baby fat will linger.
Victor merely laughed and told her reassuringly, "Don't worry, you were cute and plump when I met you and I'll still love you, especially when you're glowing with our daughter inside of you." he said, making Yuuri's heart flutter at his words.
"Your answer?" Victor implored, bring them back to the question Yuuri has yet to answer.
Yuuri stayed silent for a moment, uncertainty waging war on her love for him, "Is this what you truly want?"
"It's what I wanted since the moment I met you." Victor answered, love shining in his eyes as he felt his heart race with hope.
Yuuri felt her skin heat up as her resolve broke apart with her heart desiring what it wanted the most since she's been with him. With a smile, she locked eyes with Victor, "I love you, so I want to be with you as well." she paused, as tears of happiness swam in her eyes, "I'll marry you."
Victor's eyes shined with his own happy tears before he placed the ring on Yuuri's finger before standing up and pulling her into his arms again to give her a kiss that marked their engagement. Yuuri returned the kiss the way she would perform Eros, only this wasn't a performance, it was her feelings being poured out to the man she loves.
They separated to catch their breaths, but could not stop the smiles that can never leave their faces. "You've truly made me happy, I promise, I'll make you the happiest wife there is." he said, making Yuuri giggle, "I know you will." she said, not doubting him, "And I'll be there for you no matter what." she added, making her own promise as Victor smiled, being the happiest man in the world.
"But there is one problem though." Victor said, realizing an error he made recently.
"What is it?" Yuuri asked in confusion at Victor's statement.
"I didn't pick a romantic setting to properly propose to you." he said, remembering his mistake when he realized that they were still behind the bleachers. "There's no candlelight dinner, no flowers, no moonlight and no frozen lake that I wanted to propose to you on as we ice skate." he said, as though he was confessing a crime.
Yuuri tried to keep her mouth closed, but it proved futile as she burst out in musical spurts of laughter that made more tears come to her eyes, "Now I know I love you." she chortled, wiping away the tears from her eyes as she regarded her husband-to-be with joy and love.
Victor couldn't help but smile at her laughter, wanting to hear more of it in the years to come with their marriage. Taking her hand with the ring, he placed a kiss to her knuckles, close to said ring, "I'll make up for it by giving you a beautiful wedding." he said, making Yuuri blush at his action, "Victor." she whined, feeling embarrassed but mostly happy at his ever whimsical personality.
Victor laughed before wrapping an arm around Yuuri and leading out from behind their private area. For the first time, he finally earned something that brought him more joy than a gold medal ever could in the past.
"Victor." Yuuri voice brought Victor out of his musings as he turned his face to his fiance...it has a nice ring to it. No pun intended.
"What are we gonna tell everyone?" she asked, slight worry in her eyes knowing that the two of them will be all over the media with this engagement and pregnancy.
Victor smiled before answering, "Don't worry my beautiful жених (fiance), your future husband has already figured it out." he said with so much confidence that it made her heart jump out of her chest.
"For some reason, that leaves me even more worried than relieved." she laughed, knowing Victor well enough to figure out that he wants to surprise everyone.
Victor tightened his embrace as they continued their walk, "Trust me, you're going to love it." he said in a sing-song voice that left Yuuri coming up with multiple scenarios that only Victor would act out.
"Oh god, what you gonna do?" Yuuri said in fake-horror as they made it to the hallway where other skaters gathered.
"You'll see." Victor said before placing a kiss to the top of her head, enjoying the shiver of delight that came from his Yuuri.
In his mind, he was already hatching his plan to tell the world that he's the luckiest and happiest man in all of existence.
I was planning to make this a one shot, but after watch that banquet scene in episode 10, I plan on making the second chapter the banquet and leave you guessing on how Victor will announce their engagement and pregnancy. The third chapter will show the birth of their child. In other words, this one shot is becoming a three shot.
Anyway, leave me a review and tell me which part made you laugh and cry.
Btw, I cried in the middle of this chapter, how pathetic is that?