"Out of the ashes I'm burning like a fire you can save your apologies you're nothing but a liar I've got shame I've got scars that I'll never show. I'm a survivor in more ways than you know, cause all the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound so ashamed so confused I was broken and bruised Cause now I'm a warrior now I've got thicker I'm a warrior I'm stronger than I've ever been and my armor is made of steel you can't get in I'm a warrior and you can never hurt me there's a part of me I can't get back a little girl grew up too fast.. I'll never be the same..." (Warrior-Demi Lovato)

Olivia's so used to being told to aim high, her efforts aren't enough and anyone she loves isn't good enough. So when it comes to Fitz he's someone she wants to treasure, she feels he is more than enough, but at the same time can't bring herself to give all of her to him, she feels as if she is unworthy of this man. Time after time he's shown her how much she means to him, how he will give up his life if it means he could have her and she doesn't believe him.

I don't know what I need to do liv… I've done everything I can to show you what you mean to me. I would give up everything in this life if it meant I would be left with you. Why can't you see that? What happened to you that's left you this numb and shut off to love? All I want to do is love you… you just have to let me in… sorry, I didn't mean to write on such a sour note I just hate how things ended with us before you left.

p.s. Do those reasons have anything to do with why you left me here by myself? Ugh I miss you.

-Love Fitz

Olivia reads the letter over and over unsure of how to reply, not wanting to go into that part of her life but she would have to soon, this man wants to marry her. So in order for her to do that both she and Fitz would have to have a sit down with her past. She would have to take some time off away from teaching Yoga and he would have to talk time away from his writing, this wasn't just something that could be fixed overnight. As much as she wanted to make excuses for not replying to his letter or to him when she got home… she knew she had to.

As much as I hate talking about me and getting all personal, I know it needs to be done… so we'll discuss those issues and how to handle them next week when I return home. Yes, I know you've showed me you love me in every which way possible, I'm not blind to that. I know you love me and I love you equally if not more, but I know there are some things I need to come to terms with and that shall happen in due time. And No, none of those issues have to do with why I left lol I have clients who prefer private/couple classes you know this! Plus I think we need a little time away from one another… things did end badly but everything's fine. I'm sorry I love you, I love you, I love you and I'll be home before you know it.

p.s. I miss your mouth on nine… I might be home sooner than I thought.

-your sweet baby, livvy

Olivia knows Fitz loves her, but she just can't seem to grasp how much and/or if he's really that serious. With all the horrors from previous relationships she can't find it in her to open up completely.

Olivia sat in her mini office that's set aside from the studio contemplating cancelling her appointments for the week and going back home to Fitz.

"Miss Pope, your clients are here shall I have them wait or go on in to the studio?"

"You can have them go on in, I'll be in shortly." She replied to her assistant.

Any thought of going home vanished now, it was too late. She hits send on the email and sighs heavily hoping this yoga session will help clear her mind.