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Note: Currently getting very pissed off with 'Aftermath'. I know where I want it to go and what I want to do but every time I sit down to write it the ideas just don't seem to fit. In the past week I've only wrote over 200 words on the next chapter. Help I'm malfunctioning. Anyway, please enjoy this while I try to fix 'Aftermath'. I wrote this a few weeks ago for an English assignment in class and achieve a B+. I made up the pasts for Elizabeth and John.
Spoiler: Set straight after 'Siege part 2'
Duty
Elizabeths' POV
The Wraith are coming, there's nothing I can do to stop it. Many of my people are going to die and I have no power. John told me we'll win, that we have the power to survive, but I'm not so sure.
I find myself walking up from Nightmares in the middle of the night, nightmares in which I see John, Rodney, Aiden and Teyla. All dead. All killed by the Wraith and I'm next. I went to see Dr Heightmeyer about it, she told me it was normal, that I wasn't the only one, but it doesn't calm me.
My people are scared, scared that they are going to die. When they signed up for this, they had no idea what they were getting themselves into. Neither did I. I can't help but feel guilty about it. I feel responsible for these people, I have done since we arrived here, but when Colonel Everett walked through the Stargate I knew that the responsibility had been lifted from me. That he was in charge and I didn't have to worry, but that's not who I am. If being a diplomat as taught me anything it's that a leader can not turn their back on people who they are responsible for, that you have to lead them, right to the end. That's what I'll do.
The
strength of the people around me as been…amazing.
Rodney as
come so far the last few months. He's changed so much, become a
stronger and braver man, if not still a little arrogant.
Aiden as grown up so much from a boy into a man. He's discovered his strengths so quickly, he's still so innocent though, sometimes so oblivious to the pain and suffering of others, but sometimes, when he sees death up-close, he is made stronger and he makes the promise to change everything for those people, so they don't have to feel pain.
Teyla, so sweet, so oblivious to most things about us. Mesmerized by the simplest things. Like a child I feel responsible for. I found myself caring for her more and more, just like a mother. She's so brave, she put herself at risk for us when she connected herself to the Wraith, my little girl wanted to help us without thinking about herself.
John Sheppard, the arrogant, cocky, insubordinate flyboy and the one person I've felt myself connect strongly with. Apart from the obvious differences we're so alike, we like the same foods, some of the same films, we both lost our parents when we were young, both wanted to make a difference in the world. I trust him with my life; but I don't know if he trusts me. He says he does, he told Colonel Everett he trusted and respected me, but I'm still worried he doesn't. He disobeyed a direct order, although he swears to me he's sorry I don't feel he is, in his heart he believes what he did was right.
He's just embarked on a suicide mission, he's going to fly a puddle jumper straight at a Wraith hive ship and detonate a nuclear bomb. I know he's not coming back, but I can't believe it. If he doesn't come back I'm not sure I'll ever know how we truly feel about each other, whether we do trust each other or whether it's a cleaver illusion, but for now I have a city to save and friends to find and protect. It's my duty, my responsibility and I'll follow it to the end.
Fin…