"Why won't you accept my feelings?" I demanded.
Shizuku just looked down, completely immobile between my arms. What did I not have that Haru did? A violent nature? Idiotic personality? Annoying straightforwardness? She even told me that I was charming! Didn't that mean ANYTHING to her? She looked up with a guarded uncertainty, her face still a pink haze.
"Yamaken-kun, I did say that you were charming and I do like you." My heart lifted into my throat and I almost choked at her blatant confession. "However-" Just as quickly as my hope was lifted it plummeted back down. "-after looking at the advantages and disadvantages I've decided that Haru is better." She stated.
What were we? Just a complicated Venn Diagram to her? I steeled myself for the immediate rejection, but she just studied my face. Waiting expectantly. So she wanted me to say something.
"Shizuku, no matter what I say you'll still pick Haru, so how about what I do?" I breathed. Before she could respond I bent down and leaned closer. Her eyes were wider now, her face more crimson
"Close your eyes." I ordered and she complied. I waited for a sign of protest. When it seemed safe I closed the distance.
Surprisingly she wasn't the unresponsive one. Two small hands grabbed fistfuls of my hair. Tugging me near to the point of painful. Nimble, quick, forcing and skillful would be a relative description of her tongue.
At first I was immobile, too shocked to do much.
Wasn't I the one who was supposed to take charge?
Eventually I got the feeling from the impatient nibbles on my bottom lip I was supposed to do something.
I pressed closer and grasped her narrow waist. She seemed minute in comparison to my hands. Before I could do anything else she broke away.
"Yamaken-kun, it appears that I am only a peculiarity to be explored for you. If you have no wish to pursue these emotion then neither shall I." She blatantly stated. Her eyes bored with silent accusation. Unwinding her fingers from my hair she gently pushed my hands off of her waist. "Do it with passion or not at all."
And then she left me, in the alley, sitting on my ass, swearing under my breath- my legs turned to jelly.