So, im kinda new to fanfiction, and I badly wanted to share this Kogan story with you guys, sorry if sometimes you can't understand me, it's just that im Mexican, I usaly just speak in Spanish, so yeah, enjoy this!
WARNING: Character Death
PAIRINGS: Kogan, slight Jarlos
BASED ON THE ONE DIRECTION SONG "MOMENTS"
Shut the door, turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this even though I try
Kendall was sitting there, next to Logan, he was asleep, and Kendall was just watching his boyfriend, before he leaves life because of a serious terminal cancer.
Logan opened his eyes and he smiled when he saw Kendall, but that one-sided smile faded when he saw the blond's sad expression.
"You know I still have a bit of time, right" Logan said with little tear forming in the corner of his eyes.
"Yeah, b-but I can't see you like this" the taller one replied and hugged his dying boyfriend, Logan wrapped his arms around Kendall waist, buried his head on Kendall's neck and started to cry, "I love you" those words were the last ones that Logan said.
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands touch skin
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face
Kendall couldn't help it, so he also started to cry, suddenly, he felt how the cries faded away, and the breathing on his neck dissapeard.
"I love you", those 3 little words echoed in Kendall's mind, tears were falling down his cheeks, he couldn't belived it, his 1 year boyfriend, was now death
If we could only have this life for one more day
If we could only turn back time
Kendall sobbed harder, then, he started to scream, kinda like 'La Llorona', a nurse entered the room almost flying, and separated Kendall from Logan.
Kendall just wanted that Logan came back to life, at least, 5 more minutes so that he also could say 'I love you'. 1 year of relationship, now gone in less than a second.
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moment in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
If he could only do anything to see Logan one more time, it's been passed at least 1 hour that Logan passed away, James and Carlos came as fast as they could, when Kendall told them about what happened, Carlos' started to cry and he buried his face in James neck, James rubbing his hands down Carlos' little back, he saw all the sadness in Kendall's look, so he started hugging the blond, Kendall did the same that Carlos, just cry, because, when you lose a friend, you lose a part of your soul.
Close the door
Throw the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgement is clouded
Like tonight's sky
The now trio entered 2J, James was carrying Carlos 'cause he fell asleep, and Kendall just went to his bedroom.
Normally he would fall in his bed and cry, but he sat on Logan's bed, touched his pillow, tears appeared again so he buried his face in the pillow, curled up and cry till fall asleep.
Hands are silent
Voice is numb
Try to scream out my lungs
But it makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face
1 week has passed since Logan's death, at the burial Kendall couldn't even look at the bier, since that day, Kendall wouldn't even LOOK at his food, he was depressed, he just wanted to hug his boyfriend, scream to the world that he loves him, but, now, he couldn't. He still remembers when they became a couple.
Flashes left in my mind
Going back to the time
Playing games in the street
Kicking balls with my feet
Dancing on with my toes
Standing close to the edge
There's a pile of my clothes
At the end of your bed
As I feel myself fall
Make a joke of it all
"AAAAH!" Logan yelled of pain, he accidentally hit is toe with a chair and it HURTED! Kendall looked up and saw Logan sat by his side rubbing his foot.
"Want me to rub it?" Kendall look at his friend. "Yes please".
Kendall took the foot and started rubbing, Logan screamed again and laid his head in Kendall's shoulder, then, he look up and both stared into their eyes, suddenly, they were leaning close and crushed their lips into a kiss.
When they split apart, Logan, innocently, asked Kendall, "Would you be my boyfriend?" Kendall just lifted Logan's face, kissed him again and told him, "Of course"
Those memories broke Kendall's heart, he needed Logan, so, one night, he just grab a knife, went to the bathroom and killed himself, maybe that way he could see Logan again, because he was his entire life.
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice your reason to be
My love, my heart
Is breathing for this
Moment in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
So, how was it? Not good right? Yeah, I also cried when I was writing, tought it looked better in my mind and Spanish talked ._.