A/N: I know, I know I have another story but I swear I'm updating that one on tomorrow. Song is by Flyleaf-Something I Can Never Have. This story was made because I let my friend see it and she would not quit pestering about it. So I hope your happy Ally, I've posted it. Anyways onto the story.

I still recall the taste of your tears

Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears

The feel of your tongue scraping the roof of my mouth. I moan as flesh slams against flesh, growing louder and faster with each hit. I moan loudly as you stall my release. The last time this will happen, you want to make it last.

My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore

Scraping through my head 'til I don't want to sleep anymore

Tears drip down my face, sweat pouring off yours. My eyes are so blurry I can't tell if the wetness slowly trickling down my face is yours or mine. Why? Why does it have to end like this?

*Flashback*

"Lucius Malfoy," the Minister of Magic said, "You are charged with being a deatheater, revealing magic to Muggles, conspiring with the Dark Lord, and Murder." I couldn't sit knowing your impending doom awaited you. You were going to prison for who knows how long, I was worried I would either I would never see you again or when you got out you would a totally different man. I was stressed and I knew that wasn't good for the babies, but I couldn't help it! The twins need their father no one can replace that because it has and will be always yours. Lucius what can I, a 17 year old, impregnated, engaged young man, do?

"Have you reached your verdict?" Your silver eyes bore into mine as my emerald eyes relayed only fear and panic while you did the best you could to soothe it away without showing how terrified you were.

"We have. We find, Lucius Abraxas Malfoy guilty of all but two charges. Revealing magic to Muggles and Murder." Dread and relief filled me at the same time as the Minister gave out your sentence 17 years in Azkaban. I almost fainted had Neville not catch just in time. I cried tears of sorrow while others cried tears of joy.

*End of Flashback*

"Ahh!" I screamed your name over and over again tonight. Before we finally finished.

Come on tell me
You'll make this all go away
You'll make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing

"I love you Harry James Potter." You whisper in my ear, "Don't forget that. These 17 years will pass by in no time."

"I love you too Lucius Abraxas Malfoy." I place my head on your bare shoulder, "I hope they do."

And I'm starting to scare myself
You'll make this all go away
You'll make this all go away
I just want something
I just want something I can never have

That was something I could never have a family. You died from a disease that was spreading in the prison but not before telling me you loved me and be happy. I'm widowed as someone killed Draco not two today's after you'd been sentenced to Azkaban. Killed in his sleep. The kids ask about you, all four of them, they've all grown up. Now I'm getting ready to meet you love as our kids cry in grief I whisper a farewell and love to all of them. Like I told you before no one can fill your place. I've missed you.

~*END~*